Oh wow! 30 reviews for two chapters! I think That's my best so far [pathetic but hey, I really appreciate it!]

TKM: Oh, Duo is strong. He just had an emotional moment. I thought I'd give a glimpse of it at first, because I rather like him being all vulnerable and such.

Anissa32: I think you're absolutely right. But I am still at a dilemma, because I don't know who to pair Duo with.

Hells-angel8: I really like Wufei soft side too! Makes him all the more endearing.

Rashalla Entalio: I love Duo's scatter-brain-ness. But I think this Fic is going to be a bit AU. I think the people who are dead maybe alive afterall and the people who are alive maybe dead. You never know!

Bishie Lovers 'R' us: I don't think I made it clear in the last chapter. Sorry! But they're not rebuilding the church. But they are building something over it.

Maria, Windy river, Sarah, Skysha-Tranqui (love that name), TigerRain a.k.a Tara, Animegirl171, HeeroDuo4eva: Thank you so much for reviewing! You made my day! ...or days I should say. I'm still not sure who to pair duo up with but Treize and Zechs don't seem very appealing to me. . I'm having a hard time with this...

Disclaimer: Do you think I would be sitting in my shorts and T-shirt, tying away a story that I'm going to post of if I owned gundam wing? If you do, you really must be thick...

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Apparently Heero HAD almost sent a search party for Wufei. Get that? FOR WUFEI. I bet the others didn't even notice that I was gone. Not that I could blame them. Each of them had their own problems to take care of. Like wedding preparations.

"White lilies!"

"White roses!

"Lilies!"

"Roses!"

"LILIES!

"ROSES!"

Wondering what this is about? Why the wedding of course. Wufei and Quatre were shouti-erm, debating over it. Quatre wanted roses and Wufei wanted lilies and both of them were duking it out in the kitchen while their lovers stood silently out the way, once in a while Heero rolling his eyes and Trowa shaking his head. Insane much? I think so.

Now me on the other hand, I was making a nice peanut butter and jelly sandwich for a snack. Yup, American to the bone. There is something just so calming about peanut-butter, ne?...You don't think so? Yes, I have weird quirks.

So there I was, standing out of the way, not doing anything but enjoying my PB&J sandwich, when Wufei just had to drag me in. Literally. He just grabbed my arm and hauled me bodily in between them.

"Duo, what do you think?"

Surprised by them actually asking me about this, I did my famous imitation of a fish. "um..."

"Duo, don't you think roses are so much more suitable for a wedding?"

Wufei scoffed. "Not unless you're planning to wear a dress. Roses are effeminate!"

"And Lilies are not?" Quatre shot back.

"They are less feminine than roses!"

"Duo!"

"Yess?" I drawled out, looking at Quatre. They really were amusing to watch, both of them with a rosy flush on their faces. Beautiful. I wonder how Heero and Trowa could resist. I certainly-ack! Wait! What was I thinking? Duo, you are even more lonely than I thought you were, I scolded myself.

"What do you think?" Wufei asked me again. I pretended to think about it, taking a bite of my sandwich. I already knew what I was going to day. If I agreed to lilies, Trowa would have Catherine use me for target practice...when she was drunk! And if I agreed to Roses, Heero would put a bullet through my mouth or Wufei's katana would make me tonight's dinner. Agreeing to both will result to all of these. So the only choice...agree to neither.

"Orchids."

My response got two 'WHAT?'-s and two muffled snickers from Heero and Trowa. "Orchids." I repeated. "Not effeminate and they still give a nice pleasant look, a lot like roses."

"He is one smart man." I could hear Trowa murmur and Heero give one of his patented 'hn's. I decided to make a quick exit, this time because Wufei or Quatre could jump me.

"See ya later guys. I'm going to bed!" I waved cheerfully and started to depart when Wufei called me, he voice suddenly serious.

"You haven't eaten dinner yet."

I waved my sandwich in the air. "All in need in right here, Wu-man. Gotta catch some winks before the n- uh, th-the trip to the city tomorrow, yeah." I forced a cheerful smile and pranced out of the room before any of them could notice anything wrong. Gods, I had almost told him about the nightmares that I was sure to get tonight. Better watch myself

What? You didn't think I would have nightmares? Well, there's a laugh. So what if Shinigami is not supposed to nightmares? I do. What if shinigami is not supposed to feel guilt? I do. Oh, how I do.

I did manage a couple of hours of sleep before the nightmare started. It was the same one as always. I was a child again, standing amidst of the flames, though the truth was that I was never there. The church was burning around me and I was trying in vain to find sister Helen or father Maxwell or...just about anybody. Then I find her. Sister Helen.

I crouch down and take her into my arms, asking her to not go.

"Sister Helen..."

"Duo..."

Then I look up to see father Maxwell, flesh burnt and charred, standing in front of me. The other kids were there as well, in a similar state. Sara, Annie, Rex, Josh, Freddy, Mia, Lizzie, George, Jared. They were all there.

"How could you, Duo?" Father Maxwell asked. "How could you do this to us? I thought we meant something. I thought you wouldn't kill us..."

"Why, Duo?" Suddenly sister Helen's face became just as gruesome as the others. I dropped her like I was burnt, backing away. "Why did you do this?"

Then came a chorus of 'Why'-s, from the other children, overlapping each other, echoing, forcing me to back away when Solo emerged to my right. He grinned that lopsided grin at me.

"You keep this up, kid and you're going to be all alone."

All alone...

"But...I didn't mean to." The child in me started to protest. I turn around to run and face a very very tall, hooded figure with flowing black robes. [1]

Shinigami...

And then, I woke up, sitting up straight, gasping for breath, forcing down the scream that threatened to break free. That dream did that to me every time. Scared the life out of me. One hand clutched the shirt as I tried to calm the pounding of my heart. There were no words to describe how horrible that dream was and how badly it affected me.

I slowly laid back down, stretching out on my cold bed. It was a cold night and here I was, sweating. Once I escaped the clutches of the nightmare, I became aware of other sounds.

One of them was Quatre's deep-throated moan coming from the room to my left. Wow, they were still doing it? This late in the night? I rose up to look at the clock and realized that it only said 12:20pm. With a groan, I collapsed back and put my hands over my face. I didn't plan on going back to sleep but that would mean listening to the lovebirds all night. As if I had cued, Quatre's voice rose up into a shout followed by Trowa's near sobbing of his name. Man, they were just getting started.

From the room to my right, similar sounds issued. Soft, throaty murmurs followed by keening wails and whimpers. Yup, the walls were really paper thin. They were just getting started too, I thought as I heard, 'HEERRRRROOOOO!!!!' which was definitely from Wufei, who actually does a fair imitation of that Peacecraft girl and Heero's gruttal moan before all fell silent. Though I knew that wouldn't last long. But in that silence, lying on a cold empty bed, with no warm body next to me, I realized, just how very lonely it was.

How very lonely I was.

[......]

Okay, so I looked like hell the next morning. What did you expect? They had kept it up until four in the morning and just when I fell asleep, the nightmares had taken over again and gave me a harsh jolt back into reality at around 6:00am. Not what I would call very restful.

So I ended up communing with nature for about two hours and coming back in to make breakfast at 8:00. Although, it ended up being almost 8:30 when the others wandered in. Needless to day, they did MY famous imitation of a fish when they saw me up this early.

Quatre rubbed at his eyes and squinted at me. "Duo?"

Wufei on the other hand took it one step further. Turning to Heero, he asked. "Am I hallucinating or is that Duo over there?"

Heero merely grunted while Trowa chuckled. "That's Duo all right."

"Haha. Very funny." I said sarcastically. "Morning, lovebirds."

The others had gotten so used to the name that they didn't even notice it anymore. "Morning, Duo."

"Here you go." I placed the breakfast plates in front of them. "Breakfast is served."

All of them took a tentative bite at the scrambled eggs and the room broke out with exclamations.

"This is good, Duo."

"Hm!"

"Delicious!"

"So you can cook?" That was from Heero.

"Of course I can." I replied haughtily. "You just assumed that I couldn't."

"So the burnt turkey last thanksgiving was another one of your recipes?"

"So I forgot to check the temperature! It happens!"

"And the broken toaster?" Trowa asked.

"A mere accident. How was I supposed to know that you press down, not up?"

"and the cement that was masquerading as chocolate?" It was Wufei who asked this time.

"You should have eaten it before it froze!"

Only Quatre didn't say anything, he was looking at me with an unreadable expression. I smiled brightly at him.

"What, Quat?"

"Just...your eyes. They're all red." The room suddenly got very quiet, it was almost suffocating.

"Having trouble sleeping?" Trowa asked gently. My smile faltered. I turned to see the others also staring at me. As a steadfast rule, nothing was a secret amongst the five of us. Of course I tended to make exceptions. But not Quatre.

Forcing the grin back to my face, I replied cheerfully. "How could I sleep with Quatre here being so loud?"

Quatre flushed red and Wufei snickered. I turned to him, regarding him calmly. "Oh you aren't much better. I just heard your famous imitation of Relena last night. And I don't think Relena's was quite as loud."

This time it was Wufei turn to blush. Heero and Trowa had the decency to look a little embarrassed. To break the uncomfortable silence, I chuckled and moved to clear the table. "I'm only kidding. It's nice to see you guys being affectionate but just don't be so loud in the future."

"I'll keep that in mind." Wufei murmured, ears tinged pink. Giving him a one armed hug, I went to the sink to start the dishes. I heard the others move to the living room to discuss more about the wedding. On a sudden impulse I turned and stared at the picture on the refrigerator. It was a picture of Me, Heero and Wufei with Wufei in the middle, both Heero and I with one arm slung over Wufei's waist and shoulders. I had a bright grin and was flashing a peace sign with my other hand while grinning at the camera. Wufei had a soft smile on his face and he was leaning unconsciously towards Heero, while looking up at him and Heero was looking back, one arm hugging Wufei close his side.

I felt as though I was an outsider, intruding in their moment. Grabbing a pair of scissors, I cut the picture into two pieces. One with Heero and Wufei and one with me.

I was an outsider, wasn't I? [2]

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[1] Think Dementors from Harry potter.

[2] what is it with me and always ending chapters like this?

Oh wow! I must have written this like 6 times over! Hope it didn't turn out too bad!!

I'm not sure what to do next so if you have any suggestions, please do let me know!

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