A/N: Thanks to JediRevanOnasi for telling me that I wasn't seperating sections! I had no idea it wasn't seperating and that it was a bit confusing to read! I really have been seperating them but the edit was screwing it up! So from now on I'll check to make sure that it is understandable! Thank you! Also thanks to LuvDelkospeed for continuing to read my fanfic!

Disclaimer: I do not own Star Wars.

Chapter 10

The morning sun brought with it an exciting day. Hayley rolled around to face the sun that shined through the glass window. The warmth of the sun refreshed her as she carefully sat upright in her small bed. The room wasn't the most glamerous but it would be fine for what she wanted to do that day. She planned to practice some Jedi meditation routines that would allow her a quick recovery.

Hayley's feet lay suspended in midair as she prepared herself to get up. As long as she didn't do anything too stenuous, the doctors would allow it. The cold floor of the room sent chills through her. It felt good to stand on her own two feet. Step by step she walked over to the window. She unlocked it and let the calming breeze wash over her. The smell of salt water was overpowering...but comforting. For once in her life, all she had to think about was her welfare , and her health. Recovering and recouperating after her terrible torturing...was number one on her list. Worrying about Carth was number two.

His eyes had seemed so tired after she had woken up. He had seemed somewhat different...changed almost. Hayley knew not of what to think of it...Carth usually was so full of energy. It occurred to to her while she laid there thinking to herself...that something was definitely wrong...something had happened while she had been unconcious.

A hollow knock came from her bedroom door. She hurried to get dressed and then opened the door. Hayley smiled radiantly, as the blue Twi'lek rushed in and embraced her in a gentle hug. Her head-tails wrapping around Hayley.

"Mission! It's so good to finally see you again. Sorry about the trouble I got all of you guys in." Hayley said in a soft voice.

"Oh, it was nothing! Of course I did most of the saving and rescuing...and all that jazz." Mission and Hayley tilted their heads back to laugh.

"Good...I would hate it if I had made it any inconvience to you guys. But really, on a more serious note, I'm glad no one got hurt..." Hayley breathed a sigh of relief but stopped midway by the look in Mission's eyes.

"You mean you don't know?" Mission became very quiet.

"Know...know about what, Mission?" Hayley caught the fear and regret in Mission's voice.

"About...um, about Canderous..." Hayley froze with shear terror. Her heart began to race in an uncontrolable manner.

"Please no...don't tell me..." Mission nodded," No! Mission, don't...god no! Please, Mission...he can't be..." Hayley stumbled backwards as if hit by a physical blow. Tears streamed down her face as she sat on the creaky bed. She pounded herself in the leg several times, before Mission grabbed her arm." It was all my fault! Damn it, damn it, damn it! I should have died in that ship...you should have left me to die, Mission! Why, why, why? Why couldn't it have been me? Why Canderou..." Her weeping over over took her. Mission sat next to her in silence. What could she say?

"Shhhhhh...it's okay...he died like a true mandalorian. He wouldn't want you beating yourself up like this though...he'd would have much prefered himself doing the beating." Mission was trying to lighten up the mood, but it wasn't helping much...in fact the opposite...it was making it worse.

"Please...Mission...please can you leave for a little bit. I just need to be alone..." Hayley rolled over to her side, with one hand reached up and motioned for the window to close and the blinds to come down...they did so. She laid in the darkness once again...she had to make a descision...now and forever...

The hallway seemed so quiet...too quiet. Carth walked hastily down the corridor towards the barracks, and the medical facilities. The words of the council still hung around loosely in his head. How was he going to explain to her what he had to do and where he had to go without her thinking something was wrong? He knew she wouldn't find the prospect of being left alone too appealing.

His steps echoed through the tight, cramped spaces of the corridor. He ran his hand through his hair, it was a mess. He finally reached the last door in the hallway. Hayley's room...

(After the Leviathan, before the Star Forge was desroyed)

"Go away." Hayley's tone was ice cold. Carth knocked on the door again, more roughly." Didn't you hear me? I said go away...leave me alone.

"Hayley...open up." Carth said softly.

"No...Carth, I'm sorry, so sorry...just sorry..." Hayley seemed to be hysterical.

"Listen, open up and we can talk." Carth pleaded.

"Talk? You want to talk? After what I've done...you still just want to talk? After all the people that I've murdered...all the families I've destroyed...not to mention your own..." Hayley said harshly.

"Yes...I just want to talk...open the door." The door opened by itself.

Hayley was sitting in the middle of the room on the floor. Her lightsaber in front of her...she continued to stare at the floor. Carth walked in and closed the door behind him.

"It's all my fault, Carth. I dragged all of you into this mess...this has to end." Carth looked confused. His blaster suddenly flew from his holster and into her hand. She held it firmly as she walked over to him. She placed the blaster in his hand and forced him to hold it to her head." Do it, Carth. Finish it...finish me. I'm not afraid of dying...not anymore. I deserve this more than anyone..."

"Hayley...I should be the one apologizing. Not you... there is no way you could have known that you are, were, the..." Carth's hand was unsteady...one move and he could accidently kill her.

Hayley's eyes held a fierce unforgiving look," I AM the Dark Lord of the Sith, Carth! I always will be! Nothing either of us can do to stop it!" She lowered her gaze," Carth, please, I'm asking you as a friend...kill me. Give me the death that has long hounded me. We both know that I should have died on that ship. Carth-find Bastila and bring her back safely..."

Hayley closed her eyes and knelt on the ground, her head lowered. She still had control of Carth's hand. She eased her finger into the trigger and...click. Nothing. Nothing happened. Her eyes registered shock and anger...she stood up.

"What did you do! Why...why...why...why..." Hayley beat at Carth's chest as he stood there, watching her. He pulled her close to him.

"Hayley, I should have told you this before. I love you and I will love you, you as Hayley Jamira or Revan." She stopped her assault and went limp in his arms...

(Present day)

The door slid opened to reveal one ticked off Hayley Jamira. She was dressed in her Jedi robes and her hair was put up in a small, tight bun. She pushed past Carth without even acknowledging that he was standing there. He grabbed her wrist, she didn't even turn around to face him.

Hayley lowered her voice,"You didn't tell me. It's been weeks...and you didn't find the time once to tell me that one of my closest friends died? How could you?"

"I...you were under a lot of stress already and I didn't think that telling you that Canderous..." Carth tried to come up with a logical understandable explanation. Why hadn't he told her?

"That's exactly the problem, Carth! You don't think! I have a right to know, you...you monkey-lizard!" She was no longer talking softly...she was yelling. She was also drawing quite a bit of attention to them.

"Whoa, now calm down, sister! Do you really think knowing what happened, would have helped you bring him back?" Carth regretted the words the moment they came out.

She stared at him coldly. Her eyes burning with rage." I thought you were my friend, Carth Onasi. I was wrong." She stormed off.

Carth stood there and watched her go. She was like a newborn kinrath, ready to strike at anything and everything that moved. Had it been so wrong not to tell her about Canderous? Would it have made a difference? Not likely. He silently answered his own question.

(Later that day)

" No more. I'm done." Hayley stood before the council with iron determination.

"Apprentice, what has happened to make you come to this drastic conclusion?" Master Vandar asked.

"Everything! I've had it with the Council, I've had it with all the training and the lectures...and the death. I've had it with everything! Also, you still call me an apprentice even after all that I've done! Well, no more! I'm through with it all! I didn't ask for this life...and I sure as hell didn't want it so...I'm leaving." She threw her lightsaber to the ground. She started to walk away but stopped midway," If the crew comes by...tell them goodbye for me."

The council stood there in shock. Hayley was too powerful to be alone without the guidance of the Jedi Council. Trouble would definetly arise if someone found out about her true identity outside of the safe walls of the enclave.

A/N: the next couple of chapters are going to be pretty angsty...just to let you all know! Also if you all like Atton and exile conbination...I'm writing a fic about them too. It is called Love and Trust have Consequences...for those who want to read it! I appreciate all the reviews I have recieved so far!