The day came and went. Carrie stayed in Raven's dark room the whole day. She didn't really want to be around Sue. She didn't know what to believe. But she did know that for sixteen years Sue and her friends had harassed and made fun of and picked on and played jokes on her. Even at a different place, in a different world, with the teen titans, she still felt all alone. Everyone treated her like she was less of a person. At school, they made fun of her. The teen titans tried to help her, but they treated her like she needed to be helped. That she wasn't as good as them. She didn't think they even meant to, that it was just a part of her that never rubbed off. She didn't know what to think about Robin. Maybe if he showed her his eyes….
Under the mask they were so dark, and Carrie couldn't see anything. She couldn't see his soul. She didn't know who he really was.
Carrie wanted to have friends but she didn't think it was really possible. She wanted Sue to be different than Chris but she didn't think it was really possible. She wanted to forget what happened on prom night-the blood and the horror and the laughing and what she did-but she didn't think I was possible.
All of a sudden someone entered the room. It was Raven. Suddenly Carrie realized that she was in Raven's room. "I'll leave if you want me to leave," Carrie said softly. "You don't have to," Raven said. "Raven?" Carrie asked. "What?" Raven replied, in a voice less cold and monotonous than usual. "Never mind," Carrie said. "It's ok," Raven said, "I understand. You don't need to talk about it if you don't want to. I never talked about….well, the whole Trigon thing. Until just recently."
After a while, Raven said, "I want to show you something, Carrie."
And Raven showed Carrie her mirror, and the two girls went into Nevermore.
"Where….where are we?" Carrie asked. And Raven told her. "We are in Nevermore…" (and Raven told her everything about Nevermore). "Raven," Carrie asked, "How do you keep from rage controlling your powers?" And Raven showed her, and taught Carrie how to meditate.
Carrie and Raven stayed in Nevermore for hours, because Carrie did not want to face Sue, and she did not know what to think of Robin. "Why do people act that way?" Carrie suddenly asked Raven. "Why are they mean? Why….?..."
And Raven said, "Some people are just that way. I guess you just have to accept it. But not all people are mean. Some people just follow the crowd….act without thinking…until they realize what they are doing…." Carrie asked, "In Azerath…were people mean to you…?" Raven replied, "Well, they knew who I was….a demon's daughter….a half-demon….so I guess they just assumed…and they feared….but, yeah, they were. But then I moved to Earth. I still feared my destiny, but it turned out fine. Sometimes, I guess, you just have to hold out. Things will change. The tide will turn. Eventually."
Carrie said, "Do you think everything will be fine for me? Is my fate to be made fun of….I don't want it to be…."
Raven said, "You can be whatever you want to be."
Eventually, Carrie decided she was ready to leave Nevermore, so the two girls went back into the real world. Carrie decided that escaping or hiding wouldn't change anything. Robin was right, she needed to face Sue. She didn't know if she could trust her, but she knew that she could at least try. She knew she shouldn't hold a grudge. She hurt. But so did Raven, and by the darkness of Robin's eyes (Carrie felt that there was something about Robin's past that he was leaving out), so did Robin, and they didn't hide from the world, and they weren't angry at the world, and they didn't avoid the people who treated them wrong-they confronted them.
But Highschool was over, and Carrie still wasn't in the real world. She was in a tower with six other teens that also possessed special powers. It didn't really seem right, that Titan's Tower would be her fate….or at least not all of her fate. She wanted to make something of her life….make it more than the horrible life she had during highschool. She didn't know if she wanted to stay in the sanctuary of Titan's tower. For now, she would stay. Eventually, she knew she would have to make a decision. She knew that the World would not wait. Time would not wait for Carrie White. Carrie knew that. But for now, she was safe. Safe, with the titans.
One day, she would find her own world…..
One day, she would find a place in the real world where she would be accepted……
But for now, she realized, that she had seen the truth, from the outside looking in.
