A/N: I only own Iris. I will not be able to review again until the end of the week due to getting my computer fixed. Please R & R anyways. I always like to know what ya think. Thanks and Have a great week.

Iris POV

I was sitting against the door when I heard someone knock.

"Iris, let me in, it's Marc." he said.

"Not now. Just let me think." I yelled back. I heard him sigh and heard John hit the wall.

"Fine, but just talk to someone." he said. I heard foot steps retreating.

I sat in John's room for about an hour when I finally snuck down stairs. Carol was sitting in the kitchen. She was clearly upset.

"I am going to go ride around on a horse for a while. I will be back." I told her.

"Iris, wait. I just want you to know I am sorry." she said.

"Carol, it isn't your fault." I told her.

"I know, but can you at least go with someone?" she asked me.

"I need to think. If I am gone for more than two hours call me." I said. She nodded and I left.

I rode around for a good while and just thought. I loved John with everything, but I didn't feel it from him. I was mad at him for letting it happen, but I wanted to believe that she came onto him. I was so confused.

I finally put the horse up and walked out to the 4 wheeler to go back. John was sitting on it.

"It hasn't been two hours." I said.

"I know, but I needed to talk to you." he said.

"We will talk when I figure out just exactly how I feel about the whole fucked up situation." I said. He sighed and looked at me.

John POV

I knew she was confused and upset. I saw it written all over her. I knew I had hurt her, again.

"Come on. Let's at least go to the house." I said.

"I'll walk." she said. I started the 4 wheeler and rode it as best I could with this stupid boot on my foot.

I got next to her.

"Get on, please." I said. She ignored me.

"Fine." I said.

I grabbed her and pulled her over my lap. I rode towards the house with her struggling to get down. I held her so that she would not fall off. We were going to talk and it was going to be tonight.

I arrived at the house and I went to put her off, but she slipped and fell out of my arms. I felt worst. I didn't mean to drop her.

"I am sorry." I whispered.

She just sat there with her knees pulled up to her chest.

"Iris, I am sorry." I said.

"I know, just like every other time you have hurt me. You are ALWAYS sorry!" she said. I just stood there. She was right.

"John, I understand that girls think you are sexy or whatever, but you can't let all of them have you. I made myself believe that you had changed and weren't going yo hurt me again. I did, but it happened. I also want to believe that she came onto you, but John she was straddling you and that doesn't look all believable from where I was standing. I know that you love me somewhere inside fo you, but you just cannot commit. I love you and I want to commit to you for eternity, but I can't until you stop fucking around. I am not going to be with you just because I love you. Our relationship will not work if one person is the only one giving. I know that you love me, but you just aren't showing it and I will not let my self be hurt, by you, again. I cannot do it. I am sorry. I love you, but I cannot be with you until you decide to either commit like you should to me or give up on us and be a non-jealous friend." she said.

"I will do anything to keep you." I said.

"Marry me, now!" she said. I just looked at her.

"I didn't think you would do anything. You see, John, it's not that I can't live without you because I can. I just don't want to live with out you, but I am going to have to until you decide what I mean to you. You know where to find me and how to reach me. I love you." she said.

She walked away and I let her. I let the love of my life walk away, again, because I am to stupid to realize what I have.

A/N: What should happen? I am getting close to the end of this story. Should Iris ever find love with John or someone else? Should John ever find love? What about Stephanie and Paul? Dave and Randy, what will happen to them?

Give me your suggestions. I will post the next chapter as soon as I can. I am sorry about the delay. Thanks for reading and reviewing/suggestion.

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