Hey peoples. sorry for the long awaited update. I've been extremely busy lately. I have a book on the way as I told you before, and the due date is drawing near so yeah. No worries though. I will let you all know when the book will be published and printed. You might like it if yyou like the storys I have written on here so far . Anywho, enough of that crap. Here is the next chapter, hope you guys like it alot.
DISCLAIMER: I OWN NOTHING FROM THE OUTSIDERS. I DO OWN MIME/MARIKO, REA/RIKKI, BELLA/BUBBLES, FAYLIN/FRANKIE, THE PLOT TO THIS STORY, THE STORY ITSELF, YADAH YADAH, I ALSO OWN THE SONGS CAGE, GLASS, AND DON'T SCREAM. THEY ARE ALL COPYWRITTEN. SO PLEASE IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO USE THEM EMAIL ME AT thanks.
CHAPTER #11 BREAKING AWAY
quick authors note: just to clarify things. Mime is Mariko, Bubbles is Bella, Frankie is faylin, and Rikki is Rea, they will be reffered to by thier actuall names form here on out.
The whole room sat in silence. No one knew what to say or even what to think. The Curtis gang just found out the people they thought they knew were fake. Dally couldn't stand the silence and decided to break it.
"So you all lied to us?" Dally asked angrily.
"Well-" Bella tried.
"Yeah. Got a problem Winston? We had to lie. It was the only way to protect ourselves." Mariko said calmly.
Dally didn't answer. He just stared at her turned back for a minute. Then he stood up and passed her and left, with only a glance back towards Mariko.
Everyone else sat in silence looking towards the door.
"If you have a problem and don't want to help then your free to leave. But don't you dare come back or tell those people where to find us." Mariko said in a strained voice with her back still turned.
The guys looked at each other then shrugged and stood up.
"So what do we have to do?" Darry asked.
The girls all looked at Mariko. She didn't turn around, but as everyone saw, continued to watch Dally's retreating back from the window.
"We need to either fix the car or get them to beleive we went somewhere else." Mariko said.
"Alright, well then you girls should just stay here till we can get them to leave huh?" Soda grinned a little.
At that moment Mariko turned, grabbed her coat, and headed for the door.
"Where you going?" Two bit asked.
"Out." Mariko said and shut the front door behind her.
"Don't mind her. It's not exactly easy on any of us." Faylin spoke.
"She'll have you guys found." Jhonny said.
"No she won't. Mariko's smart. She knows what shes doing." Rea said.
MARIKOS POV
I went walking towards the park. I needed some solace. This was too much.
"Why am I doing this?" I growled out as I reached the park.
I sat down with my arms around my head. Trying so hard not to cry. It was too much.
"I'm not weak! I am not weak!" I almost yelled punching a tree causing most of the bark to come off and my knuckles to bleed.
I finally setteled into one of the swings like usuall. I needed to take my mind off of things. A song. I need to sing something. Anything. But which one?
I thought for a while and then it came to me.
"Cage." I said.
DALLY'S POV.
I watched as Mariko sat and tried to fight off something, and punched the tree out of frustration. She kept yelling that she wasn't weak. Well that was true. Even I would flinch at that hit to the tree. She didn't seem to see me leaning against the dark wall. So I didn't make my presence known. I just watched. Normally I would start a fight. But seeing her like this just took it right out of me.
"Cage." Markio said.
"What the fuck is cage?" I thought to myself.
I found out when she started singing to herself. This was just like that one day. But this song was so much sadder and worse. And the situation wasn't exactly any better either.
"Coming down the halls,
look around, it's not so bad here,
not a damned thing on the walls,
there's a feeling, but it's not clear." Mariko started in such a slow sad voice.
It was almost unlike her own, but it was at the same time recognizable as her's.
"Thier coming in,
have a look around,
but the cage they won't look in,
all thier eyes just frown." Mariko sang out, her voice turned angry at the next few lines though.
"So don't speak,
don't even make a sound,
don't speak,
please don't look around.
The bars are thick,
but the cage is weak,
thier not getting it,
but please, don't speak." Mariko sang in an angry yet sad quiet tone.
It sounded to me almost as if the song was towards me, yet I knew it couldn't be. She didn't know I was even here. I just kept listening to her voice. In a way it was sort of like a calming agent, my anger just slowly faded away with each lyric.
"Venom spewing from both ways,
there's nothingbut the ground,
it won't bring happiness, yet if it stays,
never making a sound." Mariko sang just a little louder then before.
"Dissapproval,
so abuseful,
this isn't very useful.
Spit starts flying,
blood starts leaking,
people crying,
people fleeing." Mariko sang angrily.
Where did she ever come up with the lyrics for these songs. I guess it must have been bad for her. Theres no way it couldn't have been. These lyrics are filled with to much pain and hate I thought to myself.
"So don't speak,
don't even make a sound,
don't speak,
please don't look around.
The bars are thick,
but the cage is weak,
thier not getting it,
but please, don't speak." Mariko sang in an angry yet sad quiet tone.
"Fleash and blood and bone,
collide into the stone,
not welcome or disowned,
just refusal for a chance to atone." Mariko sang out in the angry sad quiet tone.
"No stopping point,
no helping hands,
just atching and point,
safetly in the stands." Mariko sang.
Now I really feel like shit. This song does remind me of how me and the guys are sort of treating the girls and thier problem. Well, how i'm treating it at least.
"Don't take anymore,
time to fight back,
dragged through the door,
but don't hold back." Mariko sang in a flat out angry voice now.
"Questions fly,
phone calls made,
accusing eyes,
not believeing the right side." Mariko continued.
"So don't speak,
don't even make a sound,
don't speak,
please don't look around.
The bars are thick,
but the cage is weak,
thier not getting it,
but please, don't speak." Mariko sang in an angry yet sad quiet tone.
"No please don't speak,
please don't make a sound,
the cage is weak,
as blood splatters the ground.
Shunned forever,
never look back your full,
don't think never,
a remanant stain left from your red pool." Mariko sang out softly.
"So don't speak,
don't even make a sound,
don't speak,
please don't look around.
The bars are thick,
but the cage is weak,
thier not getting it,
but now you can't speak." Mariko sang in an angry yet sad quiet tone and ended the song.
That was a sweet sad song. Even I had to admit that. But then I felt really bad. Because when I looked over Mariko was bent on the swing with her face in her hands and she was shaking and sobbing.
MARIKO'S POV.
"Why am I doing this to myself? Why?" I cried to myself.
I heard the grass move as the wind began to blow a little.
"It's not fair! It's not fair!" I cried out.
I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder and shot my head up only to be face to face with Dally. Why'd he have to see me like this? I tried to play it off.
"What do you want Winston?" I spat out jerking my shoulder out of his hand.
"Just come to see how you were. And to say I'm sorry for being a jerk about shit earlier." Dally said sitting in the swing next to mine.
I stood up and began to walk away. 'I don't need his pity!' I thought bitterly to myself.
"What did I do now?" Dally yelled angrily at me.
I stopped in my tracks and turned around marching right up to him.
"I don't want your pity!" I yelled.
"Who says this is out of pity?" Dally yelled right back.
I was a little shocked and didn't have a come back as quickly as I had wanted so he continued.
"And another thing! Quit saying your weak! You are not weak! Just because you care about someone does not make you weak!" Dally yelled.
"What are you spying on me now?" I asked a little outraged.
Dally stood up and was right in front of me now. Only inches away.
"I'm gonna help you wether you like it or not. Not out of pity, or because I feel I have to. But because I want to, and because I care." Dally said.
I didn't know what to say. There were no smart comebacks popping into my head. No angry thoughts. No nothing. For once I really had nothing to say.
"Just promise me something." Dally said.
"What?" I asked wipping my eyes dry, no sadness in my voice, just calm.
"That you'll come back." Dally said.
I looked at him for a moment.
"I don't make promises." I answered him.
"Why not?" He asked.
"Because I don't want to break them." I answered and left him standing there while I walked off towards the house once more.
Upon reaching home I saw most of the Curtis gang already working on Tank. Our car. Tank's sort of old. Like an old small bus. But it works for us. We painted all sorts of things on the sides of Tank. She's our baby.
"Hey, how goes the work?" I asked.
"Pretty good. Rikki, sorry, Rea said it could wait until tomorrow, but we figure the sooner the better right?" Darry smiled.
I nodded my head and went inside. The girls were still sitting in the living room. Just talking.
"Hey Mariko." They called out.
"Hey, what are we discussing?" I asked.
"Tomorrows gig." Faylin said.
"We're trying to figure out if it's safe to go or not." Bella said.
I thought about it for a moment.
"Yeah it's safe. The guys should have Tank fixed by tomorrow night. We'll do the gig, come back here, pack our shit and go." I said.
"Thats what I was thinking. So everyone agrees?" Rea asked.
I nodded my head, then Bella did, and after a moment so did Faylin.
"Good. We have a plan. Now lets start packing so it's faster tomorrow night." Rea said and went to her room.
Faylin and Bella stared at each other then looked at me.
"What?" I asked.
"...We-...Nothing." Bella said and they both left for thier own rooms.
In my own room it took me a minute to even begin taking things down off the walls. I was so used to this place now. It was my home. A real home. But, we couldn't stay. Or we'd be caught, and dragged back to hell.
"All good things must come to an end I suppose." I sighed and started taking down photo's and posters and drawings.
REA'S POV
I looked around my red room. I'd never have a room like this again. After tomorrow it's straight back to sharing one room and two beds until we were far enough away. Once again back into a lie that we can't escape or else we'll be found. Once again...
"Without a home." I said outloud.
I started packing my cloths first. Leaving out only two pairs of clothing, my gig costume, and cloths for the long ride ahead.
BELLA'S POV
I still can't believe we're leaving. Why did they have to find us? Why can't they just do what they've always done and ignore us? They never wanted any of us. Yet the moment we leave, they come looking, pretending to care, pretending to give a damn.
"Pretending to love us." I said to myself.
It's not fair. The one place I actually come to know as home. And I have to leave. The one place where I finally meet somebody who actually cares, and I have to leave him.
FAYLIN'S POV
There isn't much for me to pack in my room. It's the only one that was left bare. I had a feeling in the begining that we would one day have to leave here again. So I never bothered to put up pictures or anything. All's I had to pack were cloths. But I still took my time with it. I just still can't believe it.
"We're all just ghosts." I said to myself.
It's true. No matter where we go whenever we leave no one remembers us. I don't want that anymore. I never wanted it. I want to be real. Not a ghost. Not easily forgotten. My parents can't seem to forget me. Yet everyone else who claims they care forget me. My parents hate me, yet they remembered.
GENERAL POV
The girls spent the rest of the night packing thier few belongings into boxes and bags. They all had thier things set and ready by thier bedroom doors. The Curtis gang managd to fix the car within just a few hours and went home. And Dallas Winston managed to realize that nothing was going to go his way. Whether he liked it or not.
THE NEXT NIGHT.
It was very somber in the girls house. None of them was rushing to get ready. The usual noise and excitment right before a show was no where to be found. And all's they could think about was one in the same but differant at the same time.
Mariko could not stop thinking about the sinking feeling she got every time she thought of leaving tonight and not seeing Dally again. But she could not figure out why. She didn't care. She didn't want to care. But in the back of her mind she knew, but would never admit to the girls, that she did in fact care.
Rea was thinking along the same lines as Mariko, but instead about Johnny. He was a sweet caring kid, and she would miss him alot, she in fact did not want to leave him at all. For once someone listened. Someone cared. But she would not admit this to the girls. And she would suck it up and leave tonight just as planned.
Faylin could not stop worrying about where they would go next, who they would meet next. And she could not stop thinking about Soda, They sweet guy she had been dating for the past few weeks who managed to see her for who she really was, and not leave. But she knew the Rea and Mariko would have none of this talk. They were leaving, end of story. But Faylin was also thinking about leaving to go somewhere on her own one day.
Bella was the same as Faylin. She couldn't stop thinking of Two-Bit. The boy who didn't want her to change for the world. He liked her just the way she was. And she couldn't beleive she would have to leave him tonight. But just like Faylin, Bella was also contemplating about leaving to go some place on her own one day. Without the girls. Just her.
"Is everyone ready?" Rea asked.
They all nodded thier heads and headed out the front door. Darry was giving them a ride as usual. Even though Tank was fine, the girls did not want thier parents to see thier vehicle. That would be a dead give a way on thier where abouts.
The guys came along as well, wishing the girls good luck. Not saying anything about them leaving. But as al the girls took notice, one of the gang was not there. He had not been there for a few of the girls gigs. But Mariko was once again grateful to the mask that hid her face. Or everyone would have seen the look of sadness.
"Alright you kids ready?" The guy asked them as always as they walked onto the stage with the curtain down to hide them.
"Yeah." The girls all said.
"Alright then. I'll go introduce you." The guy smiled warily and left them alone.
"Ladies and gentlemen. For the last time. I bring you, The Kimono Dragons." The guy said and the curtain rose to reveal the girls in a dark blue light.
"Thanks. Um, tonight will be a little differant then others. I'll be singing the first song, and Mime will be singing the last song. So I hope you all enjoy it." Rea said into the microphone.
(AUTHORS NOTE. I OWN THE SONG DON'T SCREAM. SO DON'T STEAL IT. IT IS COPYWRITTEN.)
We started playing the slow angry music.
"Everythings fine, nothing is wrong,
Just keep telling yourself that, all day long.
Your doing so well, nothing is clear,
it won't last long, get away from here,
They can smell your fear." Rea sang softly then the music picked up into a faster more angry tone as did Rea's voice.
"Don't slip up now,
don't let them near,
you don't know how,
but your minds not clear,
don't look up now,
cuz here comes the fear.
Don't let it break, don't let it fall,
use all that you take,
but don't scream at all." Rea sang and the music dropped back into a slow angry pace.
"Your mask is here, now glue it on,
It'll hide anything, all emotions are gone.
Like a robot see,
nothing to it just believe,
don't look away from me,
Just listen to them and you'll be fine." Rea sang, there was a pause for a small drum solo before the music went back to the slow angry pace.
"It's all a blur,
it happened so fast,
your so sure,
that you had no past." Rea sang carrying the last word of each lyric out a bit.
"This seems so impossible,
how can you last when your invisable,
how can you speak when your unhearable." Rea sang and then the music picked up for the chorus once more.
"Don't slip up now,
don't let them near,
you don't know how,
but your minds not clear,
don't look up now,
cuz here comes the fear.
Don't let it break,
don't let it fall,
use all that you take,
but don't scream at all." Rea sang and the music dropped back into a slow angry pace.
"Keep up this act of lying,
I know inside your dying,
But it's the only means of surviving,
There's no time left for crying." Rea sang out with the music a bit faster but not to fast.
"I can't see a thing,
I think I have gone blind,
none of this has meaning,
but the words drown in my mind,
there is no reasoning,
there isn't even time..." Rea sang slowly with the music before it suddenly went to my guitar solo of a few chords played non stop getting faster and faster.
"To scream.
to scream..." Rea said softly as my guitar went faster.
"Don't fall away,
this mask will let you hide.
Don't fall away,
this mask will let you hide.
Don't fall away, this mask will let you hide." Rea sang softly and my guitar stopped completely as the drums and bass went into a soft version of the chorus that Rea whispered.
"Don't slip up now,
don't let them near,
you don't know how,
but your minds not clear,
don't look up now,
cuz here comes the fear.
Don't let it break,
don't let it fall,
use all that you take,
but don't scream at all." Rea sang and the music went into a full on angry pace as Rea yelled out the last few lyrics.
"Don't let it fall oh please,
the mask is here for me,
in wonderland your free,
but whatever you do, don't scream." Rea finished the song.
The crowd cheered and we all just stood there, waiting for them to calm down. They did after a whole minute. Then I stepped up to the mic and Rea went over to her keyboard.
MARIKO'S POV
(AUTHORS NOTE; I OWN THE SONG GLASS, IT IS COPYWRITTEN, SO DON'T STEAL IT!)
"Alright thanks. This next, and last song, is called Glass. A few of you in here should understand it. So here goes nothing." I said.
The music started to play, a normal pace, not too loud, but not to soft, and sounding like a music box in a way.
"Such a beautiful shade of blue,
staring through something so ugly,
but under your gaze I can't move,
i'm frozen inside, your eyes so cold.
Looks can be decieving,
but yours are just deadly,
don't worry, I beleive,
i'm serious, really." I sang softly. As the chorus came up I storked the chords on my guitar a little harder to make them louder but then rest of the music stayed the same.
"Under your gaze so cold,
I know lies are useless,
this is getting so old,
I'm not making excuses.
I have a life too,
Your approval or dis,
means nothing to me, so much to you,
i'm finished with this." I sang out loudly in a sad tone carrying out the last word of each lyric letting the music go back to it's normal pace.
"This interogation is over,
I won't answer your questions,
my life has gained control forever,
your opinion isn't ever mentioned.
I'll go wherever I please,
the glass is breaking slowly,
i'm leaving forever,
just grabbing needs,
your eyes no longer on me." I sang out softly then the chorus came and I strummed my chords so hard I thought they'd snap.
"Under your gaze so cold,
I know lies are useless,
this is getting so old,
I'm not making excuses.
I have a life too,
Your approval or dis,
means nothing to me, so much to you,
i'm finished with this." I nearly screamed out.
"Under your gaze so cold,
I know lies are useless,
this is getting so old,
I'm not making excuses.
I have a life too,
Your approval or dis,
means nothing to me, so much to you,
i'm finished with this." I sang out loudly in a sad tone carrying out the last word of each lyric letting the music die out.
The crowd cheered and this time roses and small stuffed bears were thrown onto the stage. Me, Rea, Bella, And Faylin all put down our instruments and bowed to the crowd together.
"Thank you all so much. We are the Kimono Dragons. This won't be the last time you hear of us!" Bella called happily into the microphone.
The crowd gathered around the stage asking for autographs, so we signed a few. Keeping an eye out for them. We knew they probably didn't recognize us, but at the same time had a feeling of who we were. After the autographs the manager of the joint came up to us and handed us a big empty pretzel jar that was full of money.
"Tips from your fans, they want you to come back again, or for a record to be played on the radio." The man smiled.
"Hey thanks." Rea smiled taking the large jar.
"Not a problem. And here. I've been under paying you." He smiled handing us each a wad of cash.
"This isn't neccisary." Bella stuttered.
"Don't worry about it. Thanks to you kids, business is booming. I've decided to start looking for a new act. But if you all ever come back, don't be afraid to stop by." The man smiled and left.
We all just sat there and stared at the jar of money and our own.
"We have to count all of this when we get back to the house, then we leave." I said.
The girls nodded. We met up with Darry, Soda, Two-Bit and Johnny for our ride home. But on the way out I saw a certain guy wearing his leather jacket and staring at me.
"Look guys, I'll get home quick I promise, but I need to walk home." I said and jumped out of the back end of the truck at the stop sign.
"We're leaving by midnight, with or without you Mariko!" Rea called as they drove away.
I walked up to Dally but stood a few feet away from him at the same time.
"Great show." Dally said after a minute of nothing but silence.
"Thanks. Last show too. It's gonna be a little while before we can safetly play again." I said.
Dally just nodded his head.
"Um...Want one?" Dally asked offering me a smoke.
"Sure." I said and walked over to take one.
But before Dally grabbed one out of his pack he pulled me into an unexpected hug.
"I'm not gonna tell you to stay, and i'm not gonna ask to come with. But all's I want is for you not to forget me. And I want you to know that I meant it when I said I cared." Dally said and then after a moment let me go.
I stared at him for a long moment before finally getting the smoke he offered and lighting it.
"I won't forget. And i'll remember that." I paused and bit my lip struggling to say what else was on my mind.
"I care to okay. I just...you know it's easier if you don't admit it...and...it's alot harder to leave if you do...so...so your not the only one alright?" I said and left for home.
I finally said what I needed to. I was nice about it. But I also think I was a little hard to. But it's not like he would have noticed. Damn why am I crying again? Oh well, at least my mask is still on so the girls won;t se-
Before I could finish what I was thinking I was pulled around and kissed. But I didn't freak out becuase I knew it was him. After the kiss we just stood there for a moment.
"You left this on again Mime." Dally forced a laugh and took my mask off.
I didn't freak out this time when he saw. I didn't care who saw right now.
"I'm sorr-" Dally tried but I cut him off.
"Don't apologize. And...I want you to keep that one. I have another one, just one. So, if anything ever happens to it i'll just have to come back and see you." I smiled and wiped my eyes dry.
"You sure Mime?" Dally asked.
"I'm positive." I said and started to walk home again then turned around halfway down the sidewalk and saw him rooted to the spot I left him.
"Hey Winston!" I called.
He looked up at me.
"The names Mariko!" I smiled.
"Oh, right. I'll see ya later Mariko." Dally smiled.
"Later Dallas." I smiled and walked home.
We packed our things into Tank, said goodbye's to everyone who was there, climbed into Tank, and left. We never knew when we'd go back to that place, or even if we'd go back. But we knew for once, we'd be remembered.
"Yo yo yo! We made three grand bitches!" Bella shouted just finished counting the money.
"What? There's no way!" Rea called jumping over the seat to sit with Bella.
"Well actually there is. Theres a note in here from that guy. I know why he gave us four hundred each. It's becuase he's been holding onto our tip money since we first started that one night." Bella said.
"What? That fucker!" Faylin called from the drivers seat.
"Shit. He made up for it didn't he?" I laughed out.
"Yeah I suppose." Faylin said.
"Alright so three thousand plus, four thousand, plus four thousand, plus two thousand, plus two thousand from all our separate saved up money-" Bella was interupted.
"Who earned four thousand a piece?" Rea asked.
"Me and Mariko. That's mainly just the tips we got or stole off of drunks at the resturant." Bella smiled.
"Yeah, why do you think we wore slut clothes to work?" I laughed.
"Oi, anyways." Rea laughed.
"Ok, anyways,. That makes for a total of...fifteen thousand dollars!" Bella cried out.
We all cheered. And decided that we didn't need to put our own four hundred a piece together. Instead we decided to throw away soem old cloths and go get some new one, not to mention, fix our instruments.
"Ok, time to make a record girls!" Faylin laughed out loud.
And we did. We drove all the way to New York and paid to make our record. We changed our band name to THE FORGOTTEN, and named the album, The Tulsa Gang. It was shortly discovered and made big. So we don't have to run anymore, we're always moving, and Tanks alot better. Bunks instead of just seat. More comfortable seats, and a small batheroom to piss and brush our teeth in. But no matter what, when I go to sleep at night, the only words I hear in my head are...
"I'm gonna help you wether you like it or not. Not out of pity, or because I feel I have to. But because I want to, and because I care." Dally said.
"You already helped me Winston. I'll tell you all about it soon." I smiled and went to sleep.
THE END.
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