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Author's Note: This is set after Some kind of green monster. Evelyn is gone, how is Sara going to handle that? And what is Catherine going to do?

Hey guys! I'm back, with new inspiration, and in this part we will finally find out more about Evelyn! Why did she leave? And will she ever come back?

Some Kind Of Green Monster II

Prologue

Sara

She was never going to be ok again, she was never going to be the same again. Hell she was never going to be her again. When Evelyn left, she took a part of Sara with her. Sara was only half a person now, a nobody, a nothing. No one around her knew what had happened, and no one knew she was dying on the inside. No one but Evelyn had known Sara Sidle, and no one ever will.

She still wondered why Evelyn had left, they were doing well together. Ever since they had moved in together she was finding out new things about Evelyn and herself, and she knew she wasn't the only one enjoying that. She wasn't blind, she knew Evelyn was happy with her too. She wondered what Ecklie had said to Evelyn to upset her that much. She knew Ecklie didn't have much tact, but what could have been so bad? And why hadn't Evelyn let her comfort her? Why the hell did Evelyn leave without saying anything?

She was still wondering why Catherine was acting the way she did. Ever since Evelyn left, Catherine was so nice to her, she was inviting her for drinks, and Catherine always asked if she was ok. One day Catherine even showed up at her doorstep to pick her up, as a surprise. She didn't even know Catherine knew where she lived.

It was as if Catherine knew something that she didn't know. Catherine always had a good bond with Evelyn, maybe Evelyn had told Catherine something she hadn't told her? The nicer Catherine seemed to be to her, the more she started to dislike her. It came to the part where she tried to push Catherine away. It was ironic really, before she would have done everything to get closer to Catherine, and now she couldn't get Catherine far away enough from her.

Sara wasn't sure what she felt for Evelyn anymore. Of course, she loved Evelyn, the strength of their bond would take a while to get over, but she also felt some sort of hate. She hated Evelyn for leaving her alone, for doing the one thing Evelyn had promised not to do. She could remember those words very well. One night she woke up from a nightmare, Evelyn calmed her down and promised her she would never break her heart and would never leave her. But still she did! She broke her promise, but even though she did, Sara still loved Evelyn deeply.

At night Evelyn's name seemed to echo through her apartment, reminding her of the emptiness. The emptiness in her house, in her bed, but most of all the emptiness inside of her, in her heart, in her soul. She would cry at night, screaming at Evelyn, telling her to come back and fill the big hole that was now nesting in her heart. Even after all this time, she still hoped.

No one had noticed her pain, her emptiness. But then again, she was good at hiding. At work, she was doing very well. Why did Catherine have to ruin it? Sara Sidle had build her walls again, for no one to break down again. She didn't even want anyone to try, and certainly not Catherine, the woman she always had a weak spot for.

Evelyn

She sat in a restaurant with a colleague of hers who just gave her a present for in her apartment. A tile saying 'There is no place like home', ironically enough the only place that would ever be a home to Evelyn, is the place she left behind. And also the woman she left behind. She hated herself for hurting Sara, because she knew just how Sara would feel. She couldn't face Sara again, she was hurting too much to face Sara again.

Evelyn was not the kind of person to open up to others. But with Sara it was a whole different story. Even though she didn't really mean to, she revealed herself to Sara almost right away, it even amazed herself how quick and easy that seemed to go. And when Sara opened up to her too she felt so happy, it was great, amazing, and all those other words they came up with to describe her feelings. From the second she laid eyes on Sara Sidle, that woman intrigued her, Sara just drew her in. When Sara actually returned the feelings Evelyn had for her, she felt like she was dreaming. She couldn't believe Sara could love her, and would offer her to build a home together. And that's just what they did, they were building a home together, and it actually felt like a home. Sara's arms were a safe haven. In Sara's arms she felt home, at the lab she felt at home.

She finally started believing that the word home was real, but then Ecklie kicked her right off her cloud and showed her what real life was like again. She almost forgot that opening up, feeling at home and feeling in your place were dangerous things. She should have been more careful.

Ever since she had left the safe haven of Sara's house, she had been crying herself to sleep. There was this nagging pain in her heart, which she sometimes managed to conceal with going up in her work, but most of the day she could feel it. And especially at night, when she was alone, she cried herself to sleep. And still, after this time, when she woke up in the morning, she still unconsciously reached for Sara. And every time she did, she found her hand tapping an empty part of the bed, which left her disappointed every time. She really missed Sara, her smile, the twinkle in her eyes, the little gap between her teeth and that soothing voice that told her all those sweet words. Who would have thought the woman with the ice queen like 'no nonsense' attitude was such a sweet and loving person around her.

Evelyn always hated the part of moving on to another place. It was the story of her life, things seemed to work out great for her, and then suddenly she would be kicked from her cloud. Then suddenly she would have to leave again, leaving everything behind. She was always weary of this fact, so she would never make a lot of friends, or open up to anyone, but this time, it had totally gone wrong. She had broken her protocol, she had let people in, she had let people touch her lives. And now she not only had to hurt herself, she also hurt them. And the worst thing was, she would never see them again, she would never be able to explain or apologize to them. Evelyn agreed with herself, her life sucked. Her life would never be the same again without Sara, the only person in her whole life who really understood and knew her.

Lindsay

Lindsay felt really mature. Evelyn had confided in her, and had told no one else. She knew things that not even Evelyn's girlfriend knew. She was also a bit worried, and felt Evelyn's secret become more and more of a burden, of a weight on her shoulders. She overheard some conversations her mom had with Sara on the phone, it never sounded good. Sara just didn't seem to listen to her mom and her mom sometimes lost her patience and shouted at Sara. She would cry sometimes when she hung up.

Lindsay started to wonder if maybe it was time to tell her mom and Sara the truth, she knew she promised to wait until Evelyn told her it was ok, but she was also sure Evelyn didn't mean to cause this. Even though Lindsay knew Evelyn's story, she would never have done the same, she couldn't imagine leaving her mom behind, but then again she didn't have to go through the same things Evelyn went through as a kid. Maybe she could write Sara an anonymous letter or something.

In a way she felt responsible for the way her mom and Sara were feeling. She could help them, but then she would betray Evelyn. Why did Evelyn give her such a burden? Why did Evelyn leave? Evelyn had told her she was so happy here, with her job, with Sara, why did she have to leave?

No one dared to pick on her anymore at school. After she had hit Dean, who was picking on her, some other kids tried to, but she always had her words ready. Evelyn taught her that, and it really worked out. And when the picking on stopped, she also got better grades and was actually making some friends. And besides, her mom already had enough things to think about, so she didn't want to get into trouble anymore and worry her mom even more.

Catherine

Catherine felt guilty. She knew she was the last one to see Evelyn, she even waved at her and watched her go. Hell she was even the last one who had kissed Evelyn! She was still confused about that, she still wondered why she had that sudden interest in Evelyn, who was with Sara of course. She was still embarrassed she kissed Evelyn, and the weird thing was that Evelyn didn't seem to mind, when she apologized to her, it didn't seem as such a big deal. For some unknown, vague reason the softness of Evelyn's lips, and the feelings she got when her lips touched Evelyn's kept haunting her dreams. She would be remembered the second she closed her eyes.

Because she felt so guilty, she was extra nice to Sara. She never meant to betray the delicate friendship, for as much as she could call it a friendship, with Sara. It was odd how Catherine could see that Sara was in pain. Before she would never have noticed, but she saw Sara's eyes when Evelyn was around, and now those eyes are missing their sparkle. They are just dark brown, no sparkling, no light and no nothing in there anymore. It was odd that no one else noticed, but then again Sara must be hiding lots of things from them. Catherine wondered what she knew at all about Sara. She knew nothing. But she knew Sara wasn't stupid, Sara knew something was going on, and Catherine knew Sara was pushing her away even more because of that. She didn't care though, she was going to keep trying. She felt like she had to, after the damage she caused between Evelyn and Sara. She wondered that if Sara had known about the kiss, if she would still stay with Evelyn. It wasn't really a mutual kissed, Evelyn seemed to be too stunned to answer the kiss, and Catherine herself was too drunk to think of the fact Evelyn wasn't a single woman. She had to help out Sara, to try to cheer her up. Not just for Sara's sake, but for her own sake, to stay sane. And also because she knew Sara had no one else.

Unlike Sara, her daughter seemed to blossom. They didn't fight as much anymore, Lindsay's grades were going up and she seemed much more responsible. Catherine was really proud of her daughter, she still wondered what had triggered the sudden change in Lindsay's behaviour.

So yeah, her life pretty much sucked at the moment, sleep deprived, frustrated and trying to befriend someone who didn't want her around. And to top it all, even Grissom was pissed off, and took it out of her of course. Why was everyone so surprised with Ecklies reaction? Was she the only one who knew Ecklie was a jerk?