I don't know what I am doing. /groan/ I'm mad...
Did I not just say I'm mad? How can Gravitation belong to me/bangs head against wall/
Pairings : Yuki x Shuichi (I'm a fan of this!)
Teach Me How
"Teach me how to let go." His voice lowered to a haunting sorrowful decibel, and my heart gave a soft lurch.
What a request to ask from me. Such a cruel question that tore my heart to pieces right in front of me without even him knowing. Worse still, he never had the right to make me feel so.
How could he, when he did not love me anymore?
More so, did he not realize that his affections have shifted focus to another? Perhaps he did not, but I, with all my jealous aching heart felt it, saw it, heard it. He was blinded, and, after all that he had gone through, strangely innocent. Perhaps he had never really known true love, but I do. I am feeling it now, and watching it slowly kill me inside out.
Still, I cannot understand why he would feel sad, especially when I am trying to spare him from the pain of losing a chance of obtaining happiness? What is this odd attachment he held towards someone he plainly does not love anymore?
Hearing him ask me that question makes me want to burst out in snorts of laughter that would probably end up in tears.
But, in the end, if I were to choose, I would rather my tears be shed than his, to be enveloped in darkness rather than allow myself to witness his crumbling despair. I know, I had never wanted it to come to that, for I prefer it to be just the two of us, forever in our own sacred world. But it is just a dream, for our world is not our own, for it is forever under the gaze of scrutinizing eyes, and it is no longer just the two of us, not with his unconscious affections to the other, whose name I could not seem to say.
He is unknowingly cruel. But it is alright. I accept the role I am to play in this.
Slowly, reluctantly, I pulled my hands out of his desperate grasp, as gently as I could.
"Like this."
I turned around quickly, so that I could not see crystalline moisture streaming down his face. Perhaps, to him, I had turned my back upon him roughly, quickly, as if I could not have been more eager to be rid of him. But, it is alright.
Because this is how it feels like to let go.
Like this.
Yeah...technically this can be from both POV, whether Yuki's or Shu's. However, I think that it suits Yuki more.
Yep, teach me how to improve! Give me comments and ideas on how to write better, tell if it's OOC or something ok? And, if it does suck, tell me!