Wow! This is my fourth update this weekend. I felt incredibly bad for only updating once last time so here are four juicy updates! Though you've probably read three of them before. Enjoy!

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I was in so much trouble.

Damn.

"Uh, Quat! Looks like someone cut that picture. Too bad! That was one of my favorites..." I trailed off as I saw him sigh exasperatedly.

"I know it was you, Duo. But why?" He asked, looking hurt. That really set me off. Usually that would have made me feel guilty, but he was hurt because I tore apart the picture, or my reasons behind it? That was a joke!

"Why? WHY? Oh there's a question. Have you ever wondered as to WHY I always avoided going out with you guys when all of us were together? How you ever wondered WHY I didn't want to go to the karaoke bar with all of you? Have you ever wondered WHY Duo is always so freaking HAPPY?"

He wasn't expecting that. In fact, he looked down right shocked. In the back of my mind, I knew that I shouldn't be taking out my frustrations on him, but I didn't pay any attention to that.

"You know why? Because it doesn't matter. How I feel doesn't matter. Nobody is ever there for me anyway so why bother. As long as everyone thinks I'm happy, they just go about their work, ignoring me. Just tell me, Quatre, when was the last time that you and I actually sat down and had a good talk?"

He had no answer, because the last time we did that was...far too long ago. Even I don't remember.

"Its been too long, hasn't it?" I said wistfully. "I bet you don't even know what food is my favorite."

"Come on, Duo." He huffed annoyed. "It's not like you do about me either."

"Favorite food: Trowa's pancakes. Favorite color: emerald green. Favorite place: Paris. Favorite composer: Fletcher. Favorite musical piece: Brandenburg Concerto no.3. Anything else?"

He looked flabbergasted. He really didn't think I would know all of this. But I did. I knew these about everyone else living in that house. But they didn't know a thing about me.

He looked at the picture again and back at me. "But-but...this? How? Do you...love them?"

I chuckled bitterly. "Do I love them?" I shook my head again and laughed. "Do I LOVE them? Yeah, I do. I freaking do. And I can't do anything about it. You know why?" I asked him smiling. "Yeah, you know why. Because they're getting married! Just like you. Tomorrow! Isn't that great?" My voice dropped down to a whisper. "Isn't that just great?"

"Duo..." His voice sounded so pained then and I knew that he was going to go in there and tell them. But I very well couldn't let him now could I?

Turning to him, I looked into his aquamarine eyes and said solemnly. "Listen, Quat. I've never asked you for anything. So please don't deny me this." I took hold of one of his hands and held them between mine. So different. His hands were soft and creamy, mine rough and calloused. His life, so perfect and wonderful. My life, horrid and cursed. Nothing could change that.

"Promise me. Promise me that you won't say a word about this. They are going to wake up tomorrow morning and get married and live happily ever after and I will not be the cause to stop them. Do not tell them. Not now. Not ever. No matter what happens. If they were to know, I will be the only one to tell them, okay? Promise me."

His eyes searched mine, trying to find something that said otherwise but there was nothing. No one would tell them but me and I didn't plan on telling them ever. I was leaving tomorrow for L2 and they didn't even know that. It hurt too much to stay any more. It was time to leave and make my own life, one without them.

"I-I promise." He said with pained filled aqua eyes. I smiled sadly at him and let go of his hand, stepping back and turning away. I walked towards the house when I heard him call.

"I'm sorry..."

I chuckled again. Surprise surprise. I turned my head to the side to acknowledge that I had heard. "Yeah. Me too."

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Rise and shine. It was morning, my best friends were getting married and I couldn't be happier. Hm, now where did I hear that before?

"Don't worry, Wufei. You look fine." I laughed as the Chinese man turned this way and that way in his white suit. White was his color as much as black was my color. Wufei pouted at me in the mirror and I laughed again.

"What if Heero doesn't think so?" He complained, straightening his shirt for the millionth time. Unfortunately I couldn't persuade him to wear a dress. I calmly removed his hands and straightened the shirt myself.

"I think Heero would have only one problem." I said off handedly, smirking as onyx eyes widened in panic.

"What?"

"Picking his jaw off the floor." I smiled when I got a laugh out of him. "Trust me. You look gorgeous. We just need to fix one more thing." I reached up and pulled out the hair tie that had been holding his hair together loosely. Now it floated free on either side of his face, framing the exotic features.

"Now you look perfect." I dropped a kiss onto his forehead and turned to the other bride-in-this-wedding. Quatre.

"Quatre, stop fiddling with that." I admonished him and straightened his bow tie and collar. "Both of you look fine. It's just a case of wedding jitters. Just think. In less than an hour both of you will be happily married with your soul mates for the rest of your lives. What could possibly be better than that?"

That brought a smile to both their faces as they thought about their husbands-to-be. I picked up something from a near by table and turned back to them. On their breast pockets, I arranged a white orchid on their left. They had decided to do a mix of roses and lilies and these orchids were my gift to them.

"From me." I grinned at both of them. "Now let's go, before we're late!" I ushered them out and saw Rashid waiting. He was going to walk Quatre down the aisle and I was going to walk Wufei, since I was the closest thing to family aside from Heero that he had.

The actual ceremony was...beautiful. The two couples were each other's best men. When I heard the priest pronounce them to be 'mated' I felt my heart clench, watching Heero and Wufei share a kiss so sweet. They truly did deserve each other.

At the reception afterwards also, watching them dance together made me want to cry. There was just so much love between them. How could I have ever thought to be worthy of it?

I did get a chance to dance with Wufei though. I spun him around the room and had him laughing the entire time. His laughter was beautiful to hear. During the war, it was so rare. But now, you could hear it almost everyday.

"Are you happy, Duo?" He asked me. I thought about it. My best friends were happy. And that in turn made me happy for them. So technically, I was happy, right?

"Very." I replied smiling. Just then, Heero showed up again and I relinquished his wedded back to him and walked out of the reception hall. I crossed the gardens to the mansion and went up to my room, quickly pulling out my duffel bag from where I had packed all my stuff. I left no note, because I didn't think they needed any. And also because I didn't know what to say to them. I just hoped that Quatre wouldn't tell them anything after I left.

I walked back out the mansion and stood outside in the shadows, watching them. I could see Heero and Wufei in an embrace, murmuring softly and on the other side of the hall, Quatre and Trowa swaying to the music slowly, gazing into each other's eyes. With one last lingering glance, I turned and walked out the gates.

I did not look back.

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THIS IS NOT the end. There is more. Lots more. Why? Because this is fun to write!! So Reviewww and I'll post again next week!