Chapter 5: Oh no you don't! And the monster keeps growing.
Catherine, still shocked from witnessing the scene between Evelyn and Sara, rushes over to Evelyn to see if she is ok. She moves the bench away and tries to get Evelyn up. As she pulls Evelyn into her lap, she looks up at Sara, who is standing there, saying nothing, tears flowing over her cheeks.
I look at Sara, still holding an unconscious Evelyn. I don't know what you are playing at Sara Sidle. Are you that blind to see this woman loves you? Are you so jealous it blinds you from the things she has been meaning to and trying to tell you? I watch Sara walk away.
I try to wake up Evelyn, and I notice she is bleeding. I call out for help. Grissom is the first one to respond. He looks at me with that oh so familiar look, I nod at him.
"Sara" is the only thing Grissom says to Catherine. She nods again, with a sad look on her face.
I'm amazed Gil knows what is going on, although Sara seems to be making a habit of causing trouble at work when things don't go right for her. "Gil, call the paramedics, and get Sara" I say to him while I try to make Evelyn as comfortable as possible.
As the paramedics arrive to take care of Evelyn, everything is going really fast. They will be taking her to the hospital for further examination. I'm not going with her, right now I need to talk to Sara.
I can't believe I just hurt Evelyn. The woman I love, I physically hurt her. You stupid cow! Now you can be sure you will be alone forever, you better hope you can keep your job. It seems to be the only thing in this world you are actually good at Sara Marie Sidle, pff Sara Pathetic Sidle would have fit you better! I'm still in a rage as Grissom taps on my shoulder. I turn around to see his worried face.
"We need to talk" he says "follow me to my office". I know now that I'm in serious problems.
"Sara, can you explain this to me?" He says while he looks at Sara. She just sits there, facing the floor like an interesting bug was walking on it, with her shoulders hanging. She is actually like a puppy, when it knows it did something wrong. And that is just what she did, something wrong, really wrong.
"I love her" Sara managed to mumble.
"Now that is an interesting theory. So because you love her, you knocked her unconscious?" Grissom looked puzzled. Not that he had much experience with relationships and being in love with someone, but even he knew that hurting someone physically was not a way of showing your love.
"You're going to have to take some personal days" Grissom says as he takes off his glasses.
Too tired to fight Sara nodded and mumbled "Yeah"
Grissom rubbed his eyes and put his glasses back on. "And I want you at Evelyn's bed, telling her you are sorry. And I'm going to ask Catherine to make sure you will follow up on that"
The pain that flashed in Sara's eyes surprised Grissom, he thought her and Catherine were finally getting along.
Sara got up and left her gun and badge on Grissom's desk. She left his office with hanging shoulders, and teary eyes.
"Oh and Sara" Grissom calls her back. As Sara is walking back into the office, still not facing him he says "Counselling"
She sighs and nods. "Will do" she says, her voice sounding beaten she leaves the lab.
When Sara is about to walk out the door, Catherine comes running "Oh no you don't" she shouts. Sara turns around to face Catherine, her eyes blank but full of guilt.
"You are going to listen to me now, if you want it or not" I tell Sara. It has been enough now, Evelyn ended up in hospital over this, and it better not be for nothing. "You don't even know what we were doing in the locker room, why she was crying, why I was holding her" I say to her as she just looks to the ground.
"Sara look at me" Catherine said to me. I can't, I feel too ashamed. "Please Sara, this is all a misunderstanding" she adds. I look up at her a misunderstanding? It was very clear to me what you were doing with Evelyn, and I sure as hell don't want details.
"Sara, Evelyn was crying because of you. Because she thinks she messed up, because she thinks you don't want her" Catherine pleads, hoping Sara will finally understand.
I can't believe my ears when I hear Catherine talk, have I really been that stupid? I look at her again, she is telling the truth. I am so embarrassed now, all I can do is look at my shoes.
"Sara, you should know. I have been getting to know Evelyn, you two are practically the same." Catherine says while putting her hand on Sara's shoulder. "She wanted to ask you out tonight, to have a drink with the whole team. She told me she hoped she could talk to you, and make things right" Sara is turning red, she is obviously ashamed "Go to the hospital Sara, talk to Evelyn, I think it's about time you two finally talked"
Sara intended to do just that, but not right away. She needed to go home now, to take a shower and think things over. She turned around to walk away, but Catherine stopped her.
"I will talk to Grissom" Catherine said "Ecklie won't find out. But please get your head out of the sand Sara. You don't know what you are missing"
Sara tried her best to show Catherine a smile "Thanks" she mumbles before leaving.
Catherine looked as Sara left. She could see Sara was beat, and wished she had interfered earlier. Catherine decided to go home, she could use some rest after this moving night.
The next day Sara woke up with a pounding headache. She wished she hadn't drunk that much last night. She rolled over to see what time it was 8 AM. Sara sighed, she should get up, take a shower and go visit Evelyn in the hospital. She knew she'd be in trouble with both Catherine and Grissom if she didn't show up. And she was actually wondering if maybe there was still a chance for her with Evelyn. This also made her wonder why Evelyn was so special to her, and why she couldn't get Evelyn out of her mind while she had only known her for a little while. When she sat up her headache only got worse. Hmm sleeping a little more couldn't hurt she thought as she leaned back into the pillow again. As soon as she hit the pillow, she fell asleep.
Catherine woke up early this morning. She took a quick shower before waking Lindsey up. "No school today" Lindsey moaned. "Yes school today" Catherine said while opening the curtains "A big girl at night, a big girl in the morning, come on, get up". Within an hour Lindsey was ready to go. Nancy arrived to pick up Lindsey for school, she hugged her mother and waved goodbye. As soon as Nancy's car left the driveway, Catherine got in her own car and drove to the hospital. She wanted to check on Evelyn.
Evelyn woke up with a headache. She was confused, where was she? How did she get here? Why was she alone? Evelyn panicked and sat up. A wave of nausea hit her as she fell back to the pillow. Whoa, bad idea.
Evelyn looked around and now realised she was in a hospital. Suddenly it all came back to her, playing in her head like a movie. Catherine holding her in the locker room, Sara seeing them and freaking out. "Sara" she whispered with a deep sigh. She closed her eyes to try to hold back her tears. Not after long Evelyn fell asleep again.
Catherine asked the attending doctor what Evelyn was diagnosed with. The doctor was in a hurry and wasn't planning on replying.
"I have a VIP pass for this hospital" Catherine said with a sly grin on her face while flashing her badge.
The doctor sighed "Concussion of the brain, some minor swelling. She needs to say here for observation and rest" he said, walking away right after finishing his sentence.
"So much for VIP treatment" Catherine mumbled as she walked to Evelyn's room.
Evelyn seemed to be asleep so Catherine just sat next to her bed. She was wondering how Evelyn felt when she woke up in a strange environment, with no one around to explain what happened. She wondered if Grissom, or anybody, had called her family. Does she even HAVE family? Suddenly Catherine realised that was the only thing Evelyn hadn't said a word about. Catherine grinned to herself also very Sara-like.
Evelyn stirred in her sleep, which startled Catherine. It seemed Evelyn was waking up, Catherine moved her chair closer to the bed and held Evelyn's hand. "Wake up Evelyn" she said, hoping Evelyn would listen. She knew Evelyn could have problems with waking up because of her concussion. It must have been quite a blow.
"Sara?" Evelyn mumbled.
Catherine sighed, she had hoped Sara would be here when Evelyn woke up. She knew Evelyn would want that, and it just got confirmed.
Evelyn tried to open her eyes, but it didn't really work. She felt someone holding her hand and tugging a strand of hair behind her ears. She hoped it was Sara, but once she managed to open her eyes she saw Catherine smiling at her.
"Hey sleepyhead" Catherine said with a smile "how are you feeling?"
Evelyn looked rather disappointed. "Err I'm fine, I guess. I just feel sick, dizzy and I have a headache" Evelyn sighed "and I am so annoyed already, I mean when I woke up earlier this morning, there was NO ONE here, that's how much I mean to the world" a sudden flash of pain went through her head.
"Evelyn, calm down. You have to rest and stay calm" Catherine said. She understood Evelyn's disappointment. "Evelyn, promise me to stay calm, don't wind yourself up ok?" she repeated.
"I'm not promising anything to anyone" Evelyn said with an agitated voice.
Catherine was surprised by the sudden stake that seemed to be slammed in her chest. It hurt her that Evelyn was rude to her. What the hell? She thought she is NOT affecting me like that, no way.
Catherine felt really angry and needed to get some fresh air. "I have to go to work, I will see you later. Just stay calm Evelyn, if you want to get better" she tried to say in her sweetest tone of voice.
Evelyn noticed the anger in Catherine's voice, but at the moment she didn't care. "Work? I'd like to remind you we work the graveyard shift, as in working at night, it's not even noon yet" I tell her. She is lying to me, what the hell is Catherine Willows thinking? "Go, not like anyone cares what I do anyway!" I shouted at her.
Catherine felt so angry. She knew better than to shout at Evelyn now. She just got up and walked to the door, she felt really hurt by the things Evelyn said. She had been awake half the night wondering if Evelyn was going to be ok, and this was the thanks she was getting.
Just before she reached the door, she turned around, took a deep sigh and said "For your information, I do care". She wasn't sure if Evelyn heard that because she turned her back on her. Quietly she left.
Evelyn heard Catherine say she cared about her, which made her cry. It was the first time in a long while, no the first time EVER someone said that to her. Suddenly she felt really bad for being so rude to her, Catherine was the first and only one to actually stop by to check on her. She wondered if anyone would come by after what just happened, she just knew Catherine wouldn't come back. Unless she was forced, and Catherine was definitely not the type to let herself get forced into something. I'm so good at pushing people away, if only I was half as good in attracting them, I'd be very happy.
Catherine rushed to her car. She could feel tears welling up in her eyes. She couldn't believe she let Evelyn get to her that much. She sat in her car and let her tears run freely as she hit the steering wheel. When she hit it again, she accidentally hit the horn. Startled she looked around if anyone had heard or seen her, but no one seemed to have noticed. She started the car and drove home.
Once at home Catherine tossed her keys on the kitchen counter and rushed upstairs. A shower and some more sleep would work miracles, she hoped.
Evelyn was lying in the hospital bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking about last nights events. There isn't much else to do than think, no wonder people go insane here. I am such an ass, why did I hurt Catherine with being so rude to her? Catherine, of all people! The only one who really helped me out, really cares for me.
Sara woke up again, still with a headache, but it was less bad than earlier this morning. It was 2 PM, time to really get up and face Evelyn. While she showered she decided to write something for Evelyn, it was so hard to form proper sentences when looking into those gorgeous big blue eyes.
After Sara showered, got dressed and ate something, she felt better. She was as ready as she could be for facing Evelyn. She had to find a really good way to say sorry, she really wanted a chance with Evelyn, even though it scared her to death. She felt like there was lead in her shoes, she really dreaded to go to the hospital.
Sara got into her car and drove off. She stopped at a local gas station to get something for Evelyn. That was harder than she thought. What would Evelyn like? Flowers will be too obvious, then I might as well propose right away. Puzzles, well she probably has a headache so puzzles won't be any good either, that will also count for magazines and books. Then her eyes fell on a cute little teddy bear, holding a big heart which says: I'm sorry. Sara smiled to herself, the teddy was awfully corny but maybe it would put a smile on Evelyn's face. And the bear would do all the talking for her, so that was an extra plus. She bought the teddy bear and let the attendant wrap it in nice paper. Sara hoped Evelyn would at least accept it.
Evelyn was still lying in her bed. She was incredibly bored but she was not allowed to read or watch TV. The nurse who was assigned to her was very caring, but too much caring is not good either. The nurse wouldn't let her do anything but lie there, which was awful because that meant she could only think and thinking was the thing she dreaded the most. It would make her think about the things she didn't want to think about, because for some reason her thoughts would always boil down to the same thing, her childhood and her family. And she really did NOT want to think about that.
The nurse came in to check on Evelyn, and it was very uncomfortable. She asked Evelyn what day it was, what time it was, she just asked some questions. "Are you all alone dear" the nurse continued, like being quizzed like a little kid wasn't embarrassing enough.
"Yeah" Evelyn sighed "My family lives in Europe" she lied.
"That must be very hard dear. I have to go now, but I'll stop by later so we can talk a bit more" The nurse said when leaving the room. Evelyn turned around and cried again. She was alone and needed a nurse had to keep her company in the hospital. The irony.
When Evelyn heard the door, she quickly wiped off her tears, would it be Sara?