Journals of Salem Part One
Dear Journal,
Well, today is Christmas and I got you from my daughter Billie. She thinks I should have a journal, she says that since she found out about Chelsea and she started keeping one she has been feeling so much better. Maybe I complain to her too much, but it's just that John trying to win Marlena over has been hurting me so much. Sometimes I wonder why he is so blind; I mean one minute he is my best friend and we are relaxing together on the sofa and talking like normal people and the next minute we are off searching for a reason that he can have Marlena again. She doesn't love him anymore and he just keeps on hoping and praying that she will love him again. I don't know what to do, how to win his affections again. Cant he see that I am still so in love with him? Men! In other news, baby Claire is doing fine. However, she is actually the spawn of Shawn Brady! Can you believe that? And she has the Kiriakus name…But I cant let Philip know, oh no! I must protect my children for the time being. I have a plan up my sleeve about when the paternity will be revealed, only time will tell. As long as Sami stays out of this plan everything should go down smoothly. She is awful, that girl! And her sister Carrie…Well, she is a saint compared to Sami. I wouldn't mind Carrie with Austin, at least she wont dump him at the alter or accuse him of something stupid. Well, I have written a lot for now and I am exhausted. John also just walked in and I want to tempt him with my new PJ's, maybe I still have a chance.
Kate
Kate closed her journal and turned and walked out of the room. She was wearing a brand new white silk and lace nightie. John stood in the living room, obviously thinking hard about something. Kate walked into the kitchen with a natural glow about her. John turned to face her, his mind obviously shifting to her instead of whatever he had been thinking about.
"So, did you find anything else out?" Kate asked as she sipped on some water.
"Not really." John murmured. He was staring hard at her right then, his heart pounding.
"Can I get you anything?" She asked. "Milk, juice, water?"
John just blinked and shook his head no. "Okay. Well, good night." Kate took the cup into her room with her and went to bed.
Once the door to Kate's room was closed, John began to murmur to himself. "Your so dumb! You didn't even make a move." He shook his head and turned his back on Kate's door. She had heard everything.
Kate smiled and opened the door a bit. "Care to share?" She asked John.
"Huh? What? Oh…Um." John was suddenly caught off guard by her. "Well, I was just…"
"You were thinking about why you didn't make a move on me." Kate smiled at him seductively.
"Well…Okay maybe I was." John admitted rather quickly. "But you were trying to tempt me." He added.
She smiled at him seductively once again. "Maybe I was." She ran a finger along his jawbone. "If you have any interest in me at all, you will join me tonight." Her finger stopped right under his chin and she turned to go back into her room.
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Dear Journal,
Belle decided it was time I had a hobby, and journaling might just be that. I'm not really sure what to write about exactly, so let's just go with the basics, my feelings. I am in love with Kate Roberts…There, I wrote it. It all started when Marlena and Roman were trapped on the island and she and I began to spend so much time together and I just couldn't help myself and…Well anyway. Now, Marlena is in love with Alex and somehow I feel it is my duty to try to be her husband again. But part of me wants to just let her go and move on with Kate…I'm just not sure how to do that without one or both of us getting hurt. No one knows the wrath of Marlena like I do. Once her memory comes back I will be expected to stand by her and love her and be with her all over again. Sure, I have a child with her, but what does that have to do with anything? Belle is all grown up now, she doesn't need us together. Now Sami on the other hand is still very much a child and probably does need Roman and Marlena to get back together eventually, but honestly, Belle could care less about her mother and me right now. She knows that I love her and that Marlena loves her, no matter what the status of our relationship is. Well, I better get going. I am going to leave you at the office and go home to my love interest. I wish we could be more Kate and I, but I just don't want either of us getting hurt.
John
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John looked longingly at Kate. She turned her back to him and started for her room slowly, waiting for him to grab her or something. He wrapped his arms around her waist from behind and buried his face in her hair. She smelled so good. "I wish we could go further…" John started.
"We can. I don't care about getting hurt." Kate told him sternly. "We have both been hurt a lot and we can endure more pain." She explained. "But all I want is you. Weather I have you only for tonight or I have you for my whole entire life, its worth it don't you agree?"
John stared into her gorgeous eyes and without a moments hesitation pulled her into a long, romantic, sweet, perfect kiss. He scooped her up and carried her off to her room and gently laid her on the bed. She unbuttoned his shirt and then pulled off his belt. He kissed her neck and on down her shoulder, letting the dress naturally fall off. He gently kissed every inch of her before he entered her slowly, and then faster, letting both of them feel the wonderful rush perfectly and for a long enough time that they could enjoy it.
"Wow." They each just lay there on their backs for a minute, to catch their breaths. "You are so wonderful." John rolled over and wrapped both arms around Kate. "I have missed you so much." He whispered in her ear.
"I missed you too. I mean, we have been living under the same roof but…"
"But things have not been the same at all." John replied. "Everything changed once Roman and Marlena came back, and I'm sorry I was so easily swayed to just go back to her."
"It's not your fault, you felt it was your duty. Now, now it's Alex's duty to take care of her. She has chosen him, and he has chosen her, and they love each other and want to be together. It's our turn to be together too."
"I agree." John held up his left hand. "No more wedding band." He smiled at Kate. "Tonight, we start a new slate, you and me forever."
"Do you mean it?" Kate asked thrilled.
"With all my heart." John kissed her deeply again and they cuddled for what felt like hours. John never wanted to let Kate go. He kept his arms around her tightly, but not too tight. "I love you so much Kate." He planted a kiss on her forehead as he pushed back some hair. She was almost fast asleep, but he heard her murmur that she loved him too. They both fell asleep shortly after.
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Dear Journal,
Okay, so, Alex thought that this journaling thing would help me remember more, but I still cant remember much. I remember some things with Alex, but I don't remember anything with John. He keeps trying to get me to remember, oh believe me he does, but I just don't. And Roman, he is in love with me too. What have I done to deserve all these men? I just fell down a flight of stairs and then all my memories are clouded except for Alex…He is the only thing in my life that I remember. I just wish that John would leave me alone. Roman isn't nearly as bad as he is…At least not to me. Poor Kate…She has been a good friend to me, and especially to John. I wish those two, John and Kate, all the best. I am so tired of him…Maybe she can win him over. As for Alex and I, we love each other and we want to spend our lives together. Well, I will journal when something interesting happens.
Marlena
"How are you?" Alex asked Marlena as she came walking down the hall.
"Well I am doing pretty good thanks. How about yourself?"
"Good thanks." Alex smiled at her widely. "Do you think John still has feelings for you?"
"I haven't got a clue and I honestly don't care." Marlena replied. "I want to see him happy and I am sure that he wants the same for me. I am happy with you and I can honestly say that I see him happy only when he is around Kate."
Alex nodded. "True indeed."
"And so, I want him with her and you with me and I want everything and everyone to just be happy!" Marlena declared.
"Well then, I support you in that decision and I cant wait to see if it turns out like you just said, John and Kate I mean. I already know you and I will always be together."
Marlena smiled at him and they started making breakfast.