Kataomoi

By: LateSleeper

Disclaimer: I own Sakuragi's ass…(three policemen sprout out of nowhere) It's mine I tell you! (Rukawa appeared) fine! He's not mine nor his cute butt.

Note: Un-betaread!

Chapter 3: Dense (RuHana)

I slam my locker door forcefully. I didn't give a damn thing broke down. I didn't give a damn if the whole building collapses. I'm mad. I'm fuming.

Who wouldn't when all your teammates is looking daggers at you? Fuck shit! It's my own life where talking about here not theirs…well okay, my life and the captain's sister's life.

Besides it wasn't my fault if I don't have feelings for that girl. I just told her what I feel. They should be grateful that I told her the whole truth than give her false hope then dump her later.

So why are they mad at me? I'm not the one who ordered Haruko to confess her feelings to me. So why?

Damn it!

Everyone is furious with what I have done…including him. Fuck let me rephrase that…especially HIM.

You know I don't care if the whole team cursed me…really I don't. They are the least of my concern.

But him…he's different. I value him more than anything and ironically he values her more than anything.

Ever since that 'confession' his anger towards me has raised ten folds. I could sense his fiery eyes on my every move.

I really don't understand him. If he thinks of me as a rival, shouldn't he be glad that I reclined from the position. Shouldn't he be thanking me? She's all his now.

So why is he still mad at me?

DAMN IT!

Why does he hate me so much?

SHIT!

"BAKA KITSUNE!"

Automatically I turned to the source of the voice. I could not be mistaken it's my fire boy in the flesh. He was standing at the door. He look like he was fuming with rage, I turn my gaze away because I couldn't meet his gaze for I know hatred is lingering within those orbs of his. I tried hard to ignore him. I tried to ignore what I feel.

He stomps towards me and I tried my hardest to pay no attention to him but I know that I can't. His mere presence would activate every nerve in my being. He's scent could suffocate me, it's like pheromones scattered in the air.

And even if I shut my whole consciousness down I know my heart would know he's here.

I tried hard to look at my closed locker as if it was the most wonderful thing I ever seen. I didn't even realize that he was already near me and before I knew it warmth surrounded me. I felt the warmth of his body transferred into mine as he continued to cut the distance between us.

I steeled myself not to pounce on him. Really I tried to restrain myself but with this emotional turmoil within me I don't know how much more I could take.

He made a growling sound to get my attention. HA! Like he needed to do that, my attention has been solely his the first time I saw him at the rooftop.

I look at him with my most stoic expression I wear whenever he's near but my mask almost cracks as I gaze at his chocolate brown orbs.

I almost drown from all the emotion his eyes are projecting. Hate, anger, confusion…and sadness.

He grabbed me by the collar and spat curses at my face. I could only flinch and drop my head in resignation as he continues cursing me to the depths of hell.

Maybe my silence annoyed him more as he punched a fist towards me but miss me by a few millimeters and landed with a loud bang on the locker door. He must have promised that girl not to hurt me.

"DAMN YOU FOX!"

"…"

"DAMN YOU! HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO HER!"

"She doesn't deserve it."

"…"

He was fuming mad at me; he was already red from so much anger. I could feel his hands trembling, must have been due to the fact that he's controlling himself not to hit me again.

I couldn't look at him even when I feel that his grasp on my collar loosen a bit. I could hear some muffled sob.

"Damn you! You heartless bastard!"

Heartless? Did he just call me a heartless bastard?

I grabbed both his arm and slam him towards the opposite side of the locker room. I don't care if he hit his back on the lockers. I don't care if he hurts himself. I don't fucking give a damn. What I know now is that I'm dominating him. If only we were lying I could be on top but I would just content myself to the fact that he's under my mercy and my fiery gaze.

I'm clutching both his wrist and pinned it beside his head.

"Heartless? You know she called me that too. She said I have no heart. She said I have no emotion."

I could sense his sudden fear. I must have look like a serial killer or some sort right now. I wanted to smirk at that. I know he fear me now more than he fear Gori's wrath but I was beyond sanity to care. I was damn angry.

Angry at him.

Angry at her.

Angry at myself.

Angry at what destiny has thrown us into.

"You know what else she said? She said I was DENSE and that I have no feelings because I didn't even felt it, I didn't even notice."

He squirms a bit but I held him more tightly.

"…but if I have no feelings how come I love you?"

His eyes enlarge with my sudden confession. He's jaw drop a bit and for a while he stopped squirming. I grab his chin and force him to face me. I leaned closer to him, our nose almost touching. I could feel his warm breath mingling with mine.

"Why? Didn't you know? Didn't you notice? Didn't you felt it? Why? Are you also dense?"

Without any thought I leaned more and kissed him. I just brush my lips with his but I grew more confident as time passes by, I became more aggressive…I let my instinct kick in.

Before I know it I was licking my way down his jaw then up again to his lips as I force myself to enter his hot mouth. He was squirming for me to release him but I was too aroused to budge from my current state.

Then I felt something hot flowed from his eyes.

Tears…

He's crying…

And that stop me from doing my way with him…I loosen my grip from his wrist and hug him on my chest as he slump down on the floor. I leaned my chin on his fiery red hair and murmured soothing words to him.

"I don't know why I kept loving you. I know I'd get hurt again and again but I never learn because I don't want to. Not now, not while I'm still strong enough to fall for you over and over again."

I kiss his head and murmured 'I love you'.

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LateSleeper: YAY! I've finish it! Yes Ruhana day is coming and this is an advance gift…I hope.

LateSleeper: (looks at the reviews) Saa…WHAT THE! Of my god did Ran Mouri also known as Ruhana no miko reviewed this (I'm right, ne?)? Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I'm sooooooo happy. You're one of my fav authors…(bow down) I'm not worthy.