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DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN THE OUTSIDERS. I DO OWN FRANKIE, RIKKI, BUBBLES, MIME, AND THE RIGHTS TO BEYOND THE LOOKING GLASS SONG, COPYWRITTEN JULY 2000 HOLLY JENKINS
CHAPTER #9
THE WORLDS A STAGE
RIKKI'S POV
It was getting pretty late and Mime still wasn't home. But I wasn't worried. I knew the kid could handle herself. I was just happy that Bubbles and Frankie finally started dating. They were real happy with thier guys. Frankie's dating Soda, and Bubbles is going out with Two-Bit. When this started? I have no idea. But i'm glad. I just hope they don't feel bad when we leave.
"You okay?" Johnny asked me.
"Huh? Yeah i'm fine? Why do you ask?" I tilted my head at him.
"You just looked upset all of a sudden." Johnny said.
"I'm fine. Just...feeling a little under the weather." I smiled.
"Maybe you should lay down for a little." Johnny said stroking my hair.
"I think your right. I'm just gonna go take a cat nap." I said and gave him a kiss before walking into my room and laying down.
Johnny's sweet. I like that. But I won't get attached. We always leave. Wherever we go we never stay for long. So getting attached to someone is out of the question. I'm a little worried about bubble's and Frankie dating, they always get attached. Me and Mime though know better not to. To much pain in the past has taught us that there is no love, and that emotions only hold you back. So we cut the string of emotions off a long time ago. They were useless.
If there's one thing that me and Mime can agree on it's that there is no use in caring for someone who doesn't care about you. They say they care...but they never mean it.
"Just like mom and dad." I sighed to myself.
My parents never cared, they said they loved me...but I know they were lying. But I didn't cry about it. I never cry. Just like Mime. Me and Mime made a secret promise a long time ago. To never cry, to never care, and to never love. Becuase it's a lie. It doesn't exist.
"In the end someone always gets hurt, and i'd rather not risk it being me." I said to myself.
It was now somewhere around one in the morning and I heard Mime's window open. She must have come in through her window. I don't blame her. I wouldn't want to walk into the party either. I decided that I really wasn't feeling well, so I fell asleep.
NEXT DAY MIME'S POV
I don't know what was going on, but it seemed like things were getting a little tense in the house. Frankie and Bubbles kept shooting looks at Rikki and I.
"Whats up with them?" I asked Rikki.
"I reminded them that were leaving this place when the car is fixed." Rikki stated calmly.
"So what." I said.
"It's Frankie and Bubbles. And they now have boyfriends...need me to spell it out?" Rikki asked sarcastically.
"Oh. Haven't they learned anything form living with me and you?" I asked darkly.
"Nope. And they've only been dating for two days." Rikki muttered agrivated.
"Well excuse us for having hearts." Bubbles said walking with Frankie into the kitchen.
"We have hearts." Rikki said.
"We just prefer not to give them to any one who so much as looks at us sweetly." I stated.
"Soda and Two-Bit are very sweet. They care about us." Frankie replied.
"Sweet my ass." Rikki said.
"They just care about getting you naked and under the sheets in the dark." I shoot.
"Whatever. Your just cold hearted." Frankie said.
"Yeah, we actually liked being cared for, unlike two certain people who'd rather sit and mope alone for the rest of thier lives." Bubbles said.
"Fuck you!" Rikki spat then bolted to her room and started blaring music.
"Your right, I don't like being cared for or caring, and I am cold hearted." I flicked them off and walked to the door. "Don't bother Rikki, and if I so much as see you today i'll kill you." I said calmly.
"That was uncalled for." Frankie said angrily.
"What did you expect from a cold hearted bitch?" I asked then walked out.
I didn't need this shit. I walked around until I found the park and went straight for the swings. It was almost night.
"The fuck is with them. It's just a guy. There's plenty more out there to piss you off, say the love you to get you in bed, then leave you." I spat out angrily.
I don't get it. How easily someone can say they love you but next minute they swear they never did. It's a lie. Love is a lie. Time was flying by, night was here. I didn't have work, it's easter, but I didn't want to go home. So I started singing a tune I had come up with a while back.
(A.N. You know the drill -means note is held for a little means chorus and end chorus. have fun)
"Wearin'- this mask of pain,
all night and- all day,
now the worlds a stage alright.
But beneath- my feet- it's crumbling,
I try to get up-, but i'm stumbling,
and now-, i'm falling down,
off this stage,
off this page-.
onto-, the next paragraph,
and now-, i've gotta be sad,
but please-, don't, get all that mad-.
Cuz it's only a mask you see,
it's not the real me-.
hiding deep, beyond the looking glass,
I'm falling so far, i'm falling so fast.
This is nothing- but a lie,
it's not really me that's gonna die-.
Now I, skip down the road,
finding red roses,
but the queen isn't home,
no the queen she isn't home-.
So I, walk down the street,
smelling some tea-.
To the madhatter's haouse,
with the sleeping little mouse,
fear not, the rabbits in the house-.
But the white rabit's gone-
he's not on this page,
i've gotta go on,
i've gotta stay sane-.
Cuz it's only a mask you see,
it's not the real me-.
hiding deep, beyond the looking glass,
I'm falling so far, i'm falling so fast.
This is nothing- but a lie,
it's not really me that's gonna die-.
And the cheshire-cat is smiling at me,
I look through the hole- to see i'm asleep,
it was only a dream-, I cannot be weak,
But the problem- yoou see, is the key that I seek.
it's lost- in the dark,
trapped- in a maze,
it's so- very far,
i'm just so- amazed.
I haven't broken down,
I haven't even cried,
it's getting so hard now,
but i've gotta try-.
Cuz it's only a mask you see,
it's not the real me-.
hiding deep, beyond the looking glass,
I'm falling so far, i'm falling so fast.
This is nothing- but a lie,
it's not really me that's gonna die-.
Cuz it's only a mask you see,
it's not the real me-.
hiding deep, beyond the looking glass,
I'm falling so far, i'm falling so fast.
This is nothing- but a lie,
it's not really me that's gonna die-.
When i'll wake up-, I can't tell you that,
the key is still lost-, way in the back-.
until then though-, this mask'll stay on,
don't worry- i'm not com-plet-ely- gone,
Just look in my eyes-, beyound the looking glass,
of this small little mirror- shaped like a mask,
I'm wondering 'round- the darkest of pasts,
but i'm getting so close-, although not very fast-.
I'm trying so hard even though i'm so weak,
to get to the key that I desperatly seek-.
Cuz it's only a mask you see,
it's not the real me-.
hiding deep, beyond the looking glass,
I'm falling so far, i'm falling so fast.
This is nothing- but a lie,
it's not really me that's gonna die-." I finished the song.
I wrote it a long time ago when me and Rikki made the promise to never cry. It fit so well. My favorite book was alice in wonderland, So I made the song. And I really liked it. I looked up and realized it was getting late, so I started on my way home. Rikki was probably calmed down by now, and Frankie and Bubbles wouldn't be so damed emotional.
DALLY'S POV
I just know there is something not right about these girls. I was walking to the DX when I heard Mime singing. So I listened a little closer. How could girls so happy with great pasts and parents they talk about...be so depressed. It didn't fit. Something wasn't right. And how come they never called thier parents. I mean. Me and the guys were over at thier house constantly. One of thier parents had to call eventually.But always they said they convieniently called when we left.
"Something ain't right. I'm gonna get the boy's together and find out what exactly it is." I said to myself and headed to the Curtis home.
I know this was a little bit of a short chapter...but i haven't had many reviews lately. And thier my motivation for writting. So please keep those reviews coming alright. I hope you guys liked this chapy and the song in it. I found it a few nights ago and thought you guys might like to read it . It is copywritten though. So please don't steal it or i'll have to sue. thanks .