Ok, not talking very long this time, lol. I know most people prolly don't even read what I have to say anyways all I have to say is, the song Let Me Go is by Three Doors down, so the stuff that is in italics, isn't owned by me

Chapter 2: Let Me Go

It was as though when your world felt like it had stopped, and froze in a certain time in your life, it always had to pick the bad times to do this. But really in all reality, I guess it just wasn't stopping, but my mind was leading me to believe this. Well, let's just say that when I got home that day after running home from school unable to bear it any longer, I had indeed went through that night like as though it was in slow motion.

My mom of course had to ask why I was home so early, but she knew what it was without me even answering and she let me up to my room without even trying to fix things like a normal mother would do, she only cared about herself pretty much. And after she had realized that I wasn't going to change to fit her expectations, she gave up on me. Although, I had to think she had to have cared, she just didn't want to make it seem as though she did since I wasn't perfect, and she only cared for those who WERE perfect through her eyes. I wished I had a normal mother once in a while, it would give me someone to talk to, and all, but I guess being left alone was a good thing too. I was alone in this world all the time now, no friends or family to back me up on my problems anymore. All I had was the few people on the internet, but why should I get help from someone I don't even know? Well, I guess it was worth the shot, I mean after all, it WAS someone.

I signed online, and looked at my buddy list, it was funny how they always seemed to be on as though they carried no life and just sat in front of the computer all day, they had to go to school, or at least I thought that they would have. It took Danny off my mind for a while till I saw his name on my buddy list and closed it out. Ok, internet wasn't the best way to do things; I usually came on just to talk to Danny, and really no one else. And now that wasn't an option, he had probably deleted me off his list for all I knew. I turned the computer off, there had to be SOMETHING to turn to, I just hadn't figured it out yet. After all, there always seemed to be a way to take care of things, but how?

Walking up and facing my fears was what I should have done. And when I say that, I mean I should just walk up to Danny and let him know what he had done to me, but no one in their right mind tells someone that they had broken their heart, it's just not normal. And chances would be that he wouldn't care and it would just hurt me more, or he would think I was nuts or something. Or I guess I could like… tell him what I thought about him going out with Valerie, but I pretty much made my self as clear as I could get the first day he was going out with her when he yelled at me for trying to be a good friend. It made me mad, but then again I couldn't even really be mad at Danny, although I wished I could hate him, it seemed impossible. After all, I had been friends with him since I could remember, and I still wanted to hold onto that, but obviously he didn't have the same look on things as I did.

I sat down on the side of my bed and looked around my room as though trying to search for something, but I wasn't going to find anything here, that was for sure. I looked down at the end table and the picture lying face down on it, and I picked it up. It was a picture of Danny and I, of course. We were both laughing in it, I wished it could be the same now. I put it back down as I was starting to feel the tears come in again and I stood up and walked out of my room. I was going to the one place I liked best, Danny had shown it to me, and it was our favorite spot, but I guess it was fine for me to go there alone this time, it was a quiet place quit a ways off, it would be the perfect place for me to think things over. School wouldn't be out for a long time yet anyways, I needed a place to go to, to pass the time, everything was in freeze frame right now.

I walked outside and looked around the streets at the few cars passing by. Once school let out kids would be all over the place talking to each other and all. Usually Danny and I didn't make it home till it was dark out, but I guess now I would be home early, and sit around doing nothing at all, I never was exactly totally social, only to my friends that I lost all because of Valerie. I wanted to kill her or… make her disappear somehow, I would never kill her, but that doesn't mean I wouldn't ship her off somewhere and make sure she never returned. But Danny would know it was me that had done it, so that would be stupid and pointless. Turn them against each other? Well, that seemed hard to do since she was trying to kill him even yet he still wanted to be with her. I guess I could always tell her that he was Danny Phantom, but then Danny would totally loose his trust in me, and that wouldn't help me at all either.

It was such a long walk to get there, without Danny flying me there, it might take forever. I kept going though until I got the feeling of being watched and I turned around and there he was, Danny. Why was he out of school as well. I wanted to run, sprint in the other direction; although he could fly much faster then I had ever hoped to run. He looked sad, and it almost made me feel bad, although I didn't do anything to him, he was the one that had hurt me, why was he here though?
"I figured I would find you here," he said quietly, avoiding eye contact from me, and I stood there staring at him for a second, and I shook my head.

"Danny, what are you doing here?"

One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And your not something I deserve

"I just wanted… I had to tell you something. When you left the classroom, I knew it was because of me Sam…" he said, but it was as though he couldn't get his words out, but I waited there patiently, although it was killing me to know why he came out here and skipped school to talk to the one that seemed to matter nothing to him a few days ago. I could feel the tears inside me trying to come out but I held them down, although I was no longer going to be able to talk.

"I wanted to let you know Sam, that I'm sorry, but I guess things just aren't going to be the same anymore… and I'm willing to take the change. I mean… I love Valerie, ok? And if you can't take that, well then I guess we aren't friends anymore…" He said, and turned away, was he crying? No, he couldn't have been, because if it hurt him so badly, then why would he have made this choice? He wouldn't have if he actually cared about me, and our relationship, so just what was his problem?

"Danny…" I said softly, and let the tears slide down my cheeks as I watched him carefully, there was my dream guy, standing right in front of me. We would never be together again, that's how it seemed. Yet it seemed as though it took everything inside of him to say that, he wasn't going to say anything else, and I just let him finish us off so easily. It wasn't much of anything, but it was enough to break to friends apart, two best friends at that. Only a few simple words and it was like snapping a stick in half, it was broken, our friendship was forever gone. I could no longer see anything because my eyes were so watery, but I could still see Danny standing there, why couldn't he just leave? That was all he wanted yet he wanted to torture me more by standing there, and not just letting me be.

"I'm sorry," he said, and turned around to leave, but I had to do one last thing. I ran up to him and through my arms around him, and he froze solid, as stiff as a board as though my touch was something he couldn't handle anymore. But he stood there and let me keep him held in my arms, I never wanted to let him go, but after a few minutes he pushed me away from him, and turned around to look at me.

"Sam, you have to learn to let go," he told me, and began to walk away.

"Well… I think you need to learn how to respect what you had…" I said crying, I could hardly say it, but I had to get it out, and at least let him know that he wasn't making the right choice, maybe keep him with guilt that he was breaking my heart, he could tell that of course from my crying, and the fact that I could hardly talk to him anymore.

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm tore between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

"You don't know what you're doing," I told him before he strided off without saying a word and I fell to the ground trying to wipe the tears from my eyes, but it was an endless stream. I wanted to throw something, let my frustration out on something. I was mad, and sad mixed, I didn't know what to do. Did he have to come out here to ruin my day more then it already was ruined? Or I guess he was just letting me know no matter what I did, it was over with, but I thought that wasn't true. There had to be some way to change his mind, just because he says we aren't friends anymore, that doesn't MEAN we can't fix that.

Or I could at least let him know my mind, at least let him know what he has done… from this I turned around and headed home, I didn't know how much farther it was to that spot anyway, and I had a new idea in mind, to make him feel guilty, that was my next best step…

When I got home I grabbed out a piece of paper and wrote:

Dear Danny,

You left me in the cold, out in the rain. You used to protect me, but nothing's the same. All by myself, but I will always remain. Tears sliding down my cheeks, and my mind full of furry, yet I never knew I could stand you for this long. I have never given up on you, so why should you give up on me? You have broken my heart, and ruined my soul, but I will be waiting for you, that I know. Maybe one day you will realize your mistake, and one day everything can be normal again. I can hope for this, but never hope it will actually happen. After all, you chose your life, and now I just have to live mine in pain…

From your lost friend,

Sammy

I looked at it and realized what I had written, I guess it was pretty much my thoughts… just in different words, should I really let him have this though? Maybe it wasn't the best idea, but then again… what did I have to loose anymore? It sounded like some dumb poem or something, but it was really all I had to say, so I was going to deal with it. He would get it, it was the only thing I could try to use to fix things up, although I guess it wasn't much use, it wasn't going to work anyway. A few words wasn't going to change his mind, I was sure of that. After all the thought I put into it if I really should send it to him, I decided to. I looked out the window, I could see his room out my window, it was a long ways away, but I could see it, I guess that wasn't really a good thing though…

"All right… let's she what this can do," I said to myself and folded it up and kept it hidden in my hand, I guess I could just throw it in his mail box, and see if he actually got it, or if Jazz ended up with it… I guess that was a risk I was going to have to take though. She would only try to help anyways, so it wouldn't hurt anyway, but she also wouldn't give it to Danny probably… Ok, I have put enough thought into the stupid thing.

I went downstairs and looked around, that was odd, no one was even home. I went out the front door, and looked down the road at his house. The towering house, that everyone knew was his, it was unmistaken, and kinda hard to miss. I walked in that direction, but then stopped to think. Where had Danny gone to after he left earlier? Was he at home, or did he go back to school? School was going to let out soon, so I had to make up my mind on it, because I was going to be stuck in school tomorrow and wouldn't have this opportunity again. I ran up to his house, and looked around, even though that was only making me look more as though I was trying to do something. I stuck it in his mail box, and ran back to my house. Once I was back in my room, I sat down on my bed again, and looked around my room.

Everything made me think of Danny. The first time he spent the night here we had totally destroyed my curtains… with a pair of scissors, and they were left that way with a bunch of cuts in them. And we used to lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling talking for hours. And then I had Danny's symbol of the P inside of the D placed on my wall on a huge piece of paper. I laid down on my bed, and stared at the ceiling, and instead of talking, I let the memories soak in me, although it hurt me to think about it, and realize I was never going to get that back again. When we were little we were laying here talking, and I can remember Danny asking me the question, "Do you ever think we could fly?" And I laughed at that; both of us did, because although we thought it was cool, in all reality it didn't seem possible. But it happened, and we enjoyed nights flying too, for no good reason.

I smiled as I laid there thinking about it, but at the same time tears fell down to my pillow below my head, why did I have to cry about it? Couldn't I just enjoy myself? I guess not, but I didn't really notice it until the tears slid down my face, and I realized I was sad. No, it was more of happiness, it was almost as though he had died or something, that was what I was taking this as. Well, except I guess if he died it would be a little better in ways, because then I would have at least known he did love me. But now though at least I still have a chance to get him back, he's not totally gone or anything.

I rolled over and closed my eyes, trying to fall asleep to pass the time, at least then maybe I could wake up in the morning, and everything would be better. But then it hit me as I was laying there, what if I was in trouble? What if a ghost was going to hurt me or something? Then would he come save me, or just care less about me? Or maybe it wasn't worth the risk… it was pretty bad that now I wasn't even going to trust my life in his hands. I closed my eyes again, all my ideas seemed as though they wouldn't work, I guess… well I would just have to wait till something actually happened that could help bring us closer together, getting to be friends takes time, and we lost all that because Danny was being a jerk the other day. It wasn't even me, which was the whole reason why I didn't understand why he was so mad at me, I was trying to help, trying to keep him safe, yet he didn't take that into consideration, he just threw something at me because he wanted to be with Valerie, for one reason or another. I wanted to know why he liked her, what did he see in her? She was no longer popular, she defiantly wasn't pretty, and she hated one half of him! When he said before that she could understand him unlike me, what was he talking about? I understood more about him then anyone, and he knew that.

Before I knew it though, I had fallen asleep, which was a good thing because when I woke up the next morning, the sun was shining in my window. Wait… the sun? I had school! It was dark out when I woke up. I sat up really fast and looked at the clock, 9:30. Wow, I was really late for school. I got up and walked downstairs and my parents were both sitting there.

"Well hello Samantha," my mom said and I rolled my eyes, why did she have to call me that? I looked at them expecting an explanation for why I wasn't woken up this morning.

"Your mother and I figured you might want another day off, to let things… sink it," dad said as though reading my mind, and I looked around for a second as though suspecting there was something behind this all, but I walked back up to my room, oh well, another day off was cool. But what was I going to do? School could have at least made the time go by a little faster, but now I was stuck at home with nothing to do at all.

I sighed; all I was going to do was think about Danny, I couldn't get him off my mind. He told me I needed to learn to let go, but maybe he was the one that needed to learn how to hold onto things that mattered to him. Maybe I never mattered, maybe I was just something he could use, but I obviously mattered, after all, he was the one that hung out with me all that time, and he was the one that got us to be friends in the first place. Why did he hurt me like that?
I grabbed up a pillow from off my bed and through it across the room as hard as I could. Why in the world did he do this?

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turned my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm going through

Maybe he was testing me, could it be that simple? No, because I think he wouldn't have been able to stand seeing me that sad if it was all a test, and what would he be testing me for anyway? He knew everything about me, this obviously really didn't have anything to do with me, maybe he really did love Valerie, and he really did care about her more then me. Maybe it was my time to let go of him… search for someone else, but in yet he seemed like the only one I could love. Everything I looked at made me think of him. Why couldn't I get him out of my head?

"Leave me alone!" I shouted and closed my eyes trying to shove him out of my mind, but it was worthless. I fell down to the ground in tears again, why in the hell was this happening to me? What did I ever do to deserve this? Everything happened for a reason… but I just couldn't think of why this was happening to me.

"Sam, are you Ok?" My mom asked me, oops, did I say that too loud?

"Yes, I'm fine," I said and put a fake smile on my face, I needed to get to school, I needed to figure things out. Sitting at home and beating myself up over it wasn't going to help with anything, I needed to try and figure out what was going on.

"Mom, I want to go to school now," I told her, and she gave me an odd look, but after all that had been happening she didn't even bother to ask anything, she just nodded and we both left out the door. I brushed my hair while I was in the car, and tried my best to look normal, although I kinda rushed out the door without getting ready. When I got to school I hopped out of the car and ran into the school, it was already third hour, but I had Danny and Valerie in this class, maybe I could learn something, if I didn't break down first…

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Ok, sorry if this wasn't all that great of a chapter I already have the ending made up, and I can't wait to get to the end, rofl. But as of now, I have to go through with all of this stuff… can't just end it right away, but I am guessing this isn't going to be the LONGEST story in the world, but I will make it long enough to have meaning, I am guessing 15-20 chapters. Anyways, PLEASE review again, next chapter won't be up until next week sometime, I am going to work on other things, just wanted to post this so that I could prove that I WAS going to actually work on this, lol. Thanks for reading! Oh yea, and any kind of reviews are wanted! Especially ones that let me know how to improove! I would like to know what I'm doing wrong!