Disclaimer: I do not own "Gravitation" (Maki Murakami) or "Lucky" (Bif Naked).

A/N: I know this isn't how it went in the book, but I'm changing it around for very important purposes… (nods). Sorry for having this out so late...

CHAPTER TWO

The first time we made love, I... I wasn't sober.

And you told me you loved me over and over

How could I ever love another, when I miss you every day?

Shuichi's condition was getting worse with each passing day. Now, after only a month since discovering the shocking time that the days I had left with my bubbly lover were numbered, Shuichi was almost constantly ready to fall asleep. He was much happier than he was the day he found out he was dying, however, which was a definite improvement.

One day, I was sitting in bed reading to him. He always tells me how much he loves to hear my voice. After only a few pages, however, Shuichi had fallen asleep in my lap, head against my chest. Carefully, so as not to disturb him, I placed the book on the end table and wrapped my arms around Shuichi's neck, holding him even closer to me. It's hard to remember the times when I thought it was only possible to be this close when having sex. It's hard to remember when I took Shuichi's love for me for granted. But sometimes, I have flashbacks to those simpler times. I often recall the first time we had sex. Shuichi was still a virgin, and I was still sleeping with other people.

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I took another swig of the beer in my hand. I had probably already gone through a pack by now, but I didn't care. Nobody could tell when I was drunk.

"Yuki, I'm bored, can't we go out somewhere?" Shuichi whined, walking into the living room, where I was sitting, watching TV.

"No," I grumbled angrily.

"But…" Shuichi began to protest.

"No," I simply stated again. Shuichi sighed and sat down on my lap, leaning against my chest and staring angrily at the TV, arms crossed.

"What the…" I began to yell, angry that Shuichi was making it challenging to see the screen, but another thought came into my head as I felt a slight tug in my loin.

Shuichi began to squirm uncomfortably on my lap, his perfect ass rubbing against my slowly forming erection again and again. God, he's so oblivious.

"Yuki, this show's so boooring," Shuichi whined. "Can't you think of anything fun to do?"

"Oh, yeah, I think there's something," I smirked, turning my head and slowly licking up the side of Shuichi's neck.

"Ah, Yuki!" Shuichi squealed, squirming even more. "What are you doing?"

"Something fun," I breathed against his ear, before taking the lobe in my mouth and gently sucking in and out.

"Mm… Yuki," Shuichi moaned, tilting his head to give me better access and arching his back.

"I told you this was fun," I laughed, running my tongue down Shuichi's jaw. "Turn around."

Shuichi eagerly complied, straddling my hips and wrapping his arms around my neck. I placed my hands around his waist and roughly slammed him into me, rolling my hips against him.

"Oh, Yu…" Shuichi began to moan, but I silenced him with my mouth, exploring his mouth with my tongue. I began to unbutton his shirt, but Shuichi brought his hands up around my wrists.

"What?" I snapped gruffly.

"You… what are you… what are we doing?" he sputtered.

"I'm going," I smirked, grabbing Shuichi's ass and tossing him onto the floor. "To fuck you."

"Yuki, n-no! We… I've never…" Shuichi began protesting, but I was already kneeling on top of him, pinning his arms above his head.

"Shh," I whispered into his ear as I removed one of my hands to rub it gently down his bare chest. "This will be fun."

I moved backward and began sucking on one of his nipples, making circles around it with my tongue. Shuichi began moaning, so I bit the nipple, causing Shuichi to scream, then I softly licked the red area again, making Shuichi start moaning all over again. I made a trail down the center of Shuichi's chest with my tongue, dipping into his belly button, and stopping just at the top of his pants.

"Ah, Yuki," Shuichi moaned eagerly, squirming underneath of me.

I smirked up at him, then slowly pulled down his pants and boxers, revealing Shuichi's hardened member before me. I began idly stroking up and down with one finger, circling the balls and stroking the head.

"Mmm… so good… Yuki… I want…" Shuichi whispered.

I bent my head down and swallowed as much of Shuichi's length in my mouth as I could at one time, holding his hips down with one hand. I slowly pulled my head up until I was almost all the way out, when I massaged Shuichi's head with my tongue, then rammed back down again.

"AH! Yuki, please, please…" Shuichi whimpered.

"Yes?" I asked, crawling towards the face of the squirming boy beneath me.

"I need… you… in me…" he gasped.

I smirked at him, then stood up and walked away.

"YUKI! You can't do this to me!" Shuichi whined, too uncomfortable to get up. "Come back, God damn it!"

I returned moments later, clothes discarded, and a bottle of lube in my hand.

"What the hell is that?" Shuichi pouted.

"You'll thank me for this later," I smiled, coating my fingers in the lube. "Ready?"

Shuichi nodded frivolously, and I placed one finger at his untouched entrance and slowly pushed it in.

"Oh," Shuichi gasped, eyes rolling back and nails digging into his shirt underneath of him.

"Jesus Christ, if you're going to get like that with one finger, imagine what it'll be like with my dick in you," I grumbled, inserting the second finger and making scissoring motions inside of Shuichi.

"I… need… I… want…" Shuichi whispered determinedly.

Once I had inserted the third finger, I quickly removed my fingers and tossed the lube bottle at Shuichi.

"Lube me up, bitch," I smirked. Shuichi eagerly complied, pumping my cock with his lube-covered hand. Once I was covered, I placed the tip of my dick at Shuichi's entrance.

"Sure you're ready?" I asked one more time, though fully intending on having my way with him no matter what his answer was.

"YES!" Shuichi cried, wrapping his legs around my hips and shoving me inside of him.

Which I could tell was a really bad move, as his eyes started to fell with tears and his mouth opened with a silent scream.

"Fuck, Shu, you go slowly the first time!" I growled, gently removing myself.

"No… keep… going…" Shuichi choked out. I rolled my eyes, but started to slowly insert myself again. This time, as I brushed Shuichi's prostate, his screams of pain turned to screams of ecstasy as he arched his back and cried out my name.

"Yuki… I love you… God, I love you!" Shuichi screamed as I rammed into the young boy again and again.

Finally, Shuichi came, his seed running down our stomachs, and after a few more thrusts, I emptied my seed inside of him and collapsed on top of the young singer.

"Yuki, that was… so nice," Shuichi whispered.

I lifted my head to look at the sweaty and exhausted boy beneath me.

"Nice?" I asked skeptically.

"It was fucking great, okay?" Shuichi whined, looking away. I smirked and removed myself from him, and was about to stand up, when Shuichi grabbed my wrist.

"Stay with me, just a little longer, okay?" Shuichi whispered. I wouldn't normally, but since I had just deflowered the boy, I decided to appease him.

"I love you, Yuki," he whispered into my chest before falling asleep.

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I was pulled out of my reverie by Shuichi's moans. His head was turning against my chest and his eyes were pressed shut.

"Shuichi?" I asked, concerned. I gently trailed my fingers across his cheek and chest until he calmed down and relaxed into me again. I bent my head down and placed a soft kiss in his hair. It smelled like strawberries.

"How am I going to get on without you?" I asked Shuichi. I don't think there will ever be anyone for me. Not like Shuichi.

No one will ever be like my Shuichi.

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End! Okay, yeah... short, once again. Please review! Please? (sniff)