Moody Musings

I really, really hate this place.

Ron had been in the hospital room less than two day and yet he was going stir crazy.

They want me to get some rest but I'm bored out of my skull. I can't even sleep I just see that crazy Death Eater and I falling out of that building .Well I also dream about Hermione, of course that doesn't help me get any rest either.

He wasn't sure when they had started but the last few days he had been having some very uncomfortable dreams about Hermione. He considered them to pleasant on the whole but they forced him to think about some very uncomfortable things. Like how womanly Hermione was starting to look. Not like something out of one of those muggle magazines Fred and George used to have but like a real woman. Her skin was always so soft and warm. She always smelled so nice but not like Lavender. As much as he thought Lavender was a really sweet girl she always smelled so flowery, which is fine if you are a flower he guessed but the way Hermione smelled well like herself with just a touch of vanilla was just overwhelmingly wonderful.

He blushed as he recalled some of the dreams he had been having.

I'm pretty sure I shouldn't be dreaming about Hermione being in the shower. She would kill me if she found out about it, wouldn't she?

He sort of sighed and continued to let his thoughts wander.

You know if I don't stop thinking about Hermione in the shower and I not going to be able to walk out of here right. I really am a pig aren't I? Maybe this is normal, Ha knowing my luck I am some sort of freak of nature. Hell they can call it "Disgusting boyfriend who won't stop thinking about his kind ,sweet girlfriend being all wet and naked in the shower syndrome.".

Why can't I leave I mean it only takes a day or so to regrow bones to just mend them takes almost as long? That's barmy if you ask me. I need to make sure Harry hasn't decided that it's his fault Hogsmeade got attacked. Harry is the best mate a guy could have but he tend to take the blame for everything and that's got to stop .I'm glad he got Ginny now, nobody will treat her better than Harry and they both deserve a bit of happiness after all the shite they have been put through. Speaking of being treated like shite I am damn glad to see Neville standing up for him self more and he did a fine job during the fight. You know come to think of it he and Luna are made for each other. She's a bit weird and he's a bit nervous but deep down both of them are really fine people.

Ok that's it I'm out of here. I feel fine, well mostly.

Ron got out of bed and gathered up the few things that he had with him. He was about half way to the door when a voice shattered the quiet.

"Just were do you think your going Weasley?"

Moody?

Ron turned around to see Professor Moody walking towards him.

"Going for a little stroll Weasley?"

"Well yes sir, I can't stand it in here and I feel fine."

"Weasley you know Madame Promfrey will have your hide if you skip out of here."

Moody looked thoughtful for a moment.

"I'll tell you what if you really are feeling fine you and I will take a little walk if you are still feeling fine after our walk I'll see if I can't talk her into letting you go early."

Ron smiled "Sounds good to me."

They quickly made their way down a couple of seldom used corridors and soon found themselves behind the school facing the Whomping willow.

"So Weasley I heard you did quiet well in the battle yesterday."

"Well I lived and that's always a good start. I figured you would be mad at me taking on that many Death Eaters though."

"Well I still might be but I'm going to let you tell me why you did before I give you a lot of grief over it."

Ron took a deep breath.

"I'm sure it was a trap. The first Death Eaters were there to draw Harry into a spell battle out in the open so that when the other Death Eaters arrived they could find him quickly and kill him while not risking losing any of their forces. "

"Since it was a trap I hade to use my best judgment as to how to destroy the trap. First I got Harry out of the trap area so even if my plan didn't work they still couldn't pull off theirs. Then I thought if Neville and I could dispatch the first three then we could ambush the other. I miscalculated how long it would be before the other arrived."

Moody's magical stared straight at Ron.

"Well Weasley all in all it was a pretty good plan. Next time you might want to consider an exit strategy as well though."

"Yes Professor I can see how that would have been helpful." he grinned.

"It's good to see you aren't beating yourself up over Lestrange."

A shadow passed across Ron's face.

Moody looked at him thoughtfully.

"It seems as if maybe it is bothering you a bit still then? Well let's talk about that. Weasley, Lestrage is the second Death Eater you've had some part in the death of correct?"

Ron nodded his head and looked away.

"Did you want to kill either of them?"

"No I didn't but I just tried to stop them as best I could."

'That's the difference between us and the Death Eaters Weasley, they like to kill, it makes them feel good. People like you and I walk a fine line. In protecting the people we love we come dangerously close to becoming what we hate. You know not everyone can kill. Some people just can't do it for lots of different reasons. Some are too afraid; some believe its wrong and other don't believe they can do it. That's where we come in, we do what other people can't or won't. It's hard sometimes; sometimes even the people you end up saving will hate or fear you. In the end you will learn many ways of dealing with an opponent and you still may have to kill one. As long as you hate doing it you'll be fine."

"Professor is that what it's like to be an Auror?"

"Well not all Auror's have to kill people. In fact only the ones who go on the most dangerous missions really ever do for the most part. You and Potter will be like that though if you become Auror's. You'll want the dangerous missions, the ones that really matter. The two of you really want to make a difference which is why you'll make fine Auror's."

"If I can pass potions you mean."

Moody laughed "You'll get your N.E.W.T. in potions if it's the last thing I do."

"Thanks Professor I really appreciate it."

"Glad to do it. You two are hell on the Dark Arts." he laughed.

"Two more things Weasley and you can go. First stop calling me Professor, it's Alastor or Mad Eye or Moody. Secondly it's a beautiful day and I bet you have friends who are going out of their minds with worry so go find them. Then make sure you kiss that beautiful girl of yours. It's people like her who keep people like us grounded."

Ron lookd around for a bit but then got the courage to ask.

"Professor I mean Moody did you ever have a girl like her."

Moody got very quiet for a long time and then replied "Yes Weasley I did and I made a mistake and she died. One day I'll tell you about so maybe you don't make the same mistake."

Ron turned to leave but got stopped after only a few feet.

"You should also tell them the rest of what happened in Egypt if you can."

Ron sort of turned pale

"I'll try Moody but what if they hate me?"

"Hate you? for being human? You didn't do anything wrong."

"But I almost did." Ron sighed looking at the ground.

"But in the end you did the right thing. Secrets only divide people Weasley and right now you all need to stand together.