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"Here you go, Emily. All done." I grinned at her and ran my thumb over the band-aid on the five-year-olds elbow, smoothing it flat. She grinned a toothy grin back at me and threw her small arms around me, hugging me tight. I hugged her back and then let her go as she scampered of to the "playground" or backyard.
So that's where I ended up. On L2, working in an orphanage. Actually I lived there too. I worked as a mechanic on weekdays and work at the orphanage on weekends. Tricia was the one who managed it though. She was a sweet woman. The orphanage got more than half of my paycheck every month. I loved helping out the kids. I really did. It reminded me of my own fun days at the Maxwell church.
Oh and about the building? Yeah, they did build one over the church site, but they were nice enough to leave a memorial with all of the victims. Not that I needed to see it. I knew all the names on there by heart.
I went to the church site a couple of times a month, mostly because the building there was constructed to help the colony. I bet sister Helen would have liked that. About twice every month, I went there to give them a count of how many children were there at the orphanage and our expenses of sorts. It was the colony's way of keeping track of everyone.
It had been five years since I had left them. Them being the other pilots. I kept track of them though. Often times I saw Quatre on television and where Quatre was, Trowa was not far behind. He now managed WEI's security. Whenever Quatre seemed to look a little off, (trust me, I know when those happen) I sent him something. Usually it was tickets for a vacation for Two in Tahiti or something like that, Sometimes during Christmas or New year's I'd send then something. Even to Wufei and Heero. But I always made sure that none of their "packages" could be traced back.
Wufei had opened up a dojo and now it was one of the most famous dojos around. He had his dojo often went around competing in different tournaments. I had attended a few of his tournaments over the years. but I always made sure to leave before either of them could spot me. I even saw Heero. Aside from being the head of computer security, he was also a writer. I had read all three books that he had published so far and I was rather surprised. Who would have thought that The perfect soldier could be so eloquent with words?
I know that they probably tried looking for me. Well, Wufei and Quatre at least. But when Shinigami does not want to be found, he will not be found. After all, I didn't disappear just so that they could find me. It hurt not to be with them but at the same time it hurt even more to be with them. To be with them and witness all the love, knowing that I had none for myself. I knew I would be moping if I stayed there any longer. There was no chance that either one would love me. They deserve each other, I'm not worthy of them, And what more, if they did by any chance love me, they would leave sooner or later. Just like everybody else had left me. My love is one that kills.
"Duo!" I was interrupted from my musings by a panicked cry and a child wailing. I stood up and walked out of the room and into the corridor, spotting Tricia standing by the end of the hallway, with a crying 8-month old Kira. She smiled sheepishly and her blue eyes twinkled. She was a woman in her late thirties and she was even more of a mother hen than Wufei was! A no-nonsense woman. She in many ways reminded me of Sister Helen. Especially her smile. It was the soft gentle kind.
"Help me, please?" He asked desperately, trying to balance Kira and a tray of food in the other. I walked over to where she stood and grinned. When she offered me the plate of food to hold, I merely popped a chip into my mouth and then plucked the baby out of her arms and into mine. Huffing exasperatedly, she shook her head.
"You favor her too much." She scolded playfully. I merely shrugged and held the baby in the air above me.
"So sue me." I drawled out. "Besides, she's cute. Aren't you, baby?" I cooed softly to the baby and she squealed happily, waving her arms in the air. I smiled at the adorable picture that she made.
Kira was also another reason as to why I came here. The little 8-month year old had captured my heart the first time I saw her. That was six months ago. Since then she had taken a liking to me and I to her. Now she only ever quieted down when I held her. Talk about possessive!
I cradled in my arms and smiled at Tricia again before leaving the room to go the kitchen. I wanted a little snack and the little one needed to be fed. Entering the white tiled kitchen, I set Kira on the high chair closest to where I could work while still keeping her out of harm's way. Once then I hummed softly and worked, talking to the baby. Not that she would understand me.
I loved the baby. I loved her like she was my own. If I ever were to have a daughter, it would be her. Six months are enough to love someone. Why I fell in love with Heero the first few months after I met him. Same with Wufei. They...what am I doing? It hurts me to think about them, then why do I do it? Wishing for what may or might have been, but will never be. Couldn't I be just happy?
I really don't know. Like I said before, I want someone to love me. But how can they when it would put a price on their lives? Everyone I loved died. How was I to be sure that it wouldn't happen again?"
"You know," I said turning to the baby. "Its time that I forget about them. Its been 5 years. I should let go. I have a life here. A life apart from them. Its time to forget. Don't you think so, baby?"
She gave no response, instead staring at me like I've gone crazy. Then again maybe I have. I was talking to a baby! But then again, It was almost as though she could understand what I was telling her. Quite amazingly really. Like now.
I sighed and cleaned up, snack all done. Just them, Tricia rushed into the room.
"They're here!" She said breathlessly. My eyes widened and I nodded quickly, starting to move out of the room when I heard a wail. Crap! I had forgotten about Kira. Turning back, I quickly scooped up the crying baby in my arms and addressed Tricia.
"You take care of them. I'll put her to bed and come." She nodded quickly and left to meet the guests. I left for the children's bedroom.
When I entered, all the other children's talk quieted down. I smiled brightly at them and regarded their inquisitive faces. Jonas came forward and tugged my arm.
"Is it true that the guests that have come are here to adopt one of us?" He asked in a low voice. He was the oldest of them all and he was only eight. Sandy colored hair and bright blue eyes, he reminded me of Quatre in many ways.
"Yes, but they are going to stay a while to get to know you guys. Tricia told me after she talked to them."
Jonas gave me a little smile and tugged me down, to say goodnight to Kira. It was a ritual they did to the youngest member of the orphanage. One by one all of them said good night, even the youngest member other that Kira who was Sam, a two year old, wobbling a little. I smiled and dropped a kiss on his head before leaving to go to Kira's and my room. Yup, she had a little cradle right beside my bed. The orphanage didn't have babies too often but when they did, they very well couldn't let them sleep along with the other children. So I had offered and for the past six months, Kira had been with me.
I walked into our room and placed her in her cradle, fully intending to go back out when she started to cry. With a sigh, I lifted her back up and rocked her back and forth. Walking over to the stereo on one side of the room, I turned on a CD and soft music played. Humming softly I danced around the room slowly, watching the baby's sated little smile and drooping eyes. She was so cute.
I lost myself in watching her. Hazel eyes, dark hair, smooth ivory cheeks, rosebud lips, a picture of innocence. Something that I had killed in during the war. But never again.
I had my back to the door and didn't realize that someone was there until I heard a surprised gasp. I turned around quickly, the baby held protectively in my arms. I almost stopped breathing when I saw who it was.
They were there. All four of them just as I had remembered. Just as I had been trying to forget. I saw Quatre's lips open and a whisper floated in the air.
"Duo..."
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