Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade.
Title: Can't Fight Love
Chapter Title: Confusion of the Heart (A Betraying Dream)
Rating: T
Categories: Angst/Romance.
Summary: Ray is in deeply in love with…? But what if she's married? Kai/Mariah/Ray. Who will Mariah choose? YOUR CHOICE!
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Status: A short story with chapters.
Notes: Sorry for the long wait! Here's your pitchforks and torches… how about you give me a head start? New layout.
Thanks to Reviewers:
Beymistress05, m, Tai-for-you, EVILkrazyMONKEYS, Lyrikkal (yes, I admit that Kai is OOC but I guess he changed... looks around innocently... I didn't threaten to steal his blue face paint... whistles), '-devil-angel kid-' (I don't know where I get it from. Maybe it's just my crazy brain. I don't know... music always helps...), Sora Takenouchi Ishida, morjonse, Zakurrah-Chan (a vote for both... ok!), Anonymous (I'm still thinking over an alternate ending but how to do it?), Bluestray, Kutekitten, rAvE-aNgEl-RoSeS, EyedMay, Crismon Eyes, kurama, Ami, Amaya (I sent you an email. Hopefully you got it.)
Let me make this clear – when I mentioned children a few chapters back… it was a possibility in the future! Not now! As far as I know (hell, my plot changes constantly), Mariah is NOT pregnant.
CAN'T FIGHT LOVE
Kai/Mariah/Ray
Ray is deeply in love with…? But what if she's married? Who will Mariah choose? Your choice!
Flowerperson
© 2005
Chapter 7
Confusion of the Heart
(A Betraying Dream)
The sun was shining upon Mariah's face – she knew that without opening her eyes. She welcomed the warmth with a toothy grin as she lay upon something that had to be grass blades. Her pale hand ran through the blades, and she sighed in contentment. This scenery seemed to be absolutely perfect – a utopia!
"You know that you could get sunburn if you don't protect your skin," a male voice to the side said. She turned and saw what first seemed to be a black silhouette, but then turned into Kai. He was smiling and he leant forward and placed a kiss on her forehead.
His lips were smooth against her skin but slightly dry. She licked her bottom lip unconsciously as she imagined his deep kisses and how they made her feel so warm and loved inside – Kai's kisses would be required if this place was to be truly perfect. Her slender fingers reached for his slate hair and began toying with it. His hair was surprisingly soft (especially for its strange style) and was very thick.
Maybe one day Kai would let her wash his hair.
"One day," he laughed gently as if he had heard her thoughts. It made sense – they were soul-mates, right? He could sense her feelings, hear her thoughts and make her heart race…
It thumped harder against her chest as he leant over and touched her lips with his own. If it was possible, his kiss was even more perfect than the others. Was it possible? Surely not! But yes, the feelings she got from this contact before seemed increased tenfold. She moaned silently and reached for his scarf, trying to pull him closer.
She opened her eyes, seeing that his mahogany ones were shut. His arms enveloped her and she purred in a similar state of that of a cat. His chuckles caused trembles down her spine – ones of pleasure. He was holding her, and did she need anything else?
He felt so good – so beautiful. When he was not with her, she yearned for his touch. When they were apart, Mariah was incomplete. When Kai was asleep, she could hear his murmurings of her name. She knew that he loved her.
And she loved him. There wasn't anyone else made her feel like Kai made her feel.
Except…
Suddenly Kai's scarf was gone and her hands instead were holding the collar of some other type of clothing. There was not so much hair touching her face and his skin seemed warmer. His kiss became deeper – more urgent and hasty, as if he was trying to savour this moment. This feeling of need spread to Mariah and she also demanded more passion from this kiss.
His hand stroked her cheek delicately but these fingers did not feel the same as Kai's – the Russian's were much more callused. She did not stop the kiss, however, feeling the hot feeling spread from her heart and stomach. She was becoming greedy, wanting and desiring more and more of this heavenly lip-lock.
Eventually, the two parted due to the lack of oxygen and Mariah's eyes remained closed as she reminisced on the taste of his lips – it seemed different to that taste that she remembered Kai having.
She had to open her eyes soon and when she did, she had to rub them to make sure that they weren't playing tricks on her. It wasn't possible! It couldn't be!
"Ray?" she timidly whispered. Oh no, no, no! She couldn't have enjoyed that!
And yet, she licked her lips again, wanting more of his sweet taste. "Shhh…" he cooed quietly. "It's ok, 'Riah." 'Riah. She never let anyone else call her that – not even Lee and yet he had said a simple sentence and her toes were curling already like she had a craving. And oh dear, she certainly did have one. She craved him. His kiss, once more!
"But… Kai…"
He shushed her once more, placing his right index finger against her soft lips. She pouted – puzzled – but the look in his golden eyes made her melt to a gooey mess. "You're so beautiful. For as long as I live, I won't let you go."
Mariah blushed helplessly like the young girl she once was as his hand stroked her cheek with a tenderness that made her feel so ashamed at herself for her husband – her love Kai. She looked away shamefacedly and he tilted her chin so she faced him. "Look into my eyes, 'Riah." The eyes of love, a voice whispered deep inside her mind. Obviously not the logical part!
His eyes were twin suns, shining the light, guiding her. Her own eyes centred on his slightly swollen lips as she remembered their taste – his taste. With that kiss, he had taken a hold of her soul and he still had it tightly in his grasp. "Trust me," he whispered into her ear. She shivered as his warm breath fanned her pink bangs.
And her mind couldn't stop yelling: Kai! Kai! Kai!
She silenced it angrily, gazing deep into her fellow neko-jin's amber eyes. "I never knew that feelings like this could exist. This is pure love." He reached in closer and captured her lips with his own. There was yet another deep kiss and Mariah purred deep in her throat and the warm feeling in her abdomen increased when she felt him purring also. She was soaring; her emotions were travelling to places she had been many a time.
With Kai. And with him.
But what had happened last time? He had hurt her! He had betrayed her!
He didn't mean it; he was just a teenager then. He knew that he loved her now.
He could have been only jealous of Kai – just like he had been jealous of Mystel flirting with her.
She pulled away abruptly, turning away from Ray. "You'll just break my heart again," she said. She didn't know if she was telling him or herself. Either way, it voiced her fears. Could he shine the light on this fear and eradicate it?
"No, 'Riah. I won't. I love you. Trust me, and I'll show you how much I love you. Reach for me, and I'll show you how much I need you. I'm desperate, Mariah. If you don't love me, I'll die."
His voice had changed in the middle of the last sentence. She looked up and saw Kai looking at her emotionlessly but his mahogany eyes were full of tell-tale tears.
"If you leave me, I'll die."
The man changed once more and became Ray. A dark swirl took a hold of Mariah and pulled her out of what she suddenly realised was a dream (it had felt so real!).
When I'm with you, my heart still beats.
Mariah woke up in a sweat, an empty half of the bed beside her. Where was Kai? Her hands caressed the imprint of his body shape in the mattress before the pink-haired woman sighed and leant back against the pillows.
It was just a dream.
But she dreamt it.
It doesn't mean anything.
It meant everything.
I don't love him.
She loved him.
Do I love him?
Did she?
Does the dream mean something?
Did it?
Does Ray love me?
… Did he?
No, she strictly told herself; it was a dream! Nothing more!
And yet she could still taste the heavenly kiss on her lips.
Authoress' Notes
Oooooooh! ((does that evil Mr Burns – from The Simpson's – hand twiddly thingy)) Excellent, Smithers… I mean… Readers…
So it seems Mariah's heart and brain are battling – will Mariah let herself get hurt by Ray again or should she stay safe with Kai? And where has Kai gone? Does Ray truly love her? Will I EVER finish this story?
Flowerperson