It's confusing really, and frustrating. I swore to myself I would kill him because father died saving him and that wench. But each time we meet in battle I came so close but ended up hesitating. This Sesshoumaru never breaks a promise or a swear, even if it were to himself. Then again my hanyou of a half brother intrigues me to no end. Which infuriates me even farther.
When Inuyasha was but a child when I found myself watching him in his village. How badly the other villagers treated him disturbed me. And he had not understood at all, until the day one of the children called him a half breed. I watched as he ran crying to his mother so confused yet curious at the same time to find out what the insult had meant. Then she herself had ended up crying taking him into her arms.
I grew to love Inuyasha as he became older, stronger, dare I say it, even handsome. He was devastated when his mortal mother died. I wanted nothing more but to console him, yet I could not bring myself to, my pride had indeed gotten in the way. So I stayed hidden, and gradually over time Inuyasha's hope filled eyes turned cold and emotionless.
His vision became clouded with the need for power, so he sought out the Shikon no tama a sacred jewel in which could grant any wish to it's beholder. There was a catch though, it was being guarded by a young miko who was named Kikyou. A very skilled one at that. Inuyasha tried numerous times, but he could not touch the jewel. Time passed and Kikyou began to thaw at the icy wall around his heart.
Soon they became irrespirable and fell in love. I found myself being envious of the mortal female. How I hated to see them together, it made my insides churn. One day the miko dared to ask Inuyasha to become human for her, so they could get married. And she could finally live a normal life, for if they used the jewel for the wish it would cease to exist thus her job of guarding it would end. What came next shocked me, he had said yes. Then shared a passionate kiss with her that had made me growl low in my throat.
Calming myself I made a decision then and there, no matter what my feelings were Inuyasha would never be able to return them now. So I hated him from then on. I left and never turned back. Months had gone, whenI heard from the impish toad youkai Jaken.Who was now my servant, that my half brother had been sealed to a tree by a miko. He was neither dead or alive. So I put it to the back of my mind.
Fifty or sixty so years later and I had found Inuyasha had awakened.Along with another mortal girl none the less. She had a striking resemblance to Kikyou; it had not gone unnoticed. Alas some things never change. So I in the end I would hate everyone who became close to Inuyasha. For I could never be.
A/N: Well that's all lol! And if don't like it then why'd you read it in the first place? So no flames please! Chibi out!