They both got up and left me alone.

I sat there in the floor crying.

When the accident first happened I could remember every thing about her. The first thing she did in the morning to the last thing at night, but now… I was having trouble remembering how her voice sounded or even what she looked like. I was forgetting, and I hated it.

Heather walked into my room after a little bit and sat down beside me.

She just sat there for a few minutes and finally looked into my eyes and asked," What's bothering you? What are you not telling me?"

I looked at her with tears still streaming down and said," I'm forgetting."

She pulled me into her arms and held me tight. She rocked slowly back and forth until I had calmed down.

Then she whispered," Forgetting certain things is part of growing up, but Sarah you will never forget your mom. Just when you least expect it something will bring back a memory of her… sweetie you will never be without your mom. You don't have to be afraid of that. Okay?"

I shook my head yes.

She kissed my forehead and said," Talk some more to Olivia and I'll see you tomorrow after school."

I said," I'll try. See you tomorrow."

I didn't want her to leave. She was so much better at talking to Olivia than I was. She knew just what it took to make Olivia understand me.

Olivia walked in a few minutes later. She sat down on the floor beside me and said," We need to talk."

I dreaded those words from her.

She said," Even though Heather has helped me understand why you still need to go to the cemetery, you still where grounded, and you snuck out of the house. So you are still going to be punished for that."

I broke in," Olivia I'm sorry, I'll never do it again, please, I don't want to be in trouble anymore."

She said," I'm sorry too, but you broke the rules so you have to live with the consequences. You are grounded for two weeks from every thing. That means no TV, no phone, no radio, no computer, no friends, and you go to school and you come home. After that you have two weeks of no TV, radio, comp, or friends, but you can leave the house, but only with an adult. Do you understand?"

I didn't look at her I just shook my head.

She said," No, I want you to look at me and tell me that you understand your punishment."

Tears started pouring from my eyes and I looked up and barely got out," Yes."

I ran into the bathroom and shut the door. I pulled the towel off the rack and slid into the corner.

I can't see my mom for two weeks…I hardly go two days without finding myself in the cemetery. I can't believe she's doing this to me. I need my mom still.

The door opened and Olivia walked in.

I curled into the corner. She knelled down in front of me and said," Sarah, I love you. I'm not doing this to torture you. I promise."

She went to hug me, but I pulled away. She fought me until I collapsed into her arms. She held me tight and I lay in her arms crying.

I had never felt like this before, it felt like she really loved me, that no matter what she wasn't going to leave me.

She held me for a long time until I had stopped crying. She said," Sarah, I know things are rough between us, but it will get better with time. We are both still hurting and we deal with it in different ways, I work, and you act out, but we have both got to work on talking about what we are feeling so we can help each other through this, okay?"

I shook my head yes.

She said," Let's eat then we'll talk before you go to bed."