A/N : What can I say? It's 'the season'! I've decided to write a Christmas shonen-ai fic, as I bet a bunch of other people have decided to do as well! It's exactly a month until Christmas day so I've been shopping in Thornton's (yummy!) and got a really nice bit of chocolate, which gave me a surprising amount of inspiration for this chapter (as you will see/read later) and it has also been snowing all day and all of last night, so let's just say I got a bit Christmassy! I really hope you guys will like this fic!

If you are as lazy as I am, read only the bits in bold.. hehe.

It is Christmas time and the Bladebreakers are going to be staying with Kai in Russia. The story is set a year after Series Three ends and is all in Kai's POV. Please R&R.

Warning : Strong language, yaoi

Disclaimer : I don't own Beyblade or any of the characters. The characters you do not recognise are mine and are not to be stolen/used in any story other than my own.

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All I Want : Chapter One

December 18th

Christmas should be fun this year, or so I've told myself thousands of times. I don't actually think I've ever had a fun Christmas before so I'm trying to be positive, not something I've been good at in the past. Although, I have to point out, it is extremely difficult to be positive when you know that the next week will be spent with four people you find immensely annoying, and one person you love but can't find the words to tell them. There are only going to be five of us here, myself included. Do the math… Doesn't work? Well, I'll tell you how it does work : Just because I find somebody a pain the neck, it doesn't mean I can't love them. Right? Right…

I'm currently cleaning my house up a bit, just picking stuff up and doing the lazy jobs that aren't difficult and don't involve much effort on my part. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a lazy person, it's just not my job, I hire people to do this, I just thought I'd be helpful because 'it's the season'. I also think I'm still grinning inside over my grandfather's 'tragic death' as the press had put it – According to them he was involved in a car accident in which he swerved to avoid a wolf in the road. I'm still laughing over that, bollocks would he have swerved if there had been a wolf in front of him. Hell no. Instead, the poor sod would have lost it's life. But anyway, I think that is also partly what is making me happy.

The other part would be the reunion. I've invited my old team, the Bladebreakers we called ourselves (or Tyson called us, anyway) to my home here in Russia, for Christmas. It's probably going to be the coldest one they've ever had I should suspect, but still. It will be good to have the house to ourselves, I can get to know them now, I suppose, but I know they will have changed a lot since I haven't seen them for just over a year… They will have finally grown up – I should hope.

If you're beginning to wonder yet about having the house to myself and about my grandfather's 'tragic death', then I will simply say one word : Revenge… Okay, two words, I'll say 'Bryan' as well. Or we could even go for the whole 32-word account : Bryan wanted to kill Boris for all the shit he put us through at a young age, so I paid him to get rid of my grandfather whilst he was at it. We did a really good job actually, nothing was ever found out… Anyway, back to rambling about my old team.

There were a few who came and went, but five of us who were there at the beginning and at the end – The middle bit was a bit of a loss though. We all went our separate ways until a bunch of kids called 'Saint Shields' stole our bit beasts and pulled us back to reality… That was a strange time. As I was saying, there were five of us, the five who will be staying here over Christmas, we stuck together. Firstly there was me, Kai Hiwatari, seventeen years old, from Moscow, Russia. They called me the 'sourpuss' of the team – not a nickname I preferred, but one I had to adapt to… Unfortunately. My team was pretty cool actually, not a word I use often, but possibly the only decent word to describe them unless I give you a full overview of each of them, which I may as well do as I have nothing better to do with my time.

Okay, there was this kid called Kenny who wasn't really part of the team but travelled around with us everywhere we went and updated our blades, thought up new tactics and practically kept the team together when an argument broke out. He was the brains of the outfit, much as I'd always hate to admit since he's nearly two years younger than me. (Note I'm pretty arrogant.)

Blonde-boy Max Tate was the hyper-active one of the team. He's a year younger than me but reasonably level-headed all the same. When I first met this American blader, he exasperated me, but three years down the line and I didn't think he was so bad. I may even be able to hold a conversation with him now. Probably unlike Tyson…

Tyson Granger is… Well, what can I say? Tyson is possibly the most annoying person I've ever met. He's the Japanese blader of the team, two months younger than Max… And he's immature, he talks too much and doesn't know when to shut up, he's a bottom-less pit and never stops thinking about food but he doesn't get fat, the lucky bastard… I have to work for this body… And, just to top it off, he's got too much energy and is always on the go apart from early morning when he's supposed to be awake for training… And yet, much as I hate the guy (not literally), he is possibly one of the nicest people I've ever met.

Then there was a guy called Rei Kon, the seventeen-year-old Chinese blader. Rei's from a village some place in the mountains (wasn't really listening when he was telling us) and he's what they call a 'Neko-jin'. Apparently that means he's half-cat, which would explain the whole 'yellow eyes and fangs' thing. He's a fantastically deep guy, and possibly the most interesting person I have ever come into contact with, so it stands to reason why he is also the object of my love.

Oh how Tala laughed when I told him that. Tala's not actually a very nice person, neither is Bryan really, but they're my friends, no matter how odd they are. By odd, I mean Tala is one of those people who can never make up his mind about anything, then complains about making the wrong decision when everybody tells him it's the wrong one… He also displays the worst mood swings imaginable. One minute he's fine, he's happy, he's laughing, the next minute he'll throw things at you and shout about how much he hates you – Really nice guy. And Bryan… I don't think Bryan has any emotion. See, if you thought I was a cold hearted bastard, you should meet Bryan. He never smiles, I have never seen Bryan smile, not once. I've seen him angry, I've seen him disruptive and I've seen him bored. That's about it. He's obviously a real positive guy.

Hmm, I've introduced you to all of my friends in a reasonable amount of detail, I suppose I could explain about myself in a little more detail too. As I've said, my name is Kai Hiwatari, I'm 17 years old and I'm from Russia. As I have also said, my grandfather is dead now and therefore I live alone. The Demolition Boys (Tala's team) visit occasionally, and my house-staff come and go, but other than that I am rather lacking in human contact, but don't get me wrong – that's the way I like it. Due to this fact, as well as 'sourpuss', my team gave me various other nicknames : I've been known as the wet blanket, I've been known as a block of ice, I've also been called 'somebody who doesn't know what fun is'… That, however, is far from the truth. I may have been a wet blanket on the team and brought them all down by being too serious, and I may have blocked them all out and shown no emotion toward them, but both of these things sprung from the same source : Grandfather.

Since I was young, after my parents died and I was taken into his 'care', he has been cold and heartless to me, simply using me as some kind of experiment. He wanted me to the best Beyblader there was and he wanted me to steal bit beasts from other teams, he even wanted me to steal from my own team. I did not want to be a part of that – I did it though, for a while. I was brainwashed into thinking that maybe he'd be nicer to me if I obeyed him, of course, I was wrong. He just became even more cruel… He never showed me any love or affection that a child needs, just simple things like talking to me didn't happen, and that's why I found it difficult to show emotion to anybody else. I wasn't used to getting attention, let alone people being nice to me… It was strange, but since Bryan killed off my grandfather I think I have started to open up a little, that's what Tala says anyway.

But the bit about not knowing how to have fun is total bollocks. I can be fun when I want to, but the reason I haven't really shown that side of me is the same reason as the other two. I wasn't allowed to have fun, I wasn't even allowed friends. Therefore, my social-life was kinda screwed up. I'm so fucking glad he's dead, thank you Bryan.

-Stretch-

Ah, that's better, I was getting aching knees from crouching down so long, picking things up. I've been working on my living-room mainly as that's where everything will be happening. Unless I get lucky, in which case I'd better clear up my bedroom too, but I can't see that happening… I'm just not that blessed. It's just gone midday so I think it's about time I went Christmas shopping to get a present or two for the guys… I don't even know what they like these days so it could be difficult to choose; maybe just a box of chocolates each, though that isn't exactly a personal gift that they can keep, which I know they'll want to – it will be proof forever more that I'm not just some heartless bitch, I really do have a heart. Possibly a sled each with their name on the front since there's plenty of snowy hills here for them to sled down… But I think that's a little corny.

Where the fuck is my scarf? Remember that white scarf I always used to wear? Yeah, I've lost it. Oh, I know where it is. I put it in my room before cleaning up down here so it wouldn't get covered in filth, my house is, you see – Filthy that is. After running up and down the stairs a couple of times I think I'm ready to go, just checking : I have my scarf, I have my coat, I have my hat, I have my gloves and I have my money. Right.

I've literally just left the house and I'm freezing cold already! I hope the guys have remembered how cold it is here and will have the brains to bring some warm clothes with them… Or I could just get them all a jumper and scarf for Christmas. Actually, that's not a bad idea and I have my credit card so I suppose anything is possible.

Now, let's see… Rei is quite grown up and likes the colour red. Hn, by the looks of things (I can see the town in the distance now) there's plenty of red around, so he should be reasonably easy to buy for. Max will want something fun, maybe a sled really is a good idea for him – I know that he and Tyson would share a good few laughs on it if I got one, so not a bad idea. Kenny would probably like something technological. No way am I paying for an upgrade for his laptop, that's just going too far. Maybe a scarf and some chocolate? Hell, I wish I'd gotten to know these guys, then buying Christmas presents wouldn't be so damn difficult. Maybe I should have called them beforehand, but that probably would have ruined the surprise… I wonder what they'll think of me when they get here?

I've changed a lot over the past year too, just as I know they will have. I'm a much kinder person, more open, I've even started smiling rather than smirking – but still not that often. I prefer to show my appreciation for something by returning whatever favour it may have been to make me smile; for example – My housemaids clean my home three times a week and, sure I pay them, but isn't it nicer to lend a helping hand every now and then? I think it is… I hope we all get along these days. Me and the guys, I mean. I don't even know if they have all kept in touch with each other or not – they might all still be in contact and it will be just me on my own trying to get to know them all over again, not that I ever really tried in the first place – Kami, I wish I had now.

I'm currently stalking towards my favourite shop in the whole damn town to get some good boxes of chocolate for everyone. I swear, this place sells the best chocs you could ever taste… Ever. Through the door and I immediately get greeted by the owner, by name too, that is how often I come here – Practically every day on my way to college, sometimes I go after college too, just to stock up for the night. I'm really surprised I'm not fat, actually. I probably should be considering the amount of sweets I eat, especially this close to Christmas.

"What can I get you today Master Kai?" Toujon asks me, he's the owner of the place. He's a short white-haired man somewhere in his fifties with the most friendly nature one could possibly imagine and wonderfully bright turquoise eyes to go with his bubbly personality. He's known me since I was young and I think he always suspected my grandfather of neglecting me. In fact, I think he was pretty suspicious when he found out Grandfather was dead but he never bothered asking – He knew it wasn't his business.

"I need something for my friends for Christmas." I reply absentmindedly, trying to look around the shop at the mountains of boxes, all containing the thing even I have been craving recently : Dark, milk, white, praline, mint, orange, raspberry, strawberry, coffee cream, caramel, toffee… You name it, he's got it. I smirk as he beckons me over, holding out a little tray of his newest creation, a truffle of some kind by the looks of things.

"Now, you try one of these Master Kai. Your friends might like a box of these for a Christmas gift… What do you think?" Kami, I'm in heaven. These truffles are so good! I reach for a second one, a white one this time, but my wrist gets slapped by Toujon's daughter, Marie. She's a one-of-a-kind sort of girl, always making sure she is out and away from the crowd, I think she detests normality. Like her father, she was born with white hair, which curls around her face and her own turquoise eyes are always filled with mischief. I put on my best indignant face, making her tut jokingly, letting me have my second truffle. We've been mates for a while, not friends exactly but definitely mates; she's four years older than me and treats me like a little brother, and by that I mean she'll come to my home to 'nurse' me when I'm not feeling my best or give me a good scolding if she catches me being naughty in any way – She's the reason I quit smoking. I was only doing that for about two months just after Bryan killed my grandfather to relax myself since I kept thinking of the consequences if we got discovered by the authorities, luckily everything went smoothly and has ever since we passed it off as a road accident… But anyway, Marie saw me taking a few drags from Bryan's cigarette and practically bollocked me. She can be quite scary when she's angry.

"Thanks Toujon, those truffles taste great. How much is it for a box of them?" I no longer care about the guys and there's no way I'm giving these babies away, hell no. I want a box for myself. Okay, I guess I can get them all one… Grudgingly… To share.

"1,700 Yen per box young master. How many would you like?" Good question. One for me… That's so greedy, they're huge boxes. Anyway, one for me, one for everyone else to share? No, that's too mean. I'll get three of these, then a slab of chocolate for each of them. That sounds good.

"Three of those please Toujon, and I'd also like four of those personalised marbled slabs… Yeah, those ones. I want them all to say 'Happy Christmas' across the top, then 'Love Kai' across the bottom, no… make that 'from Kai'. Then I need them to have the guys' names in the middle, one saying 'Tyson', one saying 'Rei', one saying 'Maxie', and one saying 'Kenny'. Actually, I do want them to say 'Love Kai' – I have a lot of things to prove to these guys… Wait, make it say Chief, not Kenny…"

I honestly cannot tell you how long I rambled on to Toujon and Marie about proving I have a heart, but they were laughing along like they cared so it didn't matter. More to the point, I now have four slabs, named and wishing them a happy Christmas that say Love Kai xx across the bottom. See, I even put two kisses on them and everything, so the guys had better appreciate it. I've already spent far too much to bear thinking about, and I've only got the chocolates so far. The next place I'm headed to is a good clothes shop to get them all a scarf because I'd bet my bollocks that none of them will think of brining one, except Kenny maybe, but I'm still going to buy him one too. I thought I'd get a red one for Rei, a green one for Kenny, an orange one for Max and a black one for Tyson. I really hope Rei still likes red things, because I think he looks rather ravishing in red… I may even plan on buying him a new wardrobe this Christmas – Yeah, you guessed it. All red.

Okay, nice-looking scarves in this shop. They're stripy. Gazing through the window to see if the appropriate colours are stocked here, I can see a red one… I can see a green one… I can see an orange striped one… And I can see black and blue striped… Well, that sorts the scarves then, doesn't it? Okay… Walking into this shop has to be the worst thing I have done today – Not only is it warm in here, but it also has loads of things I can see fit to buy for the guys. I think my credit card will feel pretty wounded by the time I'm finished, but at least I can sled my way home. I'm so buying that, it's perfect. It's big enough for three people, made of good strong wood with metal slips on the underside, a rope to hold on to… And the best bit is the leather harness at the front you can attach a dog to. It almost makes me want to buy a dog – Almost.

This shop is fantastic… I wonder why I haven't noticed it before. Could it be that I am actually being dragged down into the Christmas spirit like the rest of the population? Could that seriously be happening to me? It's my first Christmas without my grandfather, of course I'm going to be feeling the spirit this year! Wow, spending a quality week over Christmas with my friends, having fun. I've never had the chance to do that before… Right, that's it. That is the motivation I needed! I am going all out this year. I'm getting a tree, I'm getting decorations, loads of presents, food, drink, music, hell I'm getting a camera so I can get loads of pictures of us all! We are going to party this year like there's no end, and I am going to have the best time of my life. I can feel it… Though I don't really have time to get everything today. Still, I have 4 days 'til the guys get here – they're arriving early afternoon on the 22nd and I just can't wait now. I'm going to prove to them I am a great guy who loves them all to bits, well, maybe not quite that much, but I will provide the best Christmas any of them have ever had, ever.

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