Ch.14: I'm Not Okay
It was dark once more, my mind empty and for once at peace. I had suffered through a lot and now for one moment I have found my inner person and it confines with Raven. But inside I have been crying, crying for the fact the more I love her the more I put her in danger, the more I care for her the more her life force drains in his shadow. It was life, hard as it was, that was it. Pain, agony, lust, hatred, and sometimes a glimpse of love and joy, but it never last long. This was the meaning of my life, this was the meaning of my existence, to be with her, but somehow I can never hold her like it was intended.
Slade still sat awake in his office, but he was not alone, his lips were entangled with a young blonde. She did not pull back but insisted for more of him. But Slade placed his two fingers between them and backed away with a small smile. That was what kept young Terra attracted to the boy. He was cruel, strong, powerful, and deep down he was a demon, but his smile was all that kept someone clinging to life. Like the tears of a thousand angels his smile brightened the darkest of places. But like the serpent to the apple, he lost his purity and lost his smile. But he was given it back by her lips, like a transfer of love to his face, which was what kept young Terra in love with her cruel god.
"You understand the plan correct my beauty?" cooed the boy.
"Of course, I trick the loser into our little trap, have a picture taken of it and have someone leave it for the witch to find breaking her heart and dissolving his. When all is over he will reluctantly kill himself and we will be left with our revenge."
"Yes of course. He will teach himself to never back talk you or me ever again, once and for all."
"But what about Plasmus?"
"I can take care of him, if the green freak doesn't take his own life we will take both of there's at the upcoming dance, the Christmas ball, it will be a masquerade so we can keep or profile's hidden; understand?"
"Yes I do but tell me again why we are taking out Garfield? He hasn't done anything that bad has he?" asked the blonde with sadness in her eyes.
"Why, do you care for him?"
"No it's just I don't see the point."
"O.k. let me tell you, it has to do with Raven's father, you might know him as our principal Trigon, he wanted us to make sure his little daughter stays heart broken so he can use her, something about some hidden darkness, and the last thing he told us was to take any measure necessary."
"So Raven is the daughter to that man?"
"Yes my dearest but you need not fear I would not put you in anything dangerous."
"Of course, well goodnight my master of the dark, it is late and you need your sleep to."
"Yes I will be in bed in a couple minutes."
Terra walked away with a smile and crept between her sheets and slept but Slade sat in his chair and laughed, he was going to finish his assignment and get all the money he had ever asked for. This school would soon be his one way or another.
I slowly walked into the school yard, my face was still red or brown whatever it was. I had a bright red hand mark across my left cheek and I still had a smile on my face. I looked for Raven but she hadn't showed up yet but I was able to find Kori and Richard sitting on a round bench near a large oak tree.
"Hey Gar what's up? Man I haven't talked to you in a while, so what's up?"
"Nothing much I am just getting over some stuff and I'm sorry I have been so far away from you all. So what's been happening with you two?"
"Oh nothing much, were just hanging out and I have been exercising more often, hey Kori could you go ask the librarian if a book that I was looking for? I would go myself but I have important business to talk to Garfield about."
The young girl got up with a nod and skipped over to the library. I felt a lump grow in my throat; Richard never wanted to talk to me about something important before.
"Take a seat Gar." He said softly.
His attitude had completely changed; he seemed more at peace with Kori gone. He slicked his hair back but huffed as it spiked back up. He fiddled with his thumb and a blush came to his cheeks.
"I need your thought, how can I express how I feel for Kori to her?"
"I always thought you liked her, and she does to. Well is there anything important coming up soon?"
"She mentioned something about her birthday coming up but she never told me when."
"Well find out when and try and get her something to express your love for her, something that easily tells her how you feel even right it on it or on the box make it clear to her."
"Your right, you're actually right. Thank you!" laughed the teen as he jumped up and gave Gar a large hug that cracked his back and sent him sailing around the area and plopping to the floor in a heap of laughter and shock.
"You two are made for each other you know, both have ways of affection that could kill an army and the strength of a million and seventy men." sighed Garfield as he got back to his feet and shook the cobwebs from his brain.
"I just came up with a better idea to. I give it to her at the dance!"
"Dance? What dance?"
"You didn't know? There's a Christmas ball coming up and I'll ask her to go with me and then I will give her the gift and pop the question!" laughed Richard as he put is hands behind his back and laughed.
'Great a dance! I can't dance I will embarrass myself and Raven!"
I sighed and walked away, I forgot it was still another day and still another day in the claws of Slade, still another day of agony that I can't take anymore.
I shuffled my feet down the staircase and through the endless hallways. I opened the door and saw Terra in a swimsuit?
"Why the hell are you in a swimsuit underground?" I asked with a blush on my face.
She was absolutely beautiful, she had her long blonde hair down to her chest and had on a two piece set, the top was black and the bottom was a deep brown.
"Because I'm going swimming, there's a hallway leading to the school poll were that weirdo Aqua lad hangs out."
I followed her with a curious glance, she didn't seem like herself; she looked nervous and kept looking behind her back. But finally we reached the pool and I sat on a bench and watched the young blonde do a swan dive off the diving board into the water of purity that became known as a pool; but as I watched her, another boy came up to me. He wore a blue and black swimming shirt and scuba pants with long jet black dripping wet hair. He had brown eyes and an empty smile.
"What's up, you're the new kid right? Names Kip, Kip Wave but people call me Aqualad around here!" he laughed as he shook my hand.
"The names Garfield, so I heard you're the leader of the swim team?"
"Sure am, 3 time national best and now a champion captain!" he laughed.
The boy ran off into the pool with a thumb up but as I watched Terra swim around my head ached and I heard a snap. That's when I knew he was back.
'Garfield…little Garfield, I am back to take my place!' the Beast cackled in my head.
'You can go to hell Beast; I am not letting you in!'
'O.k. little Garfield, but I would want me to take your place because something bad is about to happen!'
'What's that suppose to mean?'
'You will see.'
With that the pain went away and I felt back in power again. I felt like I had no strength left to stand but I was in power. I slowly shook the cob webs out of my head but I was stopped by the sound of screams.
"Garfield! She's drowning come help me!" yelled the voice of Kip.
I looked over and saw Kip trying to grab at something! I removed my shirt and shoes and didn't have time to get my pants off; I dived into the empty blue and looked down. I saw Terra at the bottom, she didn't move but her body was spread out against the floor! She was 20ft under the top! I got all the air I could and dropped down. My pants were holding me back but I couldn't waist time, I felt my lungs dieing out but I kept swimming deeper and deeper! I finally reached her and lifted her to my body. I put my feet on the concert floor of the pool and pushed myself down and with all my strength I fired off the ground and began to rocketed to the surface but I wasn't going to make it! I prayed and prayed and somehow I was able to make it to the surface and lay the blonde teen on the tile floor.
"She isn't breathing we have to do mouth to mouth!" he screamed.
"I…I…I took a class on that I practiced with some other girl so I should be able to do it now!" I yelled out keeping my breathe flowing.
I went up to her and looked at her, she wasn't breathing at all I needed to get this right and fast! I leaned over her and put my lips against her! I pushed all the air into her I could. I pushed down on her chest 1…2…3! She looked like she was starting to but I had to do it again. I placed my lips against hers but this time her hands went around mine and she pulled up with me and held the kiss. I felt her tongue force into mine and I couldn't deny it.
Off in the corner were Garfield couldn't see Fang sat in the dark and snapped pictures silently, 3 pictures he took and each one of them had Garfield and her tongues entangled. He silently chuckled to himself and left the building.
She released me carefully and looked into my eyes. She was beautiful but I felt very guilty for not pulling back, I prayed no one had seen me kiss Terra. I would give anything to wish that was true.
Raven walked over to her locker in the darkest part of the hallway, but to her surprise there was a large envelop tapped to her door. She opened it up and starred in amazement. The pictures fell to the ground and the sound of crying came from her. Raven almost fell down in sadness and took the pictures with her and ran as far as she could. She turned into a bathroom and sat in the stalls and began to scream and cry.
"It isn't true! These are fake! They have to be, he wouldn't do that to me, to her! Someone is playing some kind of horrible joke! Stop it!" she screamed to nothingness.
She sobbed and sniffed she couldn't control herself. But as she cried the light bulbs flashed and cracked, the hallway lights crashed and broke and almost everything for a few yards crashed and broke. And as she wept Slade listened to her sounds of pain and torture with a smile on his face, his plan was very close to the finish and it was just getting better.