Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, as of now.

A/N: This chapter took me quite some time. So I'm sorry.

I have to do a presentation for one of my classes. We have to bring in lyrics of a song and talk about it. It's supposed to be deep…but instead I'm doing a song about a sailor who gets eaten by a whale. :D

Cigarettes and Lavender

Chapter 16-Her Face

Bi Polar

It was two in the morning and his eyes were drooping. He hadn't moved since he had come back. His knees were pulled up against his chest where he rested his head wearily. Inuyasha just wanted to close his eyes and forget about everything, but he didn't dare. One false move and he didn't know if he would see tomorrow.

He felt almost numb sitting there in his corner, letting out a deep sigh, his mind wandering to Kagome. He could almost see her face, and it gave him a weird sense of nostalgia.

Inuyasha gave a small smile and buried his head deeper into the leather bag. It was calming to see Kagome standing there, in her school uniform under the God tree in his mind, but it ended abruptly when his stomach gave a loud growl. He held a hand to his abdomen, begging it to stop howling in distress. He began to sweat hoping that it was only loud to his paranoid ears. He prayed that no one else would care. Getting up slowly and cautiously Inuyasha stood against the wall trying to get to his bed, where he had remembered he had some ancient granola bars from a few years ago stocked under his bed mattress.

He walked with his back against the wall, holding his leather bag to his chest, making sure he stepped over any of the squeaky floorboards. He had memorized every part of this house; he had to in order to survive. He sat lightly on the edge of his bed, lifting the mattress and peeking underneath. A half a bottle of vodka and 3 stale granola bars. Yup, that would be enough; he took all 3 bars and the bottle out from underneath his aged mattress.

He put the bottle to his lips and took a swig of the liquor. It left a warm, bitter taste in his mouth. Unwrapping a granola bar, he shoved it in his mouth. Inuyasha lay down on his hard bed looking at the ceiling intently. He wondered when he'd be able to leave again or even if he would be able to leave again.

He sat there for 2 hours watching the ceiling and taking an occasional sip of his vodka or bite of his stale breakfast bars. Inuyasha's stomach continued to growl obnoxiously and he glanced at the clock. 4:13…by this time the people he called parents were usually passed out somewhere. He speculated if it would be safe for him to go to the kitchen and get some food. His stomach gave an enormous lurch and he decided once and for all that he was going downstairs.

His walked down to the kitchen like a burglar would, focusing on the stairs with trained eyes. He could hear the TV from the living room; it was on one of mom's American soap operas. He could tell because of the dialogue. It was along the same lines as "No, David, you can't! Miranda is carrying your child and your brother Tim will never forgive you if you tell him about Jessica's death!" It was one of those things that made no sense but got all those sappy women worked up.

He stood at the base of the stairs congratulating himself for a job well done on the soundless creep to the living room. But his celebrating was cut short when he saw his father sitting in his recliner glaring at him. Inuyasha's smile dropped from his face and he instinctively retreated towards the wall. His mother lay in the kitchen with bottles and cans littered around her.

"Where were you going?" His father's voice was disturbingly calm.

"…No where…."

"Planning to run off again?" Sei turned to look at his son with red eyes and untamed hair.

"No."

"You caused a lot of trouble."

Inuyasha stood there wringing his hands, wishing now more than ever he was sitting in the Higurashi's kitchen with Kagome. Even his cold dark room was better than here; at least up there he had a door with a lock to offer a feeble attempt at protection.

"You caused a lot of trouble, boy…." He repeated, but this time with a little more malice lining his words.

What was he suppose to say to that? 'Sorry?' Oh yea, I'm sure he'd completely forgive him after that.

"You were useless before, but now…now you're just a nuisance. At least before you didn't make trouble." Sei's words were terrifyingly dangerous; he didn't tear his threatening gaze from the teenager standing before him.

"I didn't mean to make trouble…" Inuyasha spoke quietly, trying desperately to make up for the 2 and half weeks he was absent from home.

"Of course you meant to make trouble you son of a bitch! Otherwise you wouldn't have done it!" His voice was so loud Inuyasha was surprised his mother didn't wake up. When the silver headed boy finally comprehended what his father had said, his eyes blazed and he bit his lip in rage and revulsion.

"Trouble! Trouble! What the fuck do you know about trouble you bastard? Has the thought ever occurred to you, that maybe I left because my 'loving' son of a bitch father beats the shit out of me every God damn day!" Inuyasha's face was beet red with anger; he even dared to walk a little closer to the man who haunted his dreams.

"Don't you dare, you little piece of shit!" His father stood from his chair glaring at the younger boy.

"And why shouldn't I! You took everything you asshole! You took everything that meant something to me! You took both of them!" His eyes burnt with tears.

"Aw! You poor thing!" Sei mocked a mother's voice making Inuyasha blare with resentment.

"You bastard." Inuyasha hissed out.

Sei looked fiercely into Inuyasha's amber eyes.

Inuyasha didn't care anymore. He didn't care that he was finally standing up to the father who had beaten him for so long. He didn't care that he was finally glaring that the man who had murdered his brother and caretaker.

"I hate you…I fucking hate you!" The tears he had been holding in burst from his eyes and he clenched his hands into fists, glowering at the man who had caused him so much pain.

Sei brought his hand down upon his son's face, making a loud resounding slap echo throughout the house. Inuyasha put a hand to his stinging cheek before turning back to face his father. Sei looked quite surprised by the boy's actions.

He brought his hand up again to give Inuyasha another smack to the face. The amber eyed boy stopped him, holding his wrist and giving his father a disgusted face.

"You killed my brother…"

"I don't remember hanging him." The middle aged man spoke in a menacing whisper.

"You didn't need to." Inuyasha matched his father's ominous tone.

"I don't quite know what you mean by that, 'son'."

"Sess hung himself on his own; all he needed was a little push." Inuyasha gripped Sei's arm tighter.

"He would've killed himself anyway." Sei wrenched his arm free from his son's grasp.

"No. He had me. The only reason he died is because of you…" Inuyasha shook his head, tears falling from his amber eyes.

"No wonder he killed himself…after all he had you."

"You God damn son of a bitch. You son of a bitch!" Inuyasha pushed his father's chest where he fell against the television, knocking it over.

Sei stared at his son in disbelief, before he reached behind him and grabbed one of the many empty beer bottles. He gave a vicious look at the boy before slamming the bottle down on the fallen TV breaking it in two.

He held it up and smiled devishly at Inuyasha. "I'm sick of you."

Inuyasha's breath caught as he stared at his disturbed father. Sei shuffled over to his son still smiling.

"You stay away from me!" Inuyasha backed away.

Sei laughed wildly before stopping and staring at the silver haired boy. In little more than a second Inuyasha was on the floor with glass sticking out of his shoulder. He looked up at his disgruntle father, his heart picked up pace.

His shoulder was bleeding, he could feel it sticking to his clothes and staining the floor. He brought his hand to the gashes where he felt 3 large pieces of glass sticking out. He was indistinctly was reminded of the alley way, the mugger, and the stabbing. He fingered the glass and winced at the stinging.

His father took up the lamp that sat by his recliner and threw it down on Inuyasha where it shattered against his skull. More blood. It drenched his hair dying it red. Inuyasha lay on the floor already tired from two hits, how much longer?

Inuyasha held his arms up over his face and kicked his legs out in various directions hoping that maybe, just maybe, he would kick his father and be left alone for the night. But in the back of his mind, he knew that this was going to be the worst beating of his entire life.

Halfway through the hitting and kicking he became numb. All that was going through his mind was her voice and her face. He would hurt tomorrow, oh would he hurt. He could feel bruises forming, blood pouring, and his heart breaking.

Inuyasha didn't know what time it was when he woke up. He couldn't move, that was all he was aware of. Everything was hurting; there wasn't a bone in his body right now that wasn't screaming out in agony.

He sat up slowly and looked around in a daze. His mother hadn't moved, his father was nowhere in sight. His head was pounding. He reached around him, searching for something to hold onto and found the couch. Inuyasha pulled himself up with the help of the couch and held his head trying to rid himself of the throbbing against his brain.

It took him an hour to reach his room where he collapsed on the floor by his bed. It was too much work to pull himself onto the bed, plus the floor was much more comfortable.

He didn't dare look down to see his injuries. God he felt sick. His arms were burning, but he reached up on his bed and grabbed his leather bag. He pulled out his cigarettes, took one out, lit it, and took a long drag.

He momentarily thought of Kagome, and how she would look if she saw him now. Without even realizing it he put the fag out and threw the rest of the packet across the room. He was tired, so tired…his bruised eyes closed and he fell into a needed sleep, Kagome's face in his mind.

A/N: Phew, that took awhile. I had a hard time coming up with the chapter title. So if any of you got any better titles for the chapter, go ahead and share them with me. I tend to like to make the title a sentence or word that's in the chapter. Thanks for all the reviews. 184! Wow, I'm so happy…I can't even express it. Hehe. :D

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