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Back at the Griffindor common room, Ron entered only to find Dee sitting in a large chair with her back to the door, looking out a huge bay window. "Your back already."
"Yeah, we are all kinda kicked out…including me. I wanted to stay with Hermione, but she wouldn't hear of it. She said she would be just fine without me." Ron said in a depressed tone. The way Hermione had just let Malfoy control her and just allowed him to leave without a second thought.
"Of course she will be." Dee said. "She can take care of herself."
"I know, it is just that she just allowed him to control her actions. And then when I offered to stay, she really didn't even think of it as an option. It was like that she didn't want me to stay. I know that she doesn't NEED me, but it is like doesn't eve want me anymore." Ron said looking very dejected.
"Hun, you got to get over this. Malfoy is a part of her life now, like it or not. She has a job and you cannot protect her from everything. She is a big girl. She loves you, you know that."
"I know, I just don't think that she likes me anymore." Ron said with tears in his eyes.
"If you honestly think that, why don't you do something about it? Talk to Harry or something about it. I mean I know Hermione, but I don't know you and Hermione like Harry does." Dee said, trying her best to get out of the situation before she said something that she would regret.
"I've tried, but he basically told me that I was crazy to think that and to drop the subject." He said. "I don't know what to do honestly. Hermione was and still is my everything, but now she is changing and I don't know what to do."
"Give her a chance." Dee said, defending Hermione in the accusations. "She never gave you a reason to not trust her."
"She never gave me a reason to in the beginning. I want her the way she used to be."
"Okay. I can't keep doing this." She admitted to Ron.
"Doing what?" Ron asked.
But Dee answered in a kiss. Ron didn't contribute to the kiss, but neither did he pull away. He was so shocked that he just sat there as Dee pulled away. "Watch the man I love, cry over a women he loves who doesn't love him." With that she got off the couch and walked to her room. She didn't sleep that well. Her night was filled with dreams of Ron and Hermione and Her. Scenes of them all together her with Ron. Ron breaking up with Hermione. Ron with Hermione. It was restless.
Ron also tried to sleep but the last conversation with Dee kept going over in his mind…".. Watching the man I love, cry over a woman who doesn't love him…. doesn't love him…. Doesn't love…. Doesn't…"
Ron woke-up even more fatigued then before, but finally decided to confront Hermione about their relationship. He met Hermione at breakfast.
"Hey, honey. See. I didn't get eaten by the big, bad Malfoy." She said to Ron as he walked towards her.
"Hermoine, we need to talk." Ron said.
"Okay, lets talk." Hermoine said, not getting Ron's meaning.
"No, I mean in private, lets go up to your room. I am sure Malfoy is out of there by now." Ron said pulling Hermione out of her seat.
"Ummm… Okay." Their walk was a quiet one. Hermione didn't really know how to react and Ron was concentrating on what he was going to say.
They finally arrived and of course Hermione finally came to her senses. "What is this about?"
"It is about you and us." Ron said. Hermione looked at him quizzically. "You changed Hermione whether anyone notices or not. You have and I can't sit here and love you, if you can't love me anymore."
"What are you taking about Ron? I haven't 'changed'" she said to him. "I still love you so I have no clue what brought this on."
"I'll tell you what brought it on. You are dressing like some punk chick. Your language and listening to that crap music. Emeiner or whatever. The way you kiss everything is changing…subtly, but it is."
"No it isn't. And so what if I listen to different music and like different clothes. What does what have to do with us?" Hermione defended herself.
"Don't you realize what is happening…your ways and your actions are effected by it to. I can tell when I kiss you. You don't love me anymore. You don't care."
That just pushed Hermione over the edge. Harry had told her about the conversations with Ron about them and she just thought that Ron was being stupid about something, but to accuse her of not caring about the one guy she cared most about was too far this year. "What the Fuck!" She yelled at him. "You have NO right to judge my life and feelings. You don't know how I feel inside. Your to busy thinking about yourself to give a damn about me anymore. I have all I can take. My parents get a divorce. My dad dies. My mom moves her asshole of a boyfriend into the house and I get raped walking to my car in a parking lot by some random asshole." She was on her feet yelling at Ron who was just sitting there with wide eyes. He was obviously in shock. "I am sorry that I have a fucking problem that I am trying to work through. I am sorry that I have 'changed' because of the shit that happened. But you have NO idea what is it like to be me right now." Tears were welling her eyes and threatening to fall, but she wiped them away.
Ron didn't like her tone. "Dee mentioned something about you not loving me though. I will not be lied to." Ron grabbed her wrists and pushed her against the wall. He held her wrists tight in one hand above her head making Hermione wince in pain. He punched her and then he grabbed her chin with his hand and made her look him in the eye. "Do you understand me?"
That was again the wrong thing to say to Hermione. It wasn't even the fact that he was talking to Dee. It angered her when he talked to Harry, but Harry was a life long friend to the both of them. He barely knew Dee. "You talked to Dee? What in the Fuck gives you the right to discuss our relationship with other people." He was about to hit her again, but Hermione kneed him in the groin. He doubled over in pain. "You know what we Don't have a relationship anymore because I can't date a guy that accuses me and berates me and talks to people about us, with out talking to me on the subject. I am so over dealing with your selfish, childish emotions." With that she ran up the stairs to her room and slammed the door, leaving Ron on the floor. Tears visibly falling from Hermione's eyes now.
She pulled out her boom box and threw in a Linkin Park CD. She turned up the volume and laid on her bed. The tears were still streaming down her face and into her pillow as the lyrics of Linkin Park sounded in the background.
…One thing / I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried
so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
Suddenly a knocked interrupted her sorrowful morning. "Go away Ron." Hermione yelled.
"Granger. It's me. Open up." Draco yelled through the bathroom door. Hermione kind of shocked the Draco was here much less actually talking to her. She slowly opened the door to her room from the bathroom.
"I couldn't help but hear your fight since you were really laying into Weasel down there." Draco said to Hermione.
"Sorry." Hermione said weakly. "I really don't have the time or energy to fight with you about it right now though."
"Don't worry about it, and since I have most of the same classes, I will notify the teachers that you are very sick today and couldn't get the energy to even make it out of class." He said with a smirk.
"Thank you." Hermione said in a an almost inaudible tone. She started to walk towards her bed, but then turned around. "Why are you doing this?"
He turned around. "Because if I know anything its that it takes a lot of courage to face one's fears and that I hate guys who do 2 things: rape and beat women. I have seen first hand the hell they go through. And by the looks of your face and the yelling that I heard, you had to face all three of those today." He said matter-a-factly. It wasn't said sweetly, but it was said and for Malfoy…that was a whole lot! She headed towards her dresser after Malfoy left and grabbed a small white bottle from under her socks. She poured a couple of pills from the bottle into hand. She popped the pills into her mouth and swallowed without any water. She was used to having to take the pills without since there wasn't water always around…
Hope that you liked the Chapter. I am sorry for those who are big Ron fans…when I started this fic, he wasn't supposed to be this horrible person, but the fatigue was getting to him. And they had to break up somehow…Sorry…I am trying to keep Draco atleast a little in character…tell me if it is okay…as always…tell me what you think.
Much Love!
Kelly