I hear the water,
The sea lapping against the sand.
It sooths me,
The way he never could,
And you refuse to do.
You don't let yourself open up,
Not even to me.
It hurts when you lie,
Or when you won't tell me why.
I want to be with you,
But you just keep pushing me away.
I don't know why you do it,
Or if it'll ever stop.
I hope you can get over me,
And if you're reading this,
I know you think I'm full of myself.
I want you to know,
That I never meant to hurt you,
I never meant to leave you alone.
I'm poison to all men who love me.
Any relationship was doomed from the start.
I break their hearts,
Without meaning to,
And I know that some will feel that pain all over again,
When they hear of what I have done.
I never meant to hurt anyone,
I only wanted to stop hurting them.
They never listen,
They keep coming back.
So I'm hurting myself,
Because I don't want you to feel the same pain they did,
When I eventually rip out your heart.
I want to believe we are forever,
But we can't be in this life.
I am sorry I am gone,
And even sorrier if it was you who found my body.
If we were meant to be,
Then we will be together,
Somewhere
Some time
We will have it all,
Nothing will stand in our way.
We will be free,
Noting can stand in our ways.
I want to be buried in the red dress I wore last week,
And wear the silver necklace you gave me.
Remember, I'll always love you,
Even in my eternal sleep.