Elliot said," They're taking him now to arraign him. Sarah, you know that you are going to have to tell other people like the judge and the jury what happened, and he is going to be in the room."

I panicked and looked at Olivia and said," I can't Olivia, I can't do that. I can't face him again. I'm not strong enough."

Olivia held my hands and said," Yes you are, and you can do it. You are strong. You stood up to him once Sarah. You can do it again, and this time there will be other people there to stand up with you. Okay?"

I sat there as tears rolled down my face.

Finally I laid down and turned away from her.

I hear someone else come into the room. It was Casey the ADA.

She asked Olivia," How's she doing?"

Olivia said," Not so good. She doesn't want to testify."

Casey walked around the bed and knelled down beside the bed. She asked," What scares you the most about testifying?"

I said quietly," Seeing him again."

Casey asked," What if you didn't have to see him, would you do it then?"

I shook my head and asked," But how?"

Olivia sat down behind me and Casey said," There's a law where you can testify to the judge in front of a camera with only me and the other lawyer and you won't even have to see him. Will you do that?"

I shook my head yes. She said," Okay, I'll file the motion. Get some rest. I'll talk to you later."

She left and Olivia said," Look at me."

I rolled over and looked at her.

She wiped the tear away and said," I'm proud of you, and your mom would be too."

I looked away and hugged the pillow and whispered," I'm not so sure."

Olivia said," I'll be back to check on you later. Come find me if you need me or ask the Captain. Okay?"

I said," Okay. Can we go out for lunch?"

She said," Not today. I'm on call. Maybe tomorrow. Your school work is in my bag in my locker. Please make sure you get it all done and we'll work on what you don't know later."

She went down stairs. By lunch I was hungry. I took money out of Olivia's purse and caught the subway down to Little Italy. I ate at my favorite restaurant and then headed back up to the precinct.

Elliot ran into me and asked," Where were you? Olivia is mad."

I said as Olivia walked up behind me," I was hungry I went to get lunch."

Olivia asked," What do you think you were doing?"

I said," I was hungry."

She said," I don't care. You never go out into the city by yourself and you certainly don't leave without telling someone you are leaving. Kasey has been waiting on your for an hour. Where did you go?"

I answered knowing full well I was going to be into even more trouble when she found out where I had been," Little Italy."

She didn't know what to say at the moment that wouldn't start a fight so she just said," Let's go. You have to talk to Casey. I'll deal with you later."

I hadn't even looked at my homework.

Olivia saw my folder in the same place and asked," Did you have any questions about your homework?"

I said," No, not one."

She asked as we walked out to the car," Did you finish your homework?"

I said," No not yet."

She said as we got in the car," I asked you to be finished; did you even start?"

I said quietly," No."

She said," So not only did you leave the station and go by yourself to Little Italy, but you also didn't finish your homework. Sarah, you know you are in trouble?"

I said," I had a feeling."

She said," When we get home you go to your room and I'll be there to talk to you after I get dinner started."

I begged," No, Please…"

She said," Sarah, not arguments."

I said," I don't want to go into my room. Please. I'll do anything, but I don't want to go in there."

She said," I know you don't, but you can't hide in my room for the rest of you life. There is nothing in there that is going to hurt you. Go to your room."

She stopped the car after we had parked and I climbed out and ran up to our apartment.

I unlocked the door and ran to the bathroom and shut and locked the door. I sat there in the floor crying.

Olivia knocked and said," I just want to talk to you. You can stay in here, but I want you to open the door."

I unlocked the door and she came in and ushered me over to the bathtub and we sat down on the edge by each other.

She said," I was worried when I didn't know where you were when I came up to take you out to lunch."

I asked about to cry," You were going to take me out for lunch? I thought you said we couldn't because you had to work."

She turned my chin to look at her and said," You are more important that work. I know it has taken me a while to learn that, but you are what matters most. Right now you are having a hard time and I need to be there for you."

I said with a smile," Elliot talked to you didn't he?"

She laughed at me and asked," How did you guess?"

I said," He has kids… he understands the job doesn't always come first."

She said," Let's eat and then get to bed, I have the day off tomorrow and we're going to go do some stuff together."

After we had eaten I changed in the bathroom and brushed my teeth.

Olivia met me at the bathroom door as I came out. She said," Come on. I'll tuck you in."

When she walked towards my room I stayed back.

She said," I'll stay with you until you fall asleep. There is nothing in here that will hurt you. I will never let anything in here again that could hurt you. Come on."

I slowly followed her into the room. I laid down on my bed and pulled the blankets up tight. I cried until I had finally fallen asleep.

I woke up and Olivia was sleeping on the floor beside me. I gently woke her up and said," Thank you for staying with me."

She said," You're welcome. I wish that you felt safe in here though. You're bedroom should be your safe haven and I let someone take it away. I'm sorry."

I said," I let him too. I could have told you about him before, but I didn't. I let him do it to me. I didn't tell you, and they're going to bring that up in court. I know they will. They're going to blame it on me."

She took both my hands and said," No, no they won't. I will not let them. This was not your fault. Don't you ever let anyone tell you that it was. Okay?"

I shook my head yes.