hey everyone. i haven't gotten many reviews lately. please please please review. heres the next chapter enjoy. and thanks to all those who have reviwed. I've had some questions about this fic, so let me try and answer them all now. This fic is based off of my real life experiance in a way. it's slightly fabricated and put into the outsiders world. but the rest of it is based off of my experiance when running away from home. Frankie and Rikki are real life sisters, now sisters to me in a way, and those are thier real names. Frankie and Rikki. Bubbles is in fact a very close friend of mine that I met once when I ran away from home to Frankie and Rikki's place. We were all in a band and had some real good times. So I hope that answers your questions. And I hope you enjoy this fic even more now.
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN THE OUTSIDERS OR ANYTHING FROM IT. I DO OWN FRANKIE, RIKKI, BUBBLES, MIME, THE PLOT TO THIS STORY, AND THE SONG 'DON'T CRY' I HAVE IT COPYWRITTED PEOPLE, SO TRY TO STEAL IT AND YOU'LL BE SUED. I AIN'T JOKING WITHER, YOU WANT I'LL PROVE TO YOU IT'S COPYWRITTED. IT WAS COPYWRITTED IN MAY 1997 HOLLY JENKINS. SO YEAH, PLEASE DON'T TAKE IT. I AM IN NO MOOD TO SUE ANYONE, BUT WILL IF NECESARY.
CHAPTER#5 VOICES IN THE WIND
MIMES POV
After the concert we all went home. The guys came over again for a celebration. I wasn't much in the mood for celebrating. last night's little trip down memory lane put me in a wierd mood. It made me remember a song I had written just shortly after Rikki had saved my life.
"Did I ever write that down?" I asked myself.
So I began searching through my closet and old bags. Finnally I came across the bag that was used to stow what little things I had to leave with.
FLASHBACK
"Okay, Mime, your the only one left to get stuff. When will your parents be gone?" Bubbles asked.
"Thier at work now actually." I said.
"When are they gonna be home?" Frankie asked.
"Not for at least another six hours." I said.
So we left off to my house. When we got there the girls could tell why they had met me the way they did. It was a run down hell hole. I ran inside and grabbed the only bag I had and stuffed what little cloths and favored belongings I had into then we left. Never looking back.
END FLASHBACK
That was some day. We went to everyones house when thier parents were gone and grabbed what we would need then left. We had all agreed to never go home. And for the past two years niether of us so much as had a single thought about breaking that promise.
Inside the bag was an old worn notebook. The pages looked like they would crumble at the smallest touch, but they wouldn't. I looked inside finding old stories and lyrics until finnaly I found what I was looking for. I had made the lyrics and sheet music for this song. I grabbed my guitar, plugged it in, set the volume low, set up the sheet music in front of me and started playing it. I didn't need to read the lyrics. I knew them all by heart.
It was a soft mellow song, but you could tell it was angry from the sound of it. heartbroken in a way. I played the guitar a little more then started singing.
"Bloody bruised, used and abused,
thrashed and thrown, ditached and disowned," i started out angrily but soft.
"Don't cry, don't cry." I sang softly.
(A.N. Means lyric gets carried out a little bit.)
"She says theres nothing more to say,
He kicks you down and out in the rain" I began angrily again.
"Don't cry,don't cry." I sang softly.
"Abandoned and all alone,
There's nothing more left now,
Discarded and disowned,
You can't understand how." I strummed the strings a little harder and turned the volume a little louder.
"Don't cry, don't cry." I sang softly but louder turning the volume up a little more and singing louder now.
(A.N. means chorus and end of chorus.)
"The tears are trying to come through,
Don't let them see you cry.
There's nothing left there is no room,
Don't let them see you cry." I sang angrily but slightly slow. i picked up the pace with the nextline of lyrics.
"Hide behind the walls inside,
hold a blank look in your eyes,
don't ever let them know you die,
don't ever let them see you cry!" I strummed angrily then went back to the normal pace of the song.
"It hurts inside, to let them know you cared,
It kills you that, they know whats there." i sang softly then once again picked up the pace for the next line.
"Just don't let them in,
or let it out,
don't let them win,
keep them all out." I sang then went soft again for the next lyrics but kept the guitar the same.
"Don't cry, don't cry."
"Trapped inside the maze,
the mirrors blank but you know your there,
can't stand to hold your own gaze,
the trap doors gone your lost in fear." I sang angrily then went soft for the next line.
"Don't cry, don't cry."
"The tears are trying to come through,
Don't let them see you cry.
There's nothing left there is no room,
Don't let them see you cry." I sang angrily but slightly slow. i picked up the pace with the nextline of lyrics.
"Hide behind the walls inside,
hold a blank look in your eyes,
don't ever let them know you die,
don't ever let them see you cry!" I strummed angrily then went back to the normal pace of the song.
"Your stuck inside,
you can't get out,
and no one hears you scream and shout,
you won't get out alive,
just remember not to let them see you cry." I sang angrily then went soft for the next line.
"Don't cry, don't cry." I nearly shouted the lyrics now with the song playing loudly, but i didn't care, when i heard this song i tuned out the world.
"It hurts so bad,
it feels so good,
the life you had, the life you took." I strummed not even looking at the sheet music now remembering the whole song.
"But just remember when your gone, They won't miss you much, they won't care for long,
so let the color flow,
don't stop it now just let it go!" I sang.
"The tears are trying to come through,
Don't let them see you cry.
There's nothing left there is no room,
Don't let them see you cry." I sang angrily but slightly slow. i picked up the pace with the nextline of lyrics.
"Hide behind the walls inside,
hold a blank look in your eyes,
don't ever let them know you die,
don't ever let them see you cry!" I strummed angrily then went back to the normal pace of the song.
"The glass is shattered and your weak,
your trying hard to fix that leak,
you can't keep it locked up now,
there's no turning back now!" I sang.
"Breaking down left on the floor,
you cry so hard like never before,
It's flown right out the door,
This is what you always waited for!" I sang.
"The voice is there,
so strong yet weak,
no longer invoking fear,
but to late it can't keep,
the secret that you seek.
And it says to you what it's said before,
you can't hold back as you grip the door, and it says," I sang angrily.
"The tears are trying to come through,
Don't let them see you cry.
There's nothing left there is no room,
Don't let them see you cry." I sang angrily but slightly slow. i picked up the pace with the nextline of lyrics.
"Hide behind the walls inside,
hold a blank look in your eyes,
don't ever let them know you die,
don't ever let them see you cry!" I strummed angrily then went back to the normal pace of the song.
"But you cry, as you repeat what it says."
"The tears are trying to come through,
Don't let them see you cry.
There's nothing left there is no room,
Don't let them see you cry." I sang angrily but slightly slow. i picked up the pace with the nextline of lyrics.
"Hide behind the walls inside,
hold a blank look in your eyes,
don't ever let them know you die,
don't ever let them see you cry!" I strummed angrily then went back to the normal pace of the song.
"The tears are trying to come through,
Don't let them see you cry.
There's nothing left there is no room,
Don't let them see you cry." I sang angrily but slightly slow. i picked up the pace with the nextline of lyrics.
"Hide behind the walls inside,
hold a blank look in your eyes,
don't ever let them know you die,
don't ever let them see you cry!" I strummed angrily then went back to the normal pace of the song.
"Don't cry, don't cry." I finished softly.
I put down the guitar and heard claps from the door. I looked up to see that everyone was in my room pretty much, but I hadn't noticed they had come in. I always get lost when I sing that song.
"That was awesome." Soda grinned.
"Whatever. Get the fuck out of my room. I'm going to bed." I said dryly and fell back onto my mattress.
The girls knew I was in no mood to deal with anyone and that I was serious, but they played it off and told the guys I just needed some alone time becuase I was embarressed. I wasn't though. I loved that song. I just never let anyone but the girls hear it, and they've only heard it once before. I heard a small slow clapping noise at my door and looked up to see dally still standing there.
"The fuck do you want? Didn't I say out of my room?" I asked dryly again.
"No need to be embarressed kid. it was a nice song." Dally grinned.
"I ain't embarressed. I'm pissed." I said truthfully sitting up and lighting a smoke.
"Why? It was real good. You write it yourself?" Dally asked.
"Yeah I worte it. No one's ever heard it before. I never intended anyone else to hear it. It's my song." I said turthfully.
Dally just wouldn't leave though. He wasn't getting it that I wanted alone time.
"Well to late. it's stuck in my head." Dally grinned and sat next to me.
"Great." I said sarcastically.
"So now everytime I hear it playin' in my head i'll think of you." He said.
I loked over at him in disbelief. this was Dally after all. but he didn't look like he was joking. he was supposed to be the hard ass bad boy. And here he was looking dead serious and saying something sweet. I must have died and gone to hell.
"I don't know what it is about ya kid..." Dally started.
"First off, don't call me kid. I ain't a fucking kid all right? And secondly, what the fuck are you trying to say?" I said annoyed.
"Sorry, it's just, I dunno how to put this..." Dally trailed off again.
"Just spit it out." I said.
I hated it when people wouldn't just say what they were thinking.
"Well, god I have never had this much trouble with words before." He said.
"I swear to god Dally, either say hwat you were gonna say or i'm gonna-" I was cut off in my rant when he kissed me.
When it was done i looked at him for a minute. With a What-the hell look.
"What?" He asked.
"What the hell was that?" I asked slowly.
"Well I couldn't get the words out, so I just showed you instead." He said honostly now looking at me like I was wierd.
"What?" I asked.
"No wonder your single." He grinned.
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" I asked mockingly mad.
"If you don't let a guy spit it out and then give him a look like that after he kisses you i am not surprised you don't have a man." He laughed as I whacked him over the head with a pillow.
"So?" He asked after our laughing calmed down.
"So what?" I raised an eyebrow.
"Wanna date or something now?" He asked.
"Sure, why the hell not." I answered.
"That's reassuring." He said sarcastically.
"I'm so sorry I am not on the floor crying saying yes! Of coarse i'll go out with you!" I mocked cried. "Was that what you were looking for?" I asked.
"Actually...yes." He said.
"You are a little to full of yourself Winston." I smiled.
"And your a little too...too...asian." He stammered.
"Great come back. Dork." I grinned.
"So, got any other songs?" He asked.
"Yeah, but for now you can't hear 'em." I said.
"Whats sayyou play that other song again for me then?" He asked.
"Seriously?" I asked.
"Seriously. I liked it." He said.
"Alright. But only one more time. And just so you know I never do this, ever, so your lucky I like you." I smiled and played it again.
We fell asleep in my room together, minds out of the gutter people, it was sleep and nothing more...yet. Befroe I fell asleep I had flashbacks of the days when I wrote that song. They were sad and stuff, but I wrote it becuase I didn't want to cry about anything like that anymore. Didn't want to be weak, so I shut myself off, kept my emotions inside, and put on an invisable mask everyday full of fake emotions, so that i wouldn't get hurt anymore, and wouldn't cry.
So how'd you guys like it? be honost. again, that song is mine and it is copywritted, so don't take it or I will sue. Seriously. The copywrite info is at the top of this page. send in your reviews, tell me what you think. next three chpters will be rikki, frankie, and bubbles hooking up with thier guys. til then, Ja matte ne.