So I stopped. Well, not that abruptly. But with their help, I stopped doubting that they would leave me, find me worthless etc. etc. I think it finally got ingrained into my thick head because I realized that if they didn't love me, they would have left me already. And I think that after five years of marriage, they were pretty used to the fact that relationships were not perfect. That people are not perfect. No, not even Heero. It was just me who had yet to learn that.

They even helped me find a big enough place for an orphanage. And it wasn't even too far down. A couple of miles from the house really and once I finally worked up the guts to tell them, they let me keep Kira. As for Sam…well, I figured that I could handle him being my adopted-nephew if not my son. Besides, he was happy with Trowa and Quatre. However, since we all worked, we needed someone to take care of Kira in the mornings and surprisingly Hilde moved down to earth to start a mechanics shop. Her days were mostly free since she had brought her whole crew with her. So she decided to help her "God" daughter since I had playfully dubbed her the godmother.

Today had been the last day of my training. And my two boyfriends (see I can even say that without stammering any more) had decided that I should celebrate. They had planned a weekend get away and had decided that they would drop the kids of at Quatre's house. The kids loved them already.

"Duo." I turned from where I was wrestling with my hair to see Wufei enter the room. "You aren't ready yet?" I turned back to the mirror and smiled at him when he wrapped his arms around me from behind.

"Almost. Help me with my hair?" I asked, knowing that he wouldn't refuse. Neither of them would give up the chance to touch my hair. Some sort of a weird fetish.

"Of course." He slowly braided it, running his fingers lovingly through my hair. I chuckled inwardly and turned towards him when he was done.

"Thanks, love." I kissed him and we walked towards the door hand in hand. Heero met us downstairs, Kristina, Adam and Emily running around his legs and Kira in his arms. After piling the children into the back of the mini van, we headed off to Quatre's house.

(……)

"Bye, kids. Be good and listen to your uncles." Kristina and Adam both gave me breakneck hugs and I hugged them back with equal enthusiasm. Then I went over to Kira who was currently with Quatre and kissed her forehead gently as to not wake her. "Bye, sweetie."

Quatre grinned at me and winked. "Enjoy" was all he said. I think he knew where Heero and Wufei were taking me, but of course, he didn't say anything. Only giving me a sly smile before turning towards the others. I walked towards the door shaking my head. I wonder if Trowa knew anything.

"Have fun." Yes, Trowa definitely knew something from the way he was smiling. Ah, the whole family was devious. I waited as Heero and Wufei finished saying goodbye to the kids, Heero nodding solemnly as Emily finished saying the exact description of the doll that she wanted.

For being so little, she had Heero all wrapped around her finger of course, it didn't help that he absolutely adored her. I watched them hug and then do their secret handshake that nobody was supposed to know.

"Bye, papa." I heard her tell him sweetly, before she dashed off to play. He watched her with amusement before starting up from his crouch. Turning around, he caught my eyes and I beckoned him with a smile.

"That's it, kids. " Wufei said as he dislodged the twins from his back from the piggyback rides. "We have to get going."

"Bye, Baba." Both of them chorused, hugging his legs tight. When they didn't let go, Wufei started to walk towards us, with them still attached to his legs.

"I'm afraid we're going to have to use the you-know-what." He mock whispered to us.

"Not the You-know-what!" They squealed before disengaging and running off. We all laughed at their little tendencies. And to this day, no one knows what the you-know-what is supposed to be. Just that, when you threatened them with it, they would scatter like dust.

We said our goodbyes to Quatre and Trowa before heading back to the car. It was big enough that it could easily fit three people in the front comfortably. Once we got on the road, I asked them.

"Where are we going?" But both of them merely smiled and didn't answer. We were quiet for a few minutes before I spoke again on a whim.

"Are we eloping?" Both of them looked at me surprised and then smiled.

"If you want to think of it like that." Wufei murmured softly. Heero hummed an affirmative before turning his attention back to the road, his right hand slipping down to entwine my fingers with his.

After a while, the gentle rocking of the car made me so drowsy that I found myself slumped against Wufei's shoulder. I started to push myself off of him when gentle hands stilled me.

"It's okay. Go to sleep." Wufei said to me and I let myself relax against him. I woke up a couple of times on the road, but not too long to register anything.

I only woke up when Wufei shook me awake. "Wake up, sleeping beauty. We're here." I grumbled at the name-calling but pulled myself upright and got out of the car. What I saw stopped me in my tracks.

We were near a beach. Not only that, we were on top of a cliff on the beach, along with a house behind us. It was just time for sunset, so the sky was a palette of oranges, reds and yellows with tinges of violet. I could see the waves gently brushing across the sand, caressing it smoothly.

"It's beautiful." I heard someone whisper in awe. It took me a second to realize that the voice was mine.

"It's a pale comparison to what I'm seeing." I turned towards Heero, frowning at his comment, wondering what else he was seeing, before I realized that he was gazing at me. Blushing, I turned back to the view in front of me, furiously telling the blood to not move towards my face. I heard a low chuckle before I was grabbed and kissed.

A click went off and both of us turned to see Wufei with a camera in his hands and a smirk on his face. I blushed a second time in five minutes and hid my face against Heero's shirt.

"Is this going to be a new hobby of yours, love?" Heero asked Wufei as he came closer.

"Hey, if you two are so willing to pose, who am I to refuse?" He grinned at us, looping one arm around Heero's waist and steering both of us, towards the house.

It was a rather cozy little house. A living room with a fireplace and two large glass windows with curtains, a kitchen with plenty of ventilation, one large master bedroom and a smaller guest room, a bathroom.

After dropping our stuff off in the in master bedroom, we went downstairs to get dinner ready. The fridge was stocked with ready-made dinners and since none of us were in the mood to make anything, we just heated up the dinners. Wufei playfully bumped me hip to hip while I was waiting for the microwave to stop. I stuck my tongue out at him and he blew me a raspberry before ducking out of the kitchen. I brought the remaining two dinners to the living room, where Heero had started the fire.

"Man, that drive was so long!" Wufei exclaimed, settling down on the carpet Indian style, reaching out to grab his plate from the coffee table.

"Hn." Heero grunted, his mouth too full of food to contribute actively to the conversation.

"It didn't seem that bad." I said, scooping out the French beans and pushing them to the corner of my plate. I really did not like French beans.

"That's because you were blissfully asleep! On me!" Wufei jabbed at me in the air with his fork. I speared one of the French beans and waved it at him.

"Don't make me use these." I warned him. But of course, he didn't listen. Instead, he leaned over and ate the beans of my fork and chewed thoughtfully.

"Hm, tasty." Aha! There was my chance.

I dumped all of the beans from my plate to his plate, grinning cheerfully at his dumb founded face. "There! You can have them!"

"I didn't say I liked them that much…" Wufei muttered, shoving the beans to a corner and going back to eating the rest of the meal.

"He did warn you." Heero said, amused. His own plate was free of the dreadful beans and I huffed at him playfully. Why did he have to get lucky?

"Baka. I already ate them." I stuck my tongue out at him and went back to my own plate, finishing it up.

Another ten minutes and all of us were finished. I offered to clean up and turned away the offers to help. Gathering up the plates, I went into the kitchen to rinse them and put them in the dishwasher, deciding to turn it on later. Walking back to the living room, I saw Heero on the floor, leaning against the couch, with Wufei resting against his chest. Both of them looked up as I came into the room, and Wufei held out his hand, beckoning me to come and sit between his outstretched legs.

I walked over to them and stretched out, my back against Wufei's chest, his arms a comfortable weight around my waist. Silence ensued, but not the uncomfortable kind. Thinking was not usually a vocal process for any of us. Watching the fire glow, I was suddenly inspired to know more about my boyfriends.

"What's your favorite season?"

A couple of heartbeats went by before I got a reply. "Summer, I think." Heero replied. I didn't have to look to see the thoughtful furrow between his eyebrows to know that he was thinking about this harder than it should be. "I like the sunny days. They feel so…cheerful."

"Hmm. I prefer winter. I love the sunny days too, but when they come along with snow, they're beautiful." Wufei replied. "You?" He asked, arms tightening.

"Fall, I think. I love all the different colors the leaves turn and fall. Ending one cycle and beginning another."

Both of them 'Ah'-ed and I knew that they caught what I really meant. Another moment of silence, before…

"Favorite color?"

"White. Despair. Purity. Peace." That was Wufei of course.

"Blue. Fresh. Clear. Life."

"Red." I said, and added after a pause. "Blood. Heart. Love."

There was a rustle behind me and then I was being turned around to face Wufei, his black eyes glittering with emotion.

He kissed my forehead reverently, my eyelids, my cheeks and finally my lips, taking them gently and tenderly. I moaned involuntarily and one of my hands came up to fist in his shirt. I could feel Heero running his hands over my back and hair, which only made me give in more. Something was different now than all the other times that we had kissed.

It was shocking to me to realize that I wanted them now. I wanted to be intimate with them. It might sound strange but it felt as if I was finally breaking the barrier that was between them and me. The years of pent up longing finally caught up with me and crashed like a tidal wave.

But I needed to voice it out loud. To give them the assurance and to finally over come that barrier for myself. Pulling away from that drugging kiss, I panted out.

"I want you."

Hands stilled and caresses stopped. Just one quiet whispered question, full of longing and anticipation and yet tinged with concern.

"Are you sure?"

Was I? Yes, I was. I knew that if this didn't happen now, then it would maybe never happen. And as much as I was afraid, my longing for them was stronger.

"Yes."

I got one more mind-numbing kiss, before being pulled to my feet.

"Then we do this right."

And then I fell into heaven.

(……)

Wow! It's been a long time since I've posted! My apologies! I have been swamped with school and SAT's and recitals and BLAHH! But things have calmed down a bit and I thought that I should start writing again.

And those of you expecting a lemon, sorry. But I don't write those. :) but I'm sure your imaginations will do the trick.

Part two of the epilogue will follow. Nothing big, but enough to give it a good conclusion.

Review and let me know what you think!