Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing.... Damn... Song by Nickelback, "Feelin' Way Too Damn Good."
Pairings: Eventual 1&2&1, maybe some 3&4&3.
Warnings: Eventual Shonen Ai, maybe violence, and Rock n' Roll baby.
Notes: Alright. Hopefully you are still reading this by this point. I made this chapter different, and it took me some time to actually get it the way I wanted. This is a POV, Trowa's. And it will go into depth, so it will be long. And, don't be mad, but I am prolonging Heero's appearence in this fic. Enjoy.
In The Valley Of The Diamond Dogs
By Black Dragon62
Chapter 12: A Green Eyed Perspective.
Trowa's POV
"So. How've you been? With all the things we discussed, we didn't get a chance to catch up. Well, so to speak." Duo said as we walked out of the back room in the wine shop. He looked at me with his bright and shinning violet eyes, and I couldn't help but let a small smile of my own cross my face.
"I've been alright." I said truthfully. I thought that maybe, I could tell him what I've been up to these past six years, since I obviously know what he's been up to. "I've lived here, in Italy, for the past five years. After the war ended, Cathy and I went to work for the circus for 10 months, then, we came here and took over her grandfather's wine shop. I never knew she had any family, anywhere for that matter. We've lived here ever since." I looked at Duo then, his face a calm but cheerful sort of thing. Like I always remembered. Something's never change, but yet, somehow, I was hoping they wouldn't change so. I feel a sort of comfort in knowing things are changing for the better, but the more familiar things, the important things, always stay the way they should be. I must have been silent and lost in my thoughts for some time, because I noticed Duo looking at me most quizzically. Then all of a sudden, his face lit up.
"Ok, we gotta go find the other guys. I know Wufei and Quat are somewhere in the city, but I kinda strayed." He said with an almost shy kind of smile, then as we walked out into the busy street, Duo looked about. And then he jumped up to see that we had found our objective. Wufei and Quatre. Duo ran over to them, yelling something in process.
I walked over casually, knowing that they hadn't seen me, or even noticed another's presence by the way Duo was yelling and bounding about. I walked slowly, my steps careful and deliberate, I wasn't sure if I wanted to be there at that point. I knew I wanted to see the other pilots again, but I wasn't sure if I could see Quatre's face light up the way it used to, see his aqua blue eyes shimmer with happiness. No, I don't think I could.
"Guess what I found." Duo said as he stepped to one side, allowing the other's to get a view of me. I stood straight, back as rigid as I could manage. And I allowed myself a tiny smile. I saw Wufei smile slightly, and give a nod in my general direction. Then I looked at Quatre. He had indeed grown beyond my expectations. His honey blond hair falling into his eyes, he had gotten taller. [mental laugh] Imagine, the shortest one of us, is the same height now, or at least a little shorter, than Duo. But in any case, his face and demeanor were just the same as I remembered. He was happy to see me. But I knew it was awkward none the less.
"Hello Trowa." He said, a lovely pink color tinting his cheeks. It was indeed a lovely sight. I'm not exactly saying that I'm falling with complete abandon in love with the young man standing just within arms reach, but I was feeling a sort of longing, and a.... how should I put this... a slight feeling in the pit of my heart. Almost like a caterpillar, wrapping itself in it's cocoon, in time, and given the chance, it would become something marvelous and beautiful. Now I find myself wondering.... Should I left this become something beautiful, or should I let it lie and die? I must have been completely immersed in my thoughts, because they were al staring at me with curious glances.
"Maybe we should go somewhere less... populated?" Duo asked, concern obviously written on his thin face. He was itching to get out of the public eye, and away from the public itself. That in itself didn't sound like a bad idea. I rather liked to talk amongst friends in private, rather than surrounded by thousands of Romans.
"Agreed."
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We walked for about 20 minutes, until we arrived at the threshold of a large and elegant hotel. I looked over at Quatre then, his face calm, yet something laid underneath his cheerful exterior, was it... apprehension?
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"Alright, Wufei and I have something's to take care of."
"We do?" I saw Duo hit Wufei in the ribs then. And saw Wufei sputter his words. I wanted to laugh, but didn't dare, I saw the daggers that Wufei was shooting at Duo. But then he resigned himself to agree with his braided friend.
"Alright. You two stay here and we'll be back right before we leave." Duo said, already turning to leave.
"Leave for where?" I asked, I wasn't quite sure what he was talking about, and I most certainly didn't want to go anywhere with out knowing a head of time.
"Oh, yeah. I have a concert tonight. And I want you to come." He said, smile wavering just a bit. I reassured him with a nod and smile of my own. "Great. Well it's 2 right now, we won't leave till 7:30, the show starts at 9, but you know, sound checks and crap. We'll be back later. See ya." He said with a mischievous grin, one that made me somewhat uncomfortable.
I watched Wufei and Duo walk down the hallway and disappear behind a corner. I let out a small sigh then, then I looked to my right, and Quatre was standing there, looking to where our friends had once stood. I smiled, and I felt something clench inside of me, grab a hold of me, and suddenly, I was struggling for breath, taking in gulps at a time.
Then it happened. His Aqua eyes looked at me, and his face was eerily calm. "We can talk in here." Quatre said as he slipped the card into the door and opened it. He flung the door open, and waited for me to enter first. The room was dark, but as Quatre flipped on a switch, I saw that it was quite large, we were apparently standing in what looked like a sitting room. Sofas and assorted chairs were richly strewn about the room. Quatre moved past me and sat in one of the chairs facing me. He extended his hand and wordlessly asked me to take a seat in front of him. I did. I looked to him, and waited for him to speak. I didn't have to wait long, maybe it was the words burning a hole in his throat, maybe it was the silence that was unbearable, whatever it was, I only waited a few moments before I heard his soft voice sound through the room.
"It's been a long time Trowa." I nodded in his direction. It had been a long time, maybe too long? "And, in that time..." I heard him say, "I've had a lot of time to think." He lifted his eyes to look at me. I saw hesitation, uncertainty, and fear in his eyes, I knew what he was going to say. "And I have been waiting 6 years to say this..." I was leaning back, my hands crossed over my chest, waiting for him to finish. "To say, Fuck You Trowa." I hadn't been expecting that.
I blinked at him, confusion on my face. Quickly recovering I asked him, "Excuse me?"
"Fuck you for making me fall in love with you! Fuck you for making me think of you every waking moment and dreaming of you for the past six fucking years! Damn it. Trowa, I've hated what you made me, like a love sick school girl, always in love with the man she could only hope to see or touch, but I love you Trowa, I have ever since you came into my house all those years ago. I have through all the blood, pain, suffering, you are the reason I made it out of the war alive, and you are the reason I am damning my existence. Because I know..." His eyes glazed over with unshed tears. "I know that you don't love me." They spilled and sank into the cotton of his shirt. He angrily wiped them away with the back of his hand, and he glared at me with his ocean blue eyes.
I looked at him, and I felt a guilt settle on me. "Quatre." I said softly. "I really don't know what to say..." I was looking down at the ground then. "But I knew that you loved me. You never said so, but I think, I always knew. The looks, and the tone of voice you would address me with. I think I knew. And I never said I didn't love you. I never said anything remotely close to it." I saw the glare waiver, and hope start to shine in the blue depths. "But I never said I did either."
"Then what are you saying Trowa?" I saw the frustration now sink in.
I stood then. Walking over to him and sitting on the low table in front of him. I tilted his chin up, so that his eyes would meet mine. And then I leaned back, and spoke again. "I'm not saying I've never felt anything for you Quatre, because if I did, we would both know I was lying. What I am saying is," Looking at him now, I don't think it was ever clearer to me. "I would like to give it a try." I saw a smile cross his beautiful angelic face.
"Are you saying that you really want to be with me?" I heard the fear of rejection in his voice.
"Yeah. I do." I leaned in and kissed him lightly on the lips at first. And then it grew into something more, something desperate and needy. I pulled back after I remembered to breathe. And at that moment, looking at Quatre, his face flushed and eyes glazed over, I knew, that this was what I wanted. This was exactly what I wanted.
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"How you guys doin'!!!!" Duo screamed at the crowd. "You know. I love Italy, beautiful things everywhere I look, and I found, or rather, a friend of mine found something priceless here, and this song is for him. It's called Feelin Way Too Damn Good, I hope you like it."
I looked at Duo from backstage, Quatre's hand in mine, our fingers intertwined. And I was marveling at the way he moved on stage, and the song began, Duo started to strum his guitar, and the sounds resonated from the amps and speakers. And then he began to sing.
"I missed you so much that I begged you to fly here and see me,
You must have broke down cause you finally said that you would,
But now that you're here I just feel like I'm constantly dreaming,
Cause something's gotta go wrong cause I'm feelin' way too damn good.
For 48 hours I don't think that we left my hotel room,
Should show you the sites cause I'm sure that I said that I would,
We gotta make love just one last time in the shower,
Cause something's gotta go wrong cause I'm feelin' way too damn good."
At that verse, I saw Quatre's cheeks blaze an unimaginable shade of crimson red. And I just smiled. I think Duo knew more than he let on.
"And it's like every time I turn around,
I fall in love but my heart's face down and,
Where it lands is where it should.
This time it's like, the two of us should probably start to fight,
Cause something's gotta go wrong cause I'm feelin' way too damn good.
Sometimes I think best if left in the memory,
It's better kept inside then left for good.
But looking back each time they tried to tell me.
Well something's gotta go wrong cause I'm feelin' way too damn good.
And it's like every time I turn around,
I fall in love but my heart's face down and,
Where it lands is where it should.
This time it's like, the two of us should probably start to fight,
Cause something's gotta go wrong cause I'm feelin' way too damn good.
I missed you so much that I begged you to fly here and see me,
You must have broke down cause you finally said that you would,
But now that you're here I just feel like I'm constantly dreaming,
Cause something's gotta go wrong cause I'm feelin' way too damn good.
And it's like every time I turn around,
I fall in love but my heart's face down and,
Where it lands is where it should.
This time it's like, the two of us should probably start to fight,
Cause something's gotta go wrong cause I'm feelin' way too damn good."
"Thank You! Just a little something I wrote this afternoon. Now, let's get this on!" Duo said as another song started. And all I could think of was this, you could make money making fun of your friends in public, and if anyone could do it, Duo could.
To Be Continued...
I hope you liked that. I worked on it longer than expected, but it's up and out now. LEAVE REVIEWS!!! I'm working currently on two other fics, maybe they will be posted by the end of September. By the way, if you like this fic, you should read my fic Scraps, it's a fluff piece and short. But I think you'd like it.