-1Falling Memories

Chapter 2

Carly headed home after seeing Jason, she felt more down then she had before. Seeing him lying there so helpless just broke her heart into a million pieces. What hurt worse was the fact there was nothing she could do to help him, nothing.

She walked into her bedroom and sat down at the edge of the bed before sighing. She had no idea what she should do next. A feeling of lost and desperation took over.

She got up and walked over to the nightstand pulling out her journal. Since Carly started her new life away from Sonny, on her own two feet, she found it was easier to write her emotions and thoughts down.

I saw Jason today. I know he wanted everyone to stay away but I just couldn't after I found out he was taking a treatment to help cure him and get his memory back. I would be grateful for Jason to be ok and out of danger but if he would get his memory back too I could die happy.

I can't do this, live without him but knowing he was around but just didn't care about me anymore. I just want us back, our friendship, the way he could read me like no one else in this world. Jason's just the best person you could want in your life.

I tried to be nice to Sam, I really did but it didn't work. I understand Jason loves her I just can't understand why. And why he chose to still be with her even though he doesn't remember her either. I want to know what she has that he accepted her back into his back and pushed everyone else away.

I guess you could say I envy her because memory or not Jason still loves her.

Carly closed the journal and laid back on the bed as she felt tears roll down her cheeks. It was simply unfair she thought, just unfair.

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Sam sat in the chair across from Jason's bed, she stood when she saw him open his eyes. "Jason." she gasped. "How are you feeling?"

Jason groaned slightly. "I'm ok." His head was pounding and he felt like a mess but he didn't want her to worry.

"Have you remembered anything?"

Jason wasn't sure what he heard in her voice, hope or fear? "It's all jumbled up." he admitted. "There's all these images but I can't understand them yet." He was puzzled about the one image his mind kept focusing on. It was of Carly, he recognized her from the few times they ran into each other. The image in his mind was much different then the time he told her he didn't know her then she was shocked and hurt. But in this image she was smiling. He wondered of what made her so happy. He thought exclusively to himself she was quite beautiful when she smiled.

"Do you want me to get the doctor?" Sam offered but before he could answer Robin walked inside.

"Hey, how are you feeling?" Robin asked as she neared the bed.

"I'll give you a chance to talk." Sam said excusing herself from the room.

Jason watched her go before speaking. "It could be worse I guess but my head's a mess."

"That's to be expected. It's a good sign you're awake and so far you haven't had a violent reaction to the treatment. So far everything points to a full recovery." Robin explained.

"Everything is just cluttered together. Before I had no memory what so ever but now there's images and feelings, it's hard not knowing what it all connects to." Jason explained. He didn't want to add to Sam's stress factor and found it easy to confide in Robin. She was his doctor, maybe she could help him make sense of all this.

Robin sat in the empty chair. "As the treatment continues you should get more memories back and it should slowly make sense. I know it can be frustrating but give it time." she said. "Is there anything practically bothering you? We did know each other for years, maybe I can fill in the blanks."

Jason thought that over for a moment and looked at the brown eyed girl. "Tell me about Carly."

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The next morning Carly found herself dragging into work. The night had been long and sleep came in short bouts. She was glad she would get the boys later, they always brightened up her day.

In her divorced settlement from Lorenzo she gained some stock which led to her being co owner of Metro Court, a hotel / restaurant. She rode the elevator to the top floor where the offices were located.

She looked through her messages as she sat down at her desk. Only one caught her attention. Robin Scorpio had called and requested to see her, the message was left just a few minutes ago.

Carly knew it had to be about Jason since she was his doctor. Without a second thought she left her office and decided work could just wait.

She took a taxi to the hospital and the whole way her mind contemplated what Robin could want. Carly couldn't stop hoping the message would lead to Robin telling her Jason was better and wanted to see her. But at the same time she reminded herself not to hope. Hope was for fools setting themselves up for a let down.

She left the cab and rushed to find Robin. "Why did you want to see me?" she asked getting right to the point once she found the other woman at the reception area.

Robin was shocked to see Carly so soon. "I know we don't like each other but right now all that matters is Jason so, I can't believe I'm saying this, but he needs you."

Don't hope, Carly reminded herself. "What do you mean?"

Robin guided Carly to the waiting area and they both sat down. "Right now Jason's in a state where everything is just confusing. There's images but they don't connect, the whole memory isn't there. It can be very frustrating. And right now I don't think it's going to get any better until he's had the whole treatment and that's days away." she carefully explained.

"Ok."

"Jason needs someone that's been there in his life non stop to help fill in the blanks. You're the only one who fit's the bill."

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Isabelle A