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InuYasha stared out into the night, the sun had disappeared, all that was left was the silver moonlight. He finnaly looked back at Kagome, she returned his gaze, at that moment, he made his decision.

"Kagome," he whispered. "There's something I have to show you."

Slowly, he stepped out into the night. The moonlight swirled around his body. He closed his eyes and allowed the invigorating shiver to race up his spine as his true form emerged. He breathed in deeply as his senses became canine once again.

When his transformation was complete he reluctantly turned back toward Kagome.

Her expression was frozen in shock and awe. She took a step back.

InuYasha winced, "Kagome, Please don't be afraid of me..."

All at once Kagome suddenly found her legs and raced over to him. She whipped around him, inspecting every detail from his claws to his now untamed and bushy mane of hair. "InuYasha you're a...you're a demon!" She exclaimed.

His mouth dropped. "Your not afraid of me!"

She gave him a 'why didn't you tell me this earlier' look, "Why would I be?"

"I don't know...I was just...I just didn't think..." InuYasha fumbled for words as he tried to hide both his joy and relief.

She brushed away his hair and found his dog ears perched at the top of his head. "So...cute!" Kagome gently began to rub just behind his left ear.

InuYasha felt a pleasure growl begin to vibrate deep in his throat.

Kagome halted, "Oh sorry, does that hurt?"

"No," he tried to get her to start again, "It actually feels really good."

She grinned but moved away, "I can't believe you're a demon!"

"Half-demon actually." He said with a matter-of-fact smirk.

Kagome slid to the ground, taking all this in. InuYasha silently followed her, sitting doggie style, facing her.

"I always knew there was something different about you," she whispered, almost to herself, "Not a lot of guys have white hair and gold eyes."

He looked away, "If this is too much...I can just like leave now."

"What? No!" Her head shot up but InuYasha was nowhere to be seen.

Suddenly something landed with a thump behind her. She turned to see InuYasha sitting there, with a goofy grin on his face.

"How did you do that!" Kagome looked both amazed and confused.

"What? oh I just jumped up into a tree branch and then..."

"Woah woah woah!" Kagome waved her arms in front of her face. "You jumped up there." She pointed to the tree. The lowest branch was at least four yards up.

He let an arrogant smile escape his expression, revealing his long fangs, "Well, Ya." He got up and flexed his muscles, "Demons are pretty strong ya know."

Kagome rolled her eyes and suppressed a giggle. "Well, at least you'restill show off."

He gave a half smile and raised his eyebrow, "You aint seen nothin yet!"

He picked up Kagome bridal style and, in one leap, scaled the school and landed on the roof. As he gently set her down all she could say was, "Ok...I believe you..."

He grinned and turned around, "So, you want a ride?"

She gave him a confused look, but, almost as a reflex, she walked over and leaned against his back with her hands on his shoulders. As suddenly as she did, he leapt into the sky and soared over the school. Kagome let out a gasp but it was silenced by the wind roaring beside her.

InuYasha felt pure pleasure sweep over him, it had been so long since he had done this, and even longer since he had gone with Kagome. He sailed as high as he could, barley letting his feet touch the tree tops as he leapt.

Kagome closed her eyes and hugged herself to InuYasha's body. "It's like flying!" she breathed.

"Nah," he looked down to conceal the ecstatic beam that crossed his face, "It's more like...hopping."

Kagome laughed, "Right, hopping," she muttered sarcastically. "This makes Olympic long jumpers look like their hopping."

InuYasha chuckled but only flew higher. Finally he spotted a treetop to "land" on. He leveled his body and dropped down onto a high, thick branch. Gently he helped Kagome into a sitting position on the branch. Then plopped down lazily himself.

Kagome let out the breath she realized she had been holding for the past few minutes. "Woah, that was amazing!"

InuYasha shrugged. "I do it a lot."

Kagome's smile suddenly faded, "But, this still doesn't answer my question."

InuYasha furrowed his brow in confusion, "What do you mean?"

"I mean, I still want to know what happened to you last night."

He sighed, "Oh...right."

InuYasha was silent for a moment. He searched the horizon as if looking for a way to answer her.

"My father was a powerful demon," he began. "I'm a half-demon, so my heart is split between human and demon blood. Most of the time, it's in balance, but, sometimes, the power that runs in my demon blood overpowers my weak human side...then..." He closed his eyes and hung his head. "I transform into a full demon, and without control over my emotions, I kill every living thing in my path, just for the thrill of it."

He hesitated, and then turned to face Kagome, he expected to see fear, or even disgust on her face. But, instead she looked on him with warm sympathy and understanding. "So, that's what was happening, fighting Hiten, made you start to transform."

InuYasha tilted his head to the side, thinking, "But, it wasn't just that...I transformed when I saw him try to..." He stopped, he didn't want to make her relive those memories.

Kagome nodded in understanding, "What made you change back?"

He bore intently into Kagome's deep chocolate brown eyes. At last a sad smile crept across his lips, "You did, Kagome."

She returned his gaze, "I wha?"

"I changed back when I heard you calling to me. If it wasn't for you, I would still be trapped as a monster, my heart would have been consumed."

Kagome gazed sadly into his face, his expression was lined with guilt and pain. "InuYasha..." she whispered.

Suddenly his expression snapped back to his regular smirk. "Well, don't feel sorry for me or nuthin, I'm just fine."

Kagome grinned inwardly, no matter how he changed on the outside, inside, he was still her arrogant, awkward, and show offy InuYasha. She didn't realize that she had been staring at him for a while.

InuYasha glanced back at her. He stiffened when he noticed her eyes were still fixed on him. He couldn't take it, he wanted this, he wanted to be able to be with her, like always. He wanted things to be how they always were, when he could have these moments with Kagome, without the nagging guilt, without the small voice always telling him, always reminding him that someday he would ave to let her go. All for the demon that he was. "Kagome..." he whispered.

"Yea?"

He sighed, he had to tell her the truth, no matter how bad he himself wished it wasn't true, he couldn't change the reality that Kagome had the right to know, "There is, one thing..."

Kagome looked up into his eyes, part of her was curious, but, something was telling her she didn't want to hear this.

"When I transform, a part of me becomes lost to my demon heart. The human in me is weak, but, for now it's still there. That's why I can change back. Someday, though, it may finnaly be consumed, and nothing...nothing will be able to bring me back." Gilt spread over him, "I used to wish for that power, I used to long for it...but, when I saw what I did with such power..."

He felt hard memories hit him, memories he had tried so hard to forget. "It wasn't for this."

Kagome suddenly felt like someone had hit her with a sledge hammer. The de ja vu feeling surrounded her. Voices poured in to her subconscious.

"The demon I wanted to become, the strength I wanted, it wasn't for this."

She stared into InuYasha's face, waiting, begging for the unaffected smirk to return, to take away the uneasy tension, to break the feelings she was getting. This time though, it didn't come, his face remained frozen in a deathly silent stare. Nothing could mask the fear, the pain, and the guilt that spread over his features. She tried to look away, tried to pretend she hadn't seen him like this before, but...she had. She had seen that look on his face, somewhere. She strained to remember. Slowly Kagome slipped into the strange dream that begged to be set free from her mind.

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InuYasha waded out of the river. He sniffed his claws and cringed, "The smell of blood...it won't fade, it makes me sick."

He wandered over to the shore and sat. Kagome suddenly appeared out of the thick brush surrounding the stream, Silently she walked over and sat next to him. InuYasha sighed, the slight fear he could sense from her was proof enough'This time I've really done it.' All he remembered was the demon who had poisoned him. He had almost died, he remembered, he transformed. 'Then...I destroyed the demon and all of his followers...even the ones begging for their livesJust to feel the pleasure of human slaughter...The power I wanted, the demon I wanted to become...it wasn't for this.'

Kagome looked into his pained face with sympathy. InuYasha pulled away. "You don't have to force yourself to be here ya know."

Kagome was silent. InuYasha knew what she was thinking. "What is it! what do you want! You act like your touching a boil or something! Don't expect me to feel bad about it! They deserved to die!"

"InuYasha," she whispered.

He turned away, he couldn't stand to see the sad look on her face. "Feh,"

Kagome felt her heart go out to him, InuYasha had been through so much, and still things like this tormented him. No wonder he refuses to show his feelings to anyone. 'Your really suffering aren't you?'

Gently she wrapped her arms around him and clung to him. She didn't want him to have to go through this pain, yet, she was helpless to stop it. "InuYasha, I do understand."

He slowly brought his hand up and clutched her arm that was softly wrapped around his neck. He held on to her tight, as if he would loose her if he let go, "Kagome..." Silently he thanked her for always being there for him, always caring for him. He didn't deserve to have someone like that by his side, yet, she was always there. 'I don't remember anything that happened to me when I transformed, it wasn't like that before.' He knew he was slipping, the more frequent his transformations had become, the harder it had been for him to return to himself. "The next time I change...I might use these talons, Kagome..." He closed his eyes painfully, "To tear you even you apart."

XxX

Kagome fell back, the dream was fading, the images slipped father and farther away, she gasped as reality swirled back around her. InuYasha was calling her.

"Kagome? Kagome what's wrong?" She was staring off into the distance blindly, like she was in a trance. Suddenly she closed her eyes and feinted. Falling backwards, almost in slow motion. InuYasha leaped down and caught her gently in his arms. He hit the ground lightly, bracing the impact on his strong legs. Her eyes fluttered open as he cradled her soft body in his strong arms. "Uhhggh, Inu...Yasha." She struggled to speak, it felt like her throat was constricted. Immediately her senses returned, she blushed when she realized the position she was in, laying limp in InuYasha's clutches. She stirred and slid out of his hold. Kagome averted her eyes, embarrassed, down at the grass as she brushed the foliage from her clothes. Finally she gathered the courage to look back up at her rescuer.

InuYasha looked that same as he always did, his hair was long, matted, and untamed, and his gold eyes were washed over with concern. She looked away and suddenly remembered the strange dream, it seemed so real, like it had actually happened. And that boy was there. The boy that had inhabited all of her dreams lately. Suddenly she let out a shocked gasp, 'The BOY!' She turned and looked back at InuYasha. 'It was HIM! InuYasha was the boy from her dream! It was him!'

"What? What is it? What's wrong?" InuYasha's dark eyebrows knit together in confusion, what had just happened? Why was Kagome acting so strange?

Meanwhile Kagome felt realization wash over her like ice water. 'That's why the dream boy was so familiar. It's InuYasha.' She exhaustedly tried to sort through the strange emotions that suddenly hit her. 'Why am I having these dreams? What are they?'

InuYasha walked over and tapped her on the shoulder, breaking her from her thoughts. "Uhh, we should be getting back..." He rubbed the back of his neck. "Sango and Miroku probably are wondering where we are..." Kagome nodded and turned to walk back to the school.

"Uhh wait!" InuYasha stopped her and she turned around confused. He cleared his throat and held out his arms, "You could take the short way." He walked over and once again held her bridal style. Before she could protest he leapt up three stories and set her down in her dorm through a conveniently opened window. Sango was sleeping silently in her bed. Kagome walked quietly over to her own bed, she turned and gave one last smile to the handsome young hanyou who was perched contently on her windowsill. "Thanks InuYasha, tonight was..." She sighed , "Amazing."

He returned her warm smile and prepared to leave her to her sleep, "Good Night, Kagome."

"Good night."

Sango watched the two with one open stealthily. 'So, he showed her at last huh?' A comical grin peeked from the corners of her lips as she looked happily at her lovesick friend, 'Those two drive me crazy.' She whispered happily.

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InuYasha slipped into his own dorm, too emotional to notice Miroku sitting cross legged on his bed, meditating. He opened one eye and acknowledged the presence of his roommate politely. "Hey InuYasha nice ears."

InuYasha fell over backwards. "What?" He stood up again quickly and remembered he was still in hanyou form. "Uhh, oh yeah, uhm, Miroku I can explain..."

Miroku held up his hand calmly to silence him. "No need, I figured out a while ago that the full moon triggered your transformations. It's just another way Genshiki wishes to complicate this situation."

InuYasha's eyes widened. 'Miroku knows!' He suddenly pummeled Miroku over the head angrily. "You good for nothing monk! Why didn't you tell me your memories hadn't been erased!"

"Oww," Miroku rubbed the assortment of bumps and bruises that he had collected today from an angry half-demon and a certain pissed off demon slayer.

InuYasha calmed down after he sustained his need to punish something. "So, Genshiki didn't replace your memories either."

Miroku sighed and stretched, "Well, yes and no...You see when she captured me and Sango, I erected a barrier around us. While her magic is powerful, she was only able to give us memories vs taking ours away. Hence, Sango and I know everything about living in this era; plus we have the memories of the entire lives of the "charactors" she assigned us. Yet we retain our own memories."

InuYasha took a moment to understand, then, as the true intellectual he was, he gave his well thought out answer, "Uhh... oh,"

Miroku changed the subject, "So, you had some fun with Kagome tonight?" He let a perverted smile cross his face.

InuYasha frowned, "Don't give me that look you lecher, I just told her I was a hanyou! That was it!"

Miroku gave him a knowing smile, which only added to InuYasha's annoyance. "Well, you were out there for a while, JUST telling her your little secret."

InuYasha snarled and fell back on his bed, he couldn't handle holding it in any longer, he had to vent all his pent up emotion on someone, might as well be Miroku, "I just miss her ok?"

Miroku's eyebrow shot up at his sudden outburst.

InuYasha scowled at him, "I miss her..." he repeated. "I miss things being normal. I miss being able to sit with her and just be in her presence without thinking I'm doing something wrong!"

Miroku looked away, for once, he understood the conflict his friend had, "This is about you transforming isn' it?"

InuYasha grunted in response.

Miroku sighed, he didn't know what to say to his friend.

After a moment, InuYasha finally spoke. "Look you don't know what It's like, knowing that someday, you will be claimed by the very source of your power."

Miroku winced and looked into his right hand, "Yes I do, InuYasha."

InuYasha looked away, "Oh... Miroku...sorry." he whispered.

Miroku stared at the black mark that sat in the center of his palm. "Genshiki was able to conceal the rosary and the holy cloth, but, my wind tunnel is still here, I can feel it."

InuYasha sighed, "I just, I don't want to hurt her again, I wouldn't be able to take it!"

Miroku nodded understandingly. "You really love her huh?"

InuYasha scowled again, "Feh,"

The monk chuckled, "Well, g'night Yash. I'm gonna crash." Miroku dimmed the lights and slid into his bed. "See ya in the A.M."

InuYasha feh'd again, all the implanted slang Miroku used was starting to get on his nerves. The tired hanyou lied awake in the dark room, waiting for sleep to come. His thoughts strayed involuntarily to Kagome. Everyone around him wanted him to admit his feelings, but how could he? 'How can I fall in love, knowing that I'll just have to say goodbye?' He knew, deep down, he had already crossed that line long ago, but he refused to admit it, even to himself.

InuYasha considered life without the beautiful raven haired girl... to be alone for the rest of his life...it was almost unbearable...but... he could bear it if it meant she would be alive. 'My life doesn't matter as long as she's safe!'

"Damn Kagome..." he whispered, "Have I really let myself fall so deeply in love with you?" With that, he drifted into the sanctuary of his dreams.

A/N Kay next chappie is done! Thank You Thank You. Sorry if it sucked, I wrote it really fast. I tried to capture some angst but I'm really bad at sappiness. Oh well, hope you liked it REVIEW OR ELSE! tee hee