A/N: This was also the name of the last chapter. This one has no relation. But I was compelled to write this because I like this plot better.

Summary: Draco rambles to Gin in a short but splendid love letter. Red Ginny, Dragon Draco. Very short please don't be disappointed with me. I'll do better next time.

Chapter 3. Who I am hates who I've been

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart 't
in the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
that it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
to create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

Relient K

Ginny woke one morning to a loud pecking on her window. She was exhausted. Her body seemed to think that it had only been asleep for mere minutes. It was chilly in the large airy room that Ginny Malfoy shared with her husband Draco. She had never known it to be so cold. Usually, Draco would cast a heating charm for her. She snuggled deep into the heavy covers, starving for warmth. She settled back down when the tapping resumed. She was deeply annoyed. 'Why did Draco have to be such a heavy sleeper?' she thought to herself. That man would have slept through their wedding if she would have allowed it. She rolled over to glare at Draco and realized for the first time that morning that she was alone. 'Where the hell is that bloody man?' she thought. He had to have been gone long. His spot was chilly and the pillows smelled only of her. Often Draco left extremely early for work but never without a quick snog. The frenzied tapping never-ceased, Ginny climbed from their high four-poster bed. Because of the marble floor Draco insisted upon having, Ginny was forced to speed across the floor. She ran with such grace and agility, one would think she was not walking, but gliding. She threw open the bay window and stepped back to allow her aviary guest access. A sharp gust of wind accompanied by a brief bit of sunshine, slammed against the young woman with extreme force. She slammed the window hard and turned to face the bird that had entered the room. He had flown around her as she struggled with the windows and landed on her bed. At the sight of the bird he mouth fell open and she gasped in pure bewilderment. The bird happened to be her delivery eagle, Emerald. Emerald had been a graduation present from Draco. She must have stood a moment too long because Emerald gave a loud squawk, and lifted her leg to bring attention to the letter that she was carrying. She was frightened. No one ever sent her mail through Emerald. How did he get out? She hadn't remembered sending him on an errand unless Draco had. But he usually used his owl, Sparticles. She gingerly removed the letter. She patted the bird, gave him a treat and sent him to rest. She held the letter in her hand too afraid to open it and too anxious not to. Gently she turned it over. The front of the parchment said "Red" written in an elegant script that could only be Draco's. Besides, he was the only one to date who called her that. She exhaled a breath she hadn't known she was holding. Eagerly, she ripped open the letter. Her eyes immediately began to absorb the words of her favourite man in the world.

Dear Red,

Hey beautiful. I am sorry that this morning you had to wake up alone. But I had to get out of there. I woke up this morning and turned. As always you were there. But I wasn't, At least not fully. I realized apart of me would never be there unless you were safe. I can't give you all of me Gin until this dreaded war is over. This is so hard to say but I'm gone; Maybe for a day, maybe for a year, Maybe forever. I wouldn't tell you where I am for fear that you will come to uncover me. I am safe for the time being and missing you dearly. I already miss your warmth and your scent, your soft tresses and that delectable body of yours. But I am straying from the subject as usual.

This war has taken an unimaginable toll on both of our lives. This is by far the most difficult thing I have ever had to do. First, know that I love you. You are my whole heart. You are my queen and I would do anything for you. This is why I had to go. Baby we made a severe mistake when we got married. Don't get me wrong these past 16 months have been the best of my entire life. But we are young and we got married during a war. During a bloody war for God's sake's, Gin. Oh princess I never meant for things to go this far. I was supposed to keep you at arms length. Guard my heart and my mind from the powerful enchantress who had captivated the heart of a many of Hogwarts residence. I allowed you in and that was a mistake. For now we are wed. I can't give you all that I want to give you. I want to be able to give you all of my heart, all of my body, and my entire mind. But as I mention before, we are in the middle of a battle. We are both aurors and this is not the right time to get distracted by affairs of the heart. I don't regret a single moment the two of us have shared. But it must stop here if only for a little while, Darling. It causes me grief to know that I have hurt you. We never should have crossed that line. You shouldn't be so damn forgiving. How could you ever find it in you to love me? A Malfoy?

I tried so hard to keep you at bay. In the beginning I tried so hard. I was a complete bastard to you. I'm sorry for the person I became.

I apologize for telling you this in a letter and not to your face. I can only hope that when I return, you may still love me for the man I have been. Please don't leave me Gin. I need your strength. It is the sheer thought of you that will keep me living each day through. I need you until death do us part. Until the day we meet again, you must settle for this letter and my love. Stay out of harm's way until my return. You are my angel and one day you and I shall be together again, be it on this world or the next.

All my love,

Dragon

Ginny sat on the bed with the letter dangling from her limber fingers. She couldn't believe it. She stood and placed the letter on her nightstand and crawled back between the sheets as though nothing had happened. Slowly but surely she fell asleep, this time on Draco's chilled side of the bed.

Later that day, Ginny Malfoy sat up in bed. Tears streamed from her eyes with at the rate that sound travels. She sobbed and blubbered without probable cause. She had no idea as to why she was crying. This did not stop the tears. This continued for about and hour until she was all cried out. Smoothly she pulled back the covers and slipped from her bed. She placed her feet on the once icy floor. This time the floor didn't feel icy but comforting. She padded across the floor to her nightstand, where she slipped her feet into a pair of Draco's warm moccasins. Slowly her eye travelled down and landed on the letter. It all came back to her with quickness. Her body began to sway and she felt unstable. She sat on the bed for fear that her legs were too weak. Draco left. He had really left her. She climbed back into bed unable to go on with her day.

A/N: Okay I suck I know but the next song shall be a continuation of this little number. As with all the other fics I have uploaded today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my wonderful beta.