This is my first chapter of my first story, so be gentle please. DISCLAIMER:I do not own any of theBTV characters.
"When she kisses me, every part of my body feels it. It is electrifying and terrifying. I want her and I am not afraid to say it. I have always loved her without receiving the happiness of returned love. I know that I will never achieve that happiness. It is not possible. I am just a 'disgusting thing' to her. She is beautiful and pure, yet I am not. They tell me to move on, I cannot. My existence would have no meaning without her around. I couldn't bear it. She is the reason I am here. Without my beloved Buffy, I would be nothing."
"Wait, your talking about Buffy!" exclaimed Xander. "That's hilarious, Spike. You don't have a chance with her! Sorry, but you don't," Xander then gets an evil look on his face. "You've kissed her? How did you do that? Share a secret, will ya mate? A guy needs to know!"
"I haven't kissed her," Spike sighs. "Only in my dreams."
"That is pathetic! 'Only in your dreams' you say. Your part of a gang, you can do anything you want!"
"Not to Buffy, I can't. It feels like she has me under a bloody spell. It's really weird."
Spike just sat there, weighing his options. Should he ask her out, or run and hide when she walks down the hall? It was his first time being in love and he didn't like it at all. He couldn't force her to things like all of the other girls that he has gone out with.
"Bloody hell, what's a guy to do?"