My Heart Belongs to You

Tears

"Lily, you're so beautiful, I don't see why you would ever want to be with my cousin." Edwin said softly into my ear. Lily didn't know how to react. Instead she just stared out at the moon lit night.

Though clouds were beginning to cover the sky, Lily was slightly happy to see that it looked like snow outside. It looked relatively cold, but Lily felt warm under her covers.

"Leave now, I'm with James, and you can't change that." I said trying to sound harsh, but I don't believe that I did. He just smiled at me and walked out.

Lily sighed deeply and lay in bed for a moment. She had been thinking about Edwin when he showed up. She didn't know why he came, so she just pretended to be asleep. He didn't buy it, and continued to watch her. Finally she rolled over and asked him what he was doing there. That was how he responded.

I can't think like this. I love James.

Just follow him, what can it hurt? The little voice in the back of her head said to her.

What can it hurt? James! Sheesh, you are really stupid for a conscience.

Deary, I'm not the one thinking about my boyfriend's cousin.

I wouldn't be thinking about him if you didn't get me started on him!

You know dear, denial is not just a river in Egypt.

That made no sense.

It did, now go follow him.

Lily gave in. She didn't know what brought her to get out of bed, but something did, and she needed it out of her system.

So as quietly as was possible she crept out of her room in the dead of night, making sure to tip toe. She couldn't let anyone know she was up. When she got there she quietly opened his door.

"I knew you'd come." Lily didn't respond. She didn't know how to. So instead she did the opposite of what her brain told her to do. She went over and kissed him on the lips.

She quickly pulled away realizing what she had done. She ran from the room as quietly as possible. Tears were streaming down her face.

She went and grabbed her wand and ran down to James' pool. She conjured a swim suit and put it on. Then a cap and some goggles. The pool was calm and peaceful, and she slowly slid in and began swimming laps.

It was five in the morning before she had the courage to get out and face James, and Edwin. She slowly showered in her room, and changed. No one was around; she assumed they were all sleeping.

When she was all dressed and readied herself the best she could she walked out her door and down to the kitchen.

"You're up early Lily, though I believe you were in the pool around three in the morning." Melody said to her when she walked in. Lily gave her a confused look, and she explained. "The pool is rarely used, but when it is, we have a little light that tells us to send a house elf down to make sure nothing bad happens." Melody said cheerfully, and then when Lily did not smile she spoke again. "Is something wrong Lily?"

Lily just gave her a look as if she'd never seen her before and nodded. Lily wasn't sure if she wanted to explain or just keep quiet.

"Would you like to talk?" Melody said sensing Lily's nervousness. Lily nodded.

"I screwed up Melody. I did something stupid, and James is never going to forgive me when he finds out." Lily said sadly. Tears were threatening to fall again, and Lily quickly wiped them away.

"Aw Lily don't worry, I don't think there is much you can do to James to make him not ever forgive you." Melody said putting a comforting arm around her. Lily shook her head.

"Yes he will. I've done so many stupid things. I snogged Sirius for Merlin's sake, and he forgave me, but this, this he won't." Lily said the tears now freely falling down her face.

As if on cue James walked in and pulled her into a tight embrace as Melody let her go. "It's okay Lily, he's done it to the best of us. It's okay, don't worry." James said softly into her ear. She was crying and he couldn't stand to see her this way.

Melody looked at him confused and he mouthed 'Edwin'. Melody just nodded and left them be.

"I'm not one of your other girls James. I love you with all my heart and I could never give it to anyone else. James my heart belongs to you, and I kissed him! I'm such an awful girlfriend." Lily cried. James rubbed her back soothingly.

"C'mon, you need some rest. It's all okay, let's go get you some rest." James said soothingly. He wouldn't show it, but his mother could tell he was fuming. It was going to be a long day.

After James laid Lily in her bed upstairs he sealed her room and went to find his cousin.

"What in Merlin's name did you think you were doing?" James said in a deadly low voice when he entered Edwin's room.

"What ever do you mean James?" Edwin replied in a mock sweet voice.

"You know Edwin; I don't like waking up to see my girlfriend crying. It annoys me especially when it is because of you that she is crying." James did the best he could to keep his voice from shaking, and if looks could kill, Edwin would be twenty feet under ground now.

"Why James, I didn't realize you cared about your girlfriends." Edwin said in an amused voice, but the smirk on his face faded when he looked up at James.

"You play games with Lily again, and I'll be the least of your worries." James told him, knowing full well Sirius would want in on this.

"Is that a threat?" Edwin asked.

"You better bet your ass it is." James said and walked out of the room.

"You know Sirius, James doesn't have to be the only happy one around here." Jill began to say. Sirius backed away from her.

"Leave me alone Jill, I've got other things on my mind." Sirius told her. Jill looked taken aback by the comment, and decided it best to walk away.

Sirius sat staring out the window for a while, and then turned around when he heard his door open.

"Hey Padfoot what's wrong?" James asked walking into the room, and sitting down.

"Nothing." Sirius said flatly.

"Tell him Padfoot." Remus said walking into the room.

"Tell me what?" James gave Remus a questioning look.

"Regulus wants to come and talk, about some 'stuff'." Sirius finally told James.

A/N: Okay, yeah, I'm sick, so I decided to write this chapter. It hopefully clears up some questions. I know some stuff might sound conflicting, but if it does let me know and I will try to better explain it.

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