Hey People! Here's the next chapter! First off I would like to say Thank you for all the reviews! Please read my author note at the end too by the way. I have a question for all of ya. Sorry it took so long to put this out. School started and I am SWAMPED!
get your own Hanyou- my sentiments exactly DAMN YOU KIKYO! Tee hee. I knew someone would finally ask me about shippo. I REALLY wanted to put him in I really did! I love that little kitsune! But, since he isn't old enough to attend high school. It would mean adding a whole new element to the story. I didn't want to get too complicated. I really hate leaving him out but you'll see why eventually I promise!
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Miroku sat up from his bed and stretched. He stood up groggily and made his way to the bathroom, stepping over shards of glass, plastic, and who knows what else. Something had happened yesterday, something bad. As soon as InuYasha had stepped into the dorm last night he started chucking things around, Miroku watched, not understanding. InuYasha's face was distorted with rage and frustration. But, there was something else too, he might have imagined it, but Miroku swore he had seen tears falling from his friend's usually cold and unfeeling golden eyes.
Miroku found InuYasha curled up in a ball beside his bed. He appeared to be asleep. But Miroku knew better.
InuYasha sensed the presence of Miroku behind him. It didn't matter, let the damn monk wonder what was happening, let him try to draw conclusions. InuYasha remained curled into a ball, his canine instincts telling him to hide, to act like the world wasn't going on around him. To become nothing. It was his only sanctuary; to pretend, to lose himself. InuYasha refused to open his eyes, he refused to remember. It hurt too much. 'Why the hell does it hurt so damn much?' He screamed inside himself. 'Everything's ok now right! I'll have no problem letting go of Kagome now, she won't care! She hates me, she WANTS to forget all about me! ALL MY FUCKING PROBLEMS ARE SOLVED!'
He commanded himself to harden, to grow cold. InuYasha never had any problem doing it before. He had been this way all his life. He wanted to be that way again. He wanted to be heartless, he didn't want to feel! If you don't feel you don't hurt.
InuYasha's body loosened. He brought himself up to a stiff sitting position against the wall. Miroku was still staring at him. "What are you looking at you stupid monk!" he growled.
Miroku sighed and left it at that, whatever happpened, he could already figure it had something to do with Kagome. Something had gone really wrong. He needed to find Sango, and get the other half of the story. Hopefully she had pried some information from Kagome.
"Well, it's Saturday...are you planning on staying in the dorm destroying everything in sight." Miroku asked casually.
InuYasha responded by flinging a textbook at the nearest target, which happened to be Miroku's head.
He dodged it, letting the book knock out the lightbulb in the bathroom. "I'll take that as a yes."
Miroku edged towards the door, preparing for another object to fly at him. He gripped the handle and prepared to exit, when the door burst open and he found himself looking into Sango's anger crazed face. "Gosh, Sango! If you wanted to see me so bad, you could have chosen to join me last night!"
Sango ignored him and immediately strode over to InuYasha, "What happened!" she barked menacingly.
InuYasha feh'd and turned away.
Sango grabbed his shoulders and shook him, harder than needed. "InuYasha! I swear you better have a good excuse for why Kagome says she found YOU and KIKYO making out RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER last night!"
She was angry, really angry, InuYasha had done things like this before, but NEVER intentionally in front of Kagome! Especially now that he knows what a BITCH Kikyo is!
"How in all the hells could you do this! PLEASE TELL ME YOU HAVE SOME EXCUSE!" Sango cared deeply about both her adopted half-demon brother and miko sister. She couldn't stand to believe something like this had happened.
InuYasha winced like she had just stuck him with needles, "There's no excuse," he whispered hoarsely, "It's all true..."
Sango wouldn't believe it. She knew InuYasha too well, he loved Kagome with all his heart. There was something else, there had to be.
"InuYasha..." she placed her hand on his shoulder, he pulled away and humphed, crossing his arms over his chest.
"I'm glad she's mad at me ok! I don't have to even talk to her now...I can concentrate on getting everyone's memory back, slaughtering Genshiki, and getting out of here. I don't need Kagome around to complicate things. Someday I will become a full demon. I'm better off without her."
Something inside Sango clicked, he had been clear that he was no longer going to use the jewel to become a full demon anymore. So, what did he mean? Is he trying to protect Kagome? Is he afraid of injuring her again in his demon form. Sango smiled inwardly when she realized what was going on, 'Gods! he had a weird way of telling people things.' She dropped down next to InuYasha and gave him a very serious stare. He scooted away, Sango was scary when she was angry.
"InuYasha," she said gently, "You know making Kagome mad at you isn't going to solve your problem..."
InuYasha almost fell over, "Who says I have a problem!"
Miroku was watching all this at a safe distance, "Oh believe me you have a problem, in more ways than one..." He mumbled.
Sango ignored him, "You can't tell me that breaking her heart is a better alternative than risking her physical injury."
InuYasha stopped, he never thought of it that way. "Who cares if she's injured as long as she's alive..."
Sango gazed intently at the floor, "Believe me, seeing the person you love...love someone else...it hurts more than any other pain imaginable..."
Miroku winced, thatmay have not beenmeant entirely for InuYasha. 'Jeeze does it really bug her that much when I flirt with other girls.'
InuYasha took in what she said. He knew Kagome was hurt, but, the truth was that this was nothing new to her. She had seen him go off with Kikyo countless times, and, each time she was always willing to forgive him. 'Damn, I really am a bastard.'
Sango stood, satisfied that he had gotten the message.
Miroku followed her out of the dorm. As he shut the door Sango immediately snapped out of her seriousness. She looked up at the ceiling and blew upward at her bangs in defeat. "I don't know if InuYasha's a saint or an idiot at this point."
Miroku slid down against the wall and nodded in agreement.
"I mean he's madly in love with Kagome and he's willing to do everything for her except TELL her. He even wants to endure having her hate him forever just so he doesn't have to worry about hurting her!"
Miroku nodded silently again, not really listening to her ranting.
Sango rolled her eyes realizing she was only stating what Miroku probably knew all along. She suddenly realized he was just sitting there listlessly. "Um, hey...you ok?"
"Huh..." He looked up, "Oh, yeah..." He stood and plastered a fake smile on his face, "Cmon, lets go get these two back together!"
Sango raised her eyebrow, "I don't think that's happening anytime soon..."
"What? Why?" Miroku frowned in confusion.
"Well..." Sango cringed, he was gonna find out eventually, she might as well tell him.
Miroku jumped back when she whispered it in his ear. Then he groaned when he realized what that statement was really going to mean for his friend, "Sango, what's InuYasha going to think about this?"
She shrugged, "I don't want to find out."
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InuYasha slipped on a new white shirt and trudged out of the dorm, reluctantly facing a new day. He felt the familiar argument begin in his heart.
'I should tell Kagome the truth.'
'She won't believe me.'
'What if she does.'
'She hates me like hell!'
'But you love her like hell.'
He sighed, "Damn..." Why was life so complicated? InuYasha wandered around the campus not really knowing what to do with himself. He'd spent every weekend so far with Kagome. Now what was he supposed to do?
He pondered that as he turned around the corner of an old, brick building. Suddenly he found himself crashing to the ground as he collided with another distracted body.
InuYasha rubbed his aching head furiously as he helped the girl up, "Oh jeeze, sorry I..." he stopped when he got a good look at her face, "Kagome!"
"Oh, hello InuYasha..." she said as a scowl pushed at the corners of her lips.
InuYasha helped her up politely as he desperately tried to hide how glad he was to see her; he wasn't succeeding.
"Hey, you klutz watch where your going!"
InuYasha looked up and felt his excitementdrain awaywhen he saw who she was with. "Koga! What the hell are you doing here!"
He smirked and pulled his arm around Kagome, making InuYasha's blood boil. Koga was wearing a dark brown sweat band, which only increased his resemblance to the stupid wolf InuYasha despised.
"Oh, I forgot to tell you...as of yesterday, Koga is my boyfriend!" Kagome said with a slightly amused grin.
InuYasha's jaw dropped. All the happiness left in him, if there ever had been any, was destroyed with that one word. "Boyfriend..." 'She does love someone else...' He clutched his chest, 'Wow, that really does hurt...'
"You...and...Koga..." He choked. His stomach did a barrel roll.
Kagome stopped, feeling guilty for a moment. He looked both terrified and depressed at the same time, she had really hit the mark this time. One part of her was glad to get some revenge. After all now he knew what it was like to feel betrayed and broken. But, something else inside her didn't ever want to see him hurting like that. 'I shouldn't treat him like this just because he likes another girl. I mean, he was never mine to begin with. I don't own him.'
Her thought were interrupted by Koga trying to pull her away from the now very quiet Inu. "Cmon Kagome, let's go hang out somewhere."
She nodded dumbly and followed him, leaving InuYasha to watch them go, as utter and final defeat distorted his face and darkened his heart. As soon as they were out of sight, he fell to his knees on the rough pavement. InuYasha was dying, he was bleeding to death from re-opened wounds. The worst of it was, something told him that this was right, this was how it was supposed to be. "Koga always loved Kagome, he was loyal to her and protected her. I can't compete with him." Guilt began to mix in his soul on top of everything else. "Kagome wanted someone better."
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Sangostared blankly down ather greasy hamburger as she sat alone in the corner of WacDonalds. Even though the fast food restaurant buzzed with activity on this particular Saturday, Sango was totally oblivious to the noise around her, she was too lost in her own thoughts. 'InuYasha ... Kagome... ...how long will it take for you two to finally understand your feelings for each other?' She took a few bites of her burger and immediately spat them back out. It tasted like wet cardboard! She sighed and threw away the offensive scrap of food.
"Food sucks huh?" a male voice suddenly cut through the swarming hum.
Sango nodded passively "Uh huh..."
"You could have told me that before I bought this Big Wac." He held up the burger and plopped down in the seat next to her.
"Uh huh." Sango murmured, still lost in her own world.
"Um, can you hear me? Or at least say something more than uh huh?" The newcomer waved his hand in front of her face in an attempt to bring her back to earth. "Hellloooo, Saaaaannnggggooooooo?"
Sango grunted, "Yea uh huh."
He plastered a stupid grin on his face. "Um, hey Sango...would you bear my child?" If this didn't wake her up nothing would, and ifit didn't...well, it was a win, win situation.
"Uh hu...wait...MIROKU!" She turned and smacked him. "Not on your life!"
Miroku grinned sheepishly. "Well it almost... I mean it worked right!"
"Yea, whatever..."
His grin slid into a concerned frown, "So, what's wrong? What were you thinking about?"
Sango sighed heavily, "I'm just worried about Kagome and InuYasha, things just keep getting worse for them, I mean... how much heartache can they take!"
A thoughtful expression crossed his face, "Yea, I know what you mean...but, it's always been like this. I believe Kagome just finally had enough of it."
"But, she still loves him, even if she doesn't want to."
He blew a stray bang out of his eyes, "Even before, though, when she used to witness moments between him and Kikyo, Kagome was willing to stay by InuYasha's side. She was selfless in her intentions. Unlike Kikyo, who wished to end his feelings for Kagome. I can't help but wonder, if, perhaps this was all a trap... if it was Kikyo's doing."
Sango's eyes widened, "You think Kikyo kissed InuYasha purposely in front of Kagome?" Her eyes brows furrowed as she began to work out the possibility, "Miroku, I think your right...that would explain why InuYasha was acting so horrible about it." The realization suddenly brought new questions to her mind. "But, that means he really doesn't love Kikyo, I mean I figured before that he had just decided to be with her, to, in some weird way prevent Kagome from getting hurt...but, what he's really doing is refusing to tell her what really happened."
Miroku tilted his head thoughtfully, "He's really scared Sango, he's afraid to be with Kagome, he fears the ever-present threat of his transformations. InuYasha has tried to send her back to the safety of her world before, however, she managed to return. I suppose he figures if she hates him, she won't attempt to return again."
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InuYasha sighed as he returned to his cool, dark dorm room. As much as he had attempted to do something with himself today, his freshly wounded heart prevented him. He flopped down on his bed and took a deep whiff of his covers. Kagome's smell still lingered, from the many nights she had attempted to explain his enigmatic schoolwork to him, from the weekly visits he used to wait impatiently all day for, and, most of all, from that night she had actually slept there. When he first met Kagome, her smell had been the first thing InuYasha noticed. It made him feel so strange, yet so wonderful at the same time. When he was human, the emotions it fed him had finally been too much. InuYasha sighed again as he remembered when he told her for the first time how nice she smelled. Even a dull human nose could detect her fragrant aroma. It reminded InuYasha of the first day of spring, when the natural perfumes of the earth filled the air and the sky. InuYasha felt another surge of heartache fill his soul. Never would he have allowed such a joy as experiencing Kagome's scent belong to any other man. Before all of this, he had reserved such a privilege for himself and only himself. Late at night, he used to bury his face in her soft, silky hair and breathe in her smell. InuYasha let out a long breath and curled himself into a ball. The only way to numb the pain was to allow himself to enter the world of sleep, where hopefully his spirit could find shelter.
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Sango picked at her soggy fries. Miroku somehow managed to enjoy this garbage WacDonalds called food. Then again, Miroku would eat anything if he was hungry.
"Hey Sango, you want me to buy you a milkshake or something?" Miroku had been attempting to coax Sango into eating, she looked hungry.
"Nah, that's ok thanks anyway."
He raised an eyebrow, Sango never passed down the chance to eat ice cream. It was a delicacy from Kagome's time she particularly enjoyed. "Come on Sango let me buy one for you."
She shook her head.
Miroku stood up stubbornly and went to get one anyway, "I'll split one with you." He compromised.
Sango grunted as he came back with a large, chocolate swirl milkshake. 'Damn it, he knows that's my favorite kind.'
Miroku nudged the drink towards her, "Tell me how it tastes!"
Sango gave in and took a sip of the thick milkshake, it tasted like heaven to her weary taste buds. "Mmm, this is good!"
He smiled victoriously, "Your welcome,"
Sango let him take his share of the drink. She felt a small smile begin to invade her lips as she noticed a small milk mustache appear on his face. Miroku noticed her staring. "What?"
"Oh, nothing...just a glob of milkshake on your face."
Miroku frowned and tried fervently to see the offending smudge, resulting in his eyes crossing pathetically.
Sango couldn't hold it in, she snickered as his idiotic expression intensified.
Miroku shrugged and wiped his face on his sleeve, all while leaning in to take another taste of the milkshake, at the same time as Sango.
Their faces met as Sango suddenly felt Miroku's nose brush against her own. She pulled back quickly and blushed furiously.
Miroku cringed, awaiting punishment, 'Hey, this time I didn't mean it...' But, Sango just stared down at her shoes silently in embarrassment. Their noses hadn't been the only thing that touched. Her lips tingled from the strange sensation that had just occurred.
The monk felt his cheeks redden as well, and, in a furious attempt to break the awkward silence, he decided to experiment with a certain french fry. "Hey, try this Sango..." Miroku, swiped the fry into the milkshake and took a bite. It was actually good!
Sango grimaced, "Miroku! That's disgusting."
"Try it!" he commanded, handing her a dripping fry.
She took it hesitantly.
"Please..."
Sango tentatively bit off a small portion of the monstrosity. Her face immediately brightened up. "Damn that's good!"
The two enjoyed the rest of the afternoon shoveling the delicious creations into their mouths. All embarrassment forgotten.
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InuYasha felt himself slipping into a dark place. He felt cold and constricted, he couldn't see or hear anything, the world was engulfed in darkness. He stumbled around blindly. 'Where am I!' Suddenly a thin light cut through the blackness, InuYasha felt someone calling to him. He ran toward the source, as he got closer he felt his senses sharpen, he was returning to his hanyou form. Finally he heard the voice again, it was getting weaker. "Where are you!" he called back.
His ears strained to hear, all at once, the voice grew hoarse and quiet. "help..."
InuYasha felt a burst of speed posses his legs, it was Kagome... something was wrong. Very Wrong! At last he apraoched her crumpled form. Desperately he rolled her frail body over so he could see her face. A sudden boulder dropped in his stomach. Her pale face was slashed open and long sharp cuts decorated her chest and back, she was lying in a puddle of her own blood. "KAGOME!" He screamed. Immediately he pulled her off the ground and wrapped her in his arms. He had to save her! He had to kill whatever creature had done this to her.
Slowly her soft eyes opened. She winced as the immense pain gushed through her veins. Kagome lifted her blood stained face to the person holding her. Her eyes widened in fear when she saw who he was. "InuYasha..." She choked.
His face shattered in emotional torment. Kagome was suffering and there was nothing he could do to save her. He hadn't been there. She was going to die hating him like Kikyo did. But, this time, it really was all his fault.
Kagome suddenly wriggled out of his arms and fell to the hard ground beneath them.
"Kagome!" InuYasha reached toward her, but she pushed him away forcefully. His heart wrenched even further. 'She...she would rather die alone then with me...'
Kagome's face contorted in one last painful word. "Monster..."
InuYasha snapped, he grabbed her and felt her body go limp in his arms. "NO! Kagome! KAGOME!" He was falling, deeper and deeper, faster and faster...
InuYasha shot awake with a yelp. He panted heavily as he carefully surveyed his surroundings. 'A dream...just a dream.' He fell back down against his bed. It had felt so real. It was like someone had channeled all his pain, all his loss, into one sickening, staggering moment. His worst fear. InuYasha felt bile invade his mouth and he spat. His stomach lurched. He couldn't think about it, he couldn't. The thought of Kagome dying, or of living with nothing but fierce hatred for him in her heart. 'Oh God, Kagome, please, forgive me!'
Maybe there was a way. Maybe they could go back to the way things were. Would Kagome give him another chance? Would she leave Koga? InuYasha shook angrilly at the thought of her with the mangy wolf. 'But..' he grimaced, 'If he makes her happy then...I have to accept it.' He closed his eyes and took one last whiff of the warm, soft bed. 'I'll stay by your side Kagome. If you'll let me...I'll protect you, I'll be your friend. I'll do whatever it takes to bring a smile back to your face.'
A/N I know it was kinda mix matched between Miroku Sango fluff and InuYasha angst. Sorry if I ruined the moment. But, anyways, I have a question to ask you all. I wanted to know if you wanted me to continue on with the story after this problem is resolved or if you want me to start moving towards the conclusion. I had some further ideas in mind, like a dance or something. But, personally I get bored with other people's stories when they drag on forever, so I thought maybe I should just wrap it up. Your choice! PLEASE REVIEW AND TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO!