My Heart Belongs to You

Bedtime and Remeberence

"Its pointless mate, she doesn't want to talk to you. She says she can't." Sirius said when he got down to the common room. He wasn't enjoying being the messenger for his friends. He didn't want to hurt either of them, but he didn't want to be in the middle of their fight.

"Why?" James asked out of nowhere. "Why won't she speak to me? She should know I would never do something like that to her. She is the love of my life. My Lily flower, my sun in the heart of a storm, the light at the end of the tunnel, she's the world to me, and so much more. Hell! I would join Voldemort if that's what she wanted!" James went on as if Sirius wasn't in the room.

Sirius knew he wouldn't go quite that far, well he didn't believe he would. Then again, he never believed Lily and James would go out, or that James would cheat on Lily. So he assumed a lot of weird things could happen.

Meanwhile James was still rambling on.

"I waited so long for her. I wanted to be with her so bad it hurt, finally I get her, and I screw up without realizing it! I'm such a stupid, arrogant, bullying prat!" James screamed.

Lily was lying in her bed, awoken again by memories of James that were running through her head.

She sighed as she heard James ramble on. What she wouldn't give to be with him right now, to tell him it was all okay, that she didn't care, that all she wanted was to be with him. Though her heart said that was what must be done, her head told her not too. He cheated on her that was the end of the discussion. After all it was what had to be done.

Then Lily thought to herself. Maybe he wasn't doing it at his own will; maybe he wasn't lying, or cheating. Yes, that was what Lily wanted to believe after all, he probably wouldn't break down like that if he cheated on her.

Lily stomped out the idea though; he was doing it so she would think that. Well boy was he wrong. He wouldn't get away with this! Not for a long time.

"It is getting late, go to bed." Sirius said to James. "I'm sleeping here; to make sure you don't try to go annoy her." He said firmly. Lily vaguely heard James get up and the door across from her room slam.

Lily couldn't help but smile. Sirius was such a 'big brother' to her. He always said he'd hurt James if he ever hurt her. She didn't really believe it, but apparently Sirius was hurting James like he promised. Also she imagined the look upon James' face when he'd see her the next morning, all prim and proper.

No! She wouldn't be prim and proper. She'd put on an unforgettable show. Yes that was it; she'd make him regret ever knowing her. That was the plan.

Lily lay in bed for many more hours before she finally drifted off into sleep again, but minutes later, her alarm clock went off.

Lily slowly awoke from her uneasy sleep and went to take a nice hot shower. James was not up yet, so she was able to sit there and think for many minutes before she heard someone at the door. It was James.

Lily looked and saw it was locked with her secret charm that no one could break except Natalie. So Lily slowly got out of the shower, and wrapped a towel around her. She grabbed the clothes she had picked out for the day.

A leather skirt with a slit up the side, it went just above her knee. She wore a tight white shirt that had a V cut, and her favorite shoes. She decided to let her hair dry naturally, and then put on some light make up.

She walked out into her room and unlocked the door to the bathroom, then proceeded to lock her room with the same charm.

It was a Saturday, and a Hogsmeade weekend. So Lily went out and met Sirius in the common room after putting on her Diamond L necklace that her mother had given her for her sixteenth birthday.

"Do I want to know?" Sirius asked when he saw Lily. She replied with a smile and a shake of the head. "Then would you like to go?" He asked she nodded and they walked out of the common room.

They met up with Remus in the Great Hall for breakfast.

"What happened last night?" He said once he saw them. He was sitting by himself in the seats that the group of six would usually occupy.

"Long story, but to make it short, James and Keri were snogging, and Lily here saw, ran out crying. I comforted her. James shows up, wants to speak to Lily, she won't let him." Sirius said before Lily could answer. Lily gave Sirius an uneasy look, and he just gave her a reassuring smile.

"He didn't?" Remus looked to Lily who nodded feeling a sharp pain in her stomach. She hated to admit it. "But last night, he came down about ten minutes after you two left the common room, and he didn't know what was going on, I was surprised to see he knew were he was." Remus said with a look of utter confusion on his face.

"Leave it Remus, Lily doesn't want to talk or think about it." Sirius said and gave him a small wink. He understood this to mean, drop it for now, and figure it out later, then devise an unstoppable plan to make them fall madly in love again.

"Okay Sirius. C'mon, let's go to Hogsmeade." Remus replied, and they got up and walked off to the grounds to get to Hogsmeade. Though the sun was shining as bright as five thousands suns, Lily's mood felt like a downpour of pointless hope. The light breeze of the day just depressed her with memories from when she was with James outside on cool dark nights, and the blue sky reminded her of how blue the sky was when they first saw each other on the train ride in first year. A day Lily Evans wouldn't soon forget.

A/N: I know the chapters are short, but it's the only way i can update on a regular basis, now i said i wanted 30reviews and i'd update today, but I only have 26... so you're lucky... I just wanted to update, maybe on like wendsday i'll try and update again, i can work on the story in my freetime at school... I just have get everything done...

okay, i know there are errors in spelling, and grammer, and here's my answer: I don't have a beta, cuz it already takes me a while to update, and because i don't proof read because i don't have time to, so i apologize for that, and the shortness, but its what i have to do to get stuff posted... so bear with me! please!

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