Title: Welcome To My Life
Author: Alexia Anna
Rating: M
Characters: Ellie Nash
Summary: I'm on the edge of breaking down - mom's drinking problem, dad at war, risking his life for our country and our family. I've always wanted to be someone else, like Paige or Manny. Everyone is lying behind my back about how they so called "caring about me." "Welcome to my life" thought Ellie Nash. One Shot. Rated M just in case.
Chapter 1: Nice Day
It was a nice, cloudless, summer day. A cool soft breeze was slightly blowing and Ellie Nash was in her room crying.
I'm on the edge of breaking down - mom's drinking problem, dad at war, risking his life for our country and our family. The call I got from Sean Cameron." thought Ellie Nash as she cut her arm with her compass. "I never fit in at school, I'm always the "girl who cuts," or the outsider. No one understands me (or the pain I endure everyday of my life, as well as why I cut). I come home everyday to find my mother passed out on the couch, so I come up to my room for an escape. I lock my door, and cut and bleed away my problems. The radio's playing Evanescence and I'm screaming and crying on the inside. My mom doesn't care about me, only her "friend" - Alcohol. She's always drunk and wrapped up in her own self wallow of pity. Nobody knows what I endure everyday, they don't care. They're wrapped up into Today's World. I'm so lost and I don't think I could ever find my way. No one will save me. No one can, not even Sean Cameron - a subject that I refuse to think about. After he left I started to cut again, and eventually moved back home again. His phone call - How he broke up with me to go back out with Emma Nelson. How dare he! Ellie thought about how much she was bleeding. It was a sweet release.
I've always wanted to be someone else, like Paige or Manny. They have perfect lives. I know it sounds weird. Ever since Marco started to date Dylan I've felt more and more alone. I hate the World I'm living in, everyone thinking that they are better than me - pushing me out of their way. Their fake smiles, and their lies about wanting to be my friend. Nobody knows how I feel - I don't even know how I feel at times. Ellie sliced through her untouched skin a few more times.
Everyone is lying behind my back about how they so called "caring about me." Everyone stabbed me in the back. I always smile when no one notices (a fake one of course). I'm not ever going to be "okay" again. I'm never going to be "normal" again. Everything has changed. Ellie stopped cutting and rolled down her arm warmer and started her homework.
"Welcome to my life" thought Ellie Nash.