I hate this title... But it's now 2 am and I want to finish this, so if you have suggestions, please tell me.

Okay, this is of the most random writings I've ever done. Inspired by Tsubasa, this scene makes absolutely no sense in the timeline of Kingdom Hearts. It's one of those 'original' scenes where I use Riku since he does actually help me write from time to time. Basically, Riku took a 'fatal' blow in order to protect the one he cares for. I quote 'fatal' since it's more of a heart-collapse into darkness kind-of fatal where only Naminé's ability to eliminate his memories can actually save him. Please don't question how this is possible, because I really don't understand it myself; I'm just trying to think up a reason why Riku would have to lose ALL of his memories, likely permanently. So, it's crappy, but bear with me. Both 'scenes' are separate, the big border is the separation. The first scene is comprised of three parts.

Dedication: Sekhemnet. His crazy, though actually sensible, plotlines are amazing to mull over when I'm in the mood for having my mind boggled.

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If someone had asked me to choose between death and memory sacrifice, I would die on the spot. So, what happens when the question is still asked of me, but I'm not the one who's dying...

Tainted Reality

The stupid fool… Risking his own life to protect mine even though I would have probably been fine… But no…he just jumps in there like an idiot and now I might lose him forever…

"No! I can't accept this! I won't…" The tears hurt so much as they burn down my cheeks… It's not fair… Why him?

"You realize I can save his life...but it will require a sacrifice of something equally as important..." I gaze brokenly at the blonde girl beside me, though everything is simply a blur with this damned emotion in my eyes. My lips whisper a shaky response to her statement, though it's more of a frightened question. "It will cost him his memories..."

"He won't remember anything...?" Her chartreuse spheres fall upon my paladin's still form and her teeth slowly sink into her lips.

"I don't know... I've never really tried it fully, so maybe not. Maybe he'll retain something...but..."

"Do it...Do whatever it takes..." But if he doesn't remember you... Shut up! His life is more important than anything else... Even our memories together...

-x-

An excruciatingly long hour later, the girl of memories whispers her task is complete and I grip his hand...Waiting...and waiting... For what? I really don't know... I had just spent the last painful hour figuring out what I am supposed to do if all of his memories are gone...

His aquamarine eyes slowly flutter open, the effort so strained, I almost ask him not to. What happens next may very well have been a fatal Heartless attack for the tearful pain in brought. I had built myself up for it; thousands of time over, but no matter what the prep...those three words tore my heart to shreds...

"W-Who are you...?"

-x-

I shiver again, the slight breeze purposely aiming for my tear-drenched face in order to make me cold; the air trying to freeze the water it sensed. My cut-off black glove dries my cheeks roughly, not wishing to feel the emotion anymore...it just hurts too much...

It's night now, the crescent moon and stars handing brightly in the sky. I waited with him for most of the evening, but left after he dozed off into a much-needed rest. I said I didn't care before, but the truth is, I can't help it. He was the only one who ever cared about me; hell, it's his fault I even fell in love, what with my dark heart and all. To just lose it all like that leaves this gash upon my heart... And what's worse...a void in there as well. Without him, I'm really not complete...What am I supposed to do...?

My body shivers again, this time for reasons unknown. I sigh for what feels like the hundredth time, knowing I can't change what happened... I'll just have to live with it...

The sensation of an arm draping over my shoulders makes my heart quiver before it clues in as to what exactly happened.

"You're freezing...Why aren't you inside?" I force down a foolish blush as the familiar feeling of being next to him makes my heart so happy, and yet, so sad at the same time.

"I just like watching the night sky...the moon...and stars... The cold doesn't bother me..." I can feel his aqua vision on me now, though I'm still looking away, into the dark. His arm squeezes my far shoulder gently, and I try so hard to suppress a tremble.

"Your body tells otherwise. You're so cold..." Cold...Yeah...that'll be me soon...without him...I highly doubt my heart will ever be warm again...

"Never mind about me... Why aren't you resting? Naminé said you need rest..." His eyes don't leave me, and it's almost intimidating. What is he looking at?

"Are you okay?" My lips start to separate, but I hiddenly bite the bottom one to stop whatever I was going to do. I start to look farther away from him, off into the dark, cold night to stay neutral.

"Yeah...Why wouldn't I be fine?" His eyes still remain upon me for whatever reason, and it almost feels like he moves closer, though if he did, it was only because he was cold...Nothing more...

"You've been crying..." His voice is so solemn and so knowledgeable; it's all I can do from breaking down again... I want to move away from him now...but my heart won't let me...setting me up for more pain...

"No... What gave you that idea...?" His other hand gently wisps over and cups my chin, softly pulling my gaze to him...just like he always used to... The tears are burning beneath my skin, but I don't care. I won't let him see me cry. He won't understand...and I don't want to explain it... But to see his face now...even if it's void of past memories is almost too much to bear... Everything is the same, except in his heart...

"Because your eyes are so sad... I noticed that first when I woke up... They were so bright...but then...sometime afterwards, they dimmed...with tears... I don't want you to cry..." Of course not... You never did...but that's all gone now... Damn it!

I delicately brush his hand away and leave his grip, now wanting to be alone more than ever.

"Thanks for your concern, but I'm fine... Now go rest before I get Naminé up after you..." I can feel sadness begin to take over his aqua vision now and I wish silently to myself for him to just leave...

His fingers intertwine with mine, but before I can break free, his squeezes my hand and asks softly if I'll stay with him if only for tonight.

I can't help it; my stupid heart cracks on me and I start to cry. I never say anything through the next few hours, my tears speaking for themselves. He never asks why or questions my reasoning... His arms just pull me against his chest, a setting all too familiar and waits until I'm "okay" again. I don't think he'll ever remember...but at least he's alive... I just hope our hearts won't slip away without the memories to bind them...

"Forget it, Naminé... What's the point?"

"I can't believe you! I thought you loved him? Why won't you try?"

"Because he doesn't feel the same...and probably never will again..."

"You don't know that!"

"Don't I? All of his memories about us have been obliterated!"

"So, make new ones! Old or new; it shouldn't matter!"

"But it does..."

"Why!"

"You don't understand, do you…? It's all fine now…and might be fine for quite a few years, but one day, we'll be laughing and talking about something…nothing in particular; just stuff. And I'll stop and say something like "Yeah, just like when we… or Remember the time when…" Then he'll stop… And he'll look at me with a…confused expression… It might be kinda happy or it'll be sorta sad, and…he'll…he'll say to me, with those perplexed aquamarines eyes… 'I don't remember that…'…"

"……"

"And I'll start to cry again… He'll ask what's wrong, but I'll never be able to tell him why…"