DISCLAIMER: Sadly I do not own Yugioh and the gorgeous characters but fortunately, I own my thoughts and ideas so I am proud to say that this is one of my own fics. Enjoy!

WARNING: yaoi and some swearing. No flames please!

Chapter 2: My Sanctuary

RYOU'S POV

So that was how it was; how my first kiss was taken by my uncaring, psychotic, and cold yami. It's ironic really because even though "cold" is what my yami is, his mouth was warm pressed against my own and I can't even describe the feeling. It was excite yet felt like nothing. It sounds weird I know because I've rambled about how the kiss was so nice, yet I am here saying that it felt as if nothing happened. I didn't feel what people felt during their first kiss. I didn't see sparks, time didn't stop and obviously, my heart did not cease beating. It was as if my yami only kissed me because he had nothing else to do and of course, reading your other half's mind or having the mink link doesn't help either. I didn't feel anything from my yami except his mumbling about pure boredom and of course, possessiveness. You ask why I know that he is being possessive? Well, his mind was screaming "Mine, mine, mine!" the whole time so it is kind of obvious isn't it? After all, I haven't gone completely mad yet. I still have my common sense.

He didn't want anyone else to touch his property meaning me. He wanted to be the one to be the first, the only one who takes anything from me be it by force or willingly; how unfair it is. I am quite sure that he'd ask for Malik's opinion before taking whatever from him. I shook my head trying to erase these negative thoughts and proceeded in recalling the past events. I finally concluded that the kiss happened because of sheer boredom and a proof of ownership. How miserable my life is and it will just become worse.

Here I am in my room thinking about what happened and sorting out my jumbled feelings. I couldn't help it but I was saddened about what happened earlier this day. I had my first kiss from the object of my desire yet I was still not contended maybe because of his lack of response or even at least a little bit of emotion. Now that I though about it, memories of Bakura and Malik kissing soon flooded my mind. Jealousy flared out from deep within me and I could no longer suppress it so I let out a soft sigh thinking that it will help in banishing these thoughts. My yami was so passionate in kissing Malik and fire was burning in his eyes as if he had feelings. He was so contended whenever he was with Malik that I was angry at myself for I wasn't able to give him the same satisfaction… Just like how I always managed to disappoint my father.

Tears was now flowing freely from my eyes as I recalled all of the mistakes I have done in the past and those that I was destined to carry out in the future. My father left me because he could no longer bear with me. What are the odds that my yami would tolerate me? Obviously he would not and soon he will leave me too just like my father so that he could dwell in satisfaction from Malik. I buried my face deep within the fluffy pillow seeking for comfort but none came. Tears kept staining my pale cheeks and I stopped wiping my face for more tears would soon stain it again. Darkness and Light depend on each other so they say but in our situation, the Darkness can survive without the Light so why can't I? With these thoughts surfacing in my mind, I fell into a dreamless sleep, finding sanctuary in my solitude.

The next day was uneventful… Well, for me it is. I kept to myself most of the day without anyone noticing my presence, which somehow comforted me in a way and made me feel safe. I was no longer wearing fake smiles for there was no one to receive it and of course, I kept my thoughts hidden for thinking about them only made me feel miserable.

I sat at the back of the room to avoid lingering gazes and listened to each boring lecture the teacher has to offer. At least, it kept me away from my disturbing thoughts so I decided to play along with it. Lunch came and I quickly scurried out of the room to find a piece of serenity in my sanctuary. I sat down on the ground under my favorite tree and kept myself busy by doing some of my assignments and writing in my journal, which was addressed to my deceased sister. Yeah I know I am depressing and pathetic to look at, but who cares anyway? My yami and father, the most important people to me have forgotten about me so how would anyone else remember that poor, little Ryou still exists?

As I was walking headed towards my next class, I couldn't keep my eyes away from my yami and Malik near the wall who was AGAIN making out. I guess they felt my presence for they quickly stopped and took a second from their busy schedule to actually look AND talk to me. Oh joy! They still acknowledge my ignored existence!

The sharp eyes of my yami was gazing at me intently, which, believe me, can be scary but strangely I stood on my ground and for the first time, wasn't even flinching, which was weird. Oh well, I was weird the day I was born so I should stop being shocked by whatever peculiarity I cause. My action actually shocked my yami. I saw it in his eyes but only for a second because he quickly replaced it with a look of disgust saved only for me. Ha! Take that Malik! I still receive special treatment from him! "What are you doing here?" He snarled, visibly trying to take some reaction from me.

"I was just walking by Bakura- sama. I was supposed to go to my next classroom and I spotted you so I decided to greet you." I answered in a monotonous tone but deep down inside, I was shouting at myself for saying something idiotic as that but was proud to put on a calm façade in front of psychotic people meaning my yami and Malik.

Malik who was shocked before was quick to recover his cool demeanor and actually acknowledge my presence. "Whatever. Are you coming to the game shop? Yugi said that EVERYONE should be there." He stated, waiting for my response. The way he emphasized the word "everyone" meant that he would not accept a no so I quickly mumbled a yes. Satisfied with my answer, they walked away and left me alone thinking about what trouble I have brought myself into.

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

Hey guys I'm sorry for not updating much today… I'm kind of busy playing Ragnarok online and I guess I would like to thank those who reviewed this fic so far because I wasn't planning on continuing this any longer but you guys gave me some reasons on why I should continue writing. I guess I should apologize also because of the short chapter… I've tried my best but I keep on forgetting what I am supposed to write so to all of those lovely reviewers, kindly please give me some ideas. Thank you for reading this fic!