Hey People! Sorry I took forever to make this Fic! I tried to make it good so you don't hunt me down with chainsaws. Oh and I forgot to mention, the school InuYasha Kagome and Kikyo are in is a boarding school.. Just to let ya know
L1Ldumie TK- I know poor Kagome, and I continued even though it took forever
SlummyRedDragon - Its gonna get even more Kikyo bashing just you wait
Mooseydude - thanks soo much. Its good to know people like my writing. And yeah, I would so take Inu if Kagome didn't want him ;)
LadyInu1126 - thanks! I have updated
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InuYasha slowly trudged down the hallway, engrossed in his own thoughts. 'Kagome remembers when I almost killed her in my demon form. She may not exactly remember I was a demon and we were in the feudal era but...' He sighed. 'She has every right to hate me, how could I have been so stupid?' InuYasha growled. 'I have to get us out of this place, I have to tell her that I'm sorry, that I'm never gonna make that mistake again, because I...'
A hand reached out and grabbed his shoulder.
InuYasha spun around. "Kikyo."
"Yea, baby what's goin on? You talk to that Kagome bitch lately?" She inquired accusingly.
"No! No, I'm just tired, this has nothing to do with her." he lied.
"Oh, well, if your tired why don't you spend the night in my dorm?" She purred.
InuYasha just nodded. "Um, ok sounds good."
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"Wow, this is, nice." InuYasha paced Kikyo's dorm as he stared at the pornographic posters along the walls.
Kikyo giggled and sat down on her bed. "Please, like you haven't been in here before."
InuYasha sat down next to her. "So, uh, do you wanna watch a movie or something?" He tried to mimic some of the suggestions Kagome would offer if he were at her house.
Kikyo slowly began to unzip her pants. "You know what I want..." She whispered.
InuYasha gave her a confused look.
She reached for his shirt. InuYasha scooted back. "Uh, Kikyo?"
"What?" she slid under the covers of her bed.
"Kikyo, I don't do that," InuYasha started to feel sick.
Kikyo gave him an angry expression. "Since when!"
InuYasha cringed, he felt suffocated, if he loved Kikyo why did it all this feel so wrong?
"Kikyo cut it out! I'm not doing this!"
He stood up and backed away toward the door.
Kikyo gave him a death glare. "Stop the stupid good boy act InuYasha, you've fucked more girls in this school then I can count! And you refuse to do it with your own girlfriend!"
InuYasha felt his head swim. 'NO! That' not me! It's just the person the demon created me to be in this world! That's not the real Kikyo! And this is not the real me!'
"InuYasha you fool!"
InuYasha collapsed to the ground as Genshiki's presence fill his mind.
"This is the real Kikyo, I have altered her memories but not her actions. This is the true nature of the dead priestess you pledged yourself to. And you... you claim to be innocent! The one you pledge your heart to in your mind is not the one your soul longs for!"
InuYasha slammed the door behind him as he wandered into the hallway. He cringed as the demon's words rang through his mind. "Grr you old hag! I don't understand! My soul longs for Kikyo! I'll go to hell with her if she wants me to!"
"You lie to yourself you pathetic boy!"
He slid to the floor once again, throbbing emotions singed through his skull. 'Kagome...' InuYasha sniffed the air. 'Crap! I can't smell anything! I really am all human.' He closed his eyes and let himself remember her scent. It was so different from Kikyo's, it made him feel so calm. He longed to breathe in her sweet scent again. 'Wow, I never realized how much I need herwith me'
InuYasha slowly made his way outside. The cool wind lapped against his face as he stared into the night sky. 'Kagome, I need to see your face again. I feel so alone without you by my side' He climbed up a tree over lookingher room. He slapped himself. 'Moron, she hates you remember!' Still he couldn't help himself. InuYasha slid over to her window and quietly climbed into her room.
Kagome was asleep in her bed. Her chest rose and fell with each silent breathInuYasha longed to be back with her in her own room back when he used to watch her study all night, content just to be next to her. He cringed as the memories of her words hit him again.
"InuYasha, you tried to kill me...how can you ask me why I hate you.."
InuYasha shook as the guilt and overwhelming helplessness took over. 'Kagome, I thought I could protect you. I was wrong, I couldn't protect you from the demon or Genshiki. I can't even protect you from myself!'
He closed his eyes tight and tried to escape the torment of the truth. "I'm sorry Kagome! I'm just not strong enough. I made a mistake that almost cost you your life."
Broken, this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up
And I give up
I just wanna tell you so you know
"Kagome, please remember me! Without you I'm nothing!"
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's no one gets me like you do
you are my only...my only one
"Kagome...I'm so sorry!
Flashback
InuYasha fell to the ground. The blood spurted from the gash in his shoulder. The demon cackled. "Pathetic Half-demon! You will fall at my claws!"
InuYasha tried to get up, but as he did, he was struck again by the demon's claws.
"Now prepare to die!"
"NO!" An arrow glanced of the demon's hide. Stunning him for a moment. InuYasha looked over to see Kagome holding a bow calling to him.
"INUYASHA!"
The demon turned and prepared to attack Kagome. InuYasha leapt out with the last of his strength and tossed his sword aside. Allowing the demon blood to flow into his consciousness. The rest was a blur. He slaughtered the demon then turned on the girl. All he saw was another chance to feel the sweet sensation of killing. He slashed at her, cutting deep into her chest. He heard her scream. Then everything went black.
"Kagome...You almost...I could have...No!"
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
I feel so broken up
And I give up
I just want to tell you, so you know
End Flashback
InuYasha brushed away a strand of hair from Kagome's face. 'The one I have pledged my heart to is not the one my soul longs for...Kagome...Am I just trying to run away from my feelings?' He sighed. 'But, I'd be putting her in constant danger' "Kagome, when all this is over...when we defeat Naraku and complete the jewel maybe you should just forget about me." He gently brushed his hand across her cheek and then turned and climbed back outside.
Here I go, so dishonestly
Leave a note, for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one I'd let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
As InuYasha leaped back down to the ground he noticed the moon peeking over from behind the dark clouds. He felt a prickling feeling as the moonlight touched his skin. Suddenly he looked down at his hand. His human nails were once again claws. He reached up and touched his head. He had dog ears too. 'Damn, is this another complication that witch wants to add to my list of problems.'
A/N So there's the next chappie! Sorry for all the mushy stuff Review! Or else!