Dreams End
Chapter 3-The Lapse of Courage
Neko Kamiya
***Disclaimer*** ~I don't own Digimon or any of it's characters.~***Disclaimer***
||This story was written over a four year period.
I'm simply posting it again, in order to *finally* finish it.
I just need closure on this fic.||
"I hope everything goes well........ but......"The young teen stammered out.
"But......... but what ,Cody?"Ken questioned.
"Why did all of them have to go? I mean, if it's just food and supply gathering, we usually don't send more than three or four.... what makes this time so different?" Ken also wondered this, he knew something was up, they had planned something and didn't tell him, again.
" It's probably nothing..... they just wanted extra hands.... to get more stuff. Now go help Yolei, okay buddy? We gotta keep this place running while their gone."
Cody smile, nodded, and headed off to help. 'No need to make Cody worry about how much Tai and the others trust us'. Ken had wondered lately, so many things get kept from Yolei, Cody and himself. 'It wasn't any thing big' Ken thought 'They could have just forgot to tell us' It was getting rather embarrassing. Ken had found out about the last food shipment from a 'villager'.He wasn't even told that someone was heading out. 'And we're supposed to be in charge.' he laughed bitterly 'how can we take charge when people are pitying us because were 'out of the loop'. It wouldn't be as bad if it were just me they were ignoring, but it's also Cody and Yolei..... poor Yolei. She doesn't deserve to be treated like crap by some big-haired bastard who wants his glory days back. Tai just can't accept that the digital world is gone, the battle's over, and we lost. Sometimes... sometimes......'
"Sometimes I wish I hadn't switched sides"He whispered to no one. He was so angry, tears flowed down his face. He clenched his hands into fists, forced his eyes shut, trying to slow the tears.
"I have to be strong... I can't say dumb things like that. If anyone had heard.....I'd just be proving stupid Tai right..... he can't trust me ...things.....things would be different if Davis...if Davis never...."he could no longer control his tears, and allowed them to flow freely.
"Why the hell did he have to die? Why couldn't he have survived , like T.K. did. Tai couldn't push us around if we still had Davis! Davis wouldn't stand for that.............I.....I've got to stop thinking about that night. Davis is dead. Nothings gonna change that. I have to move on, and stop brooding over the past..........I once dreamed he was back, alive and well. It was such a happy dream, everything was perfect! None of this would have happen with Davis around. Why do dreams have to end?" Ken got himself gathered together, put on a phony smile he knew Yolei would see right through , and headed back to his fellow estranged Digidestined.
Elsewhere......
" I think your brother has flipped. All the extra weight from his hair must be getting to him." T.K. said. Kari smiled.
"Come on Takeru, I know this isn't .......normal...... but I'm sure Tai knows what he's doing." 'At least I hope so.' She thought. 'Tai and Sora should have told us the truth, being left out.... it makes the rest of us feel......stupid, out of the loop even. I thought Tai had coped rather well to this situation, I think I might have been wrong.'
"What's wrong, Kari?"
"N....nothing....nothing........"She fake smiled at him, she knew it wouldn't work 'please God, don't let him see through this.....'
"Hikari...... I think I know you a bit better than that. I know something's wrong." He turned, and held her shoulders, gently.
"Let me know what wrong, then I can help."He smiled softly , and looked at her , with his caring, ocean blue eyes, with concern and understanding. 'He's so good at that whole making me feel better thing. How did I get so lucky as to have him in my life?'She smiled.
"I'm just ....worried....... about Tai, He's been acting so weird lately, and now, sending us off on this crazy treasure hunt! What happen to him? I thought he was the stablest on among us......how could he?! How could he not tell me? I 'm his sister for Christ sake! He's supposed to tell me everything! How could.....how could he lie to me like this...."She wept uncontrollably into T.K.'s chest. He hugged her as if she was all that mattered.
"Shhh.......my dear ,dear Hikari........ I'm sure Tai didn't want to hurt you.....he would never purposely upset you." He held her at arms length now, and looked her in the eyes.
"He cares too much about you.......he loves you very much. You're his little sis! He never stopped thinking of you like that. He just doesn't see you as a teammate. He never will. Because, you see, a teammate he could replace, a sister is forever. He just didn't want to worry you with this plan. You're worried now, don't you think you would be far more worried if you have found out earlier? Granted, I'm not happy with Tai decision not to tell us, but his intentions were good." He kissed the now sniffling girl's forehead.
"You feeling better?" She smiled, and nodded as she sniffed once more.
"You're amazing, Takeru. Did you know that?"
"Of course I am, I'm T.K.!" He joked.
"Come on, we should keep moving before it gets too late, we don't want to be outside after dark."The two kept moving towards their destination, more determined now than ever before. 'My sweet Takeru. He cares so much for me! What would I have done if....if he hadn't made it out of that disaster, like poor Davis. Poor, poor Davis. He didn't deserve to die. But, if it was T.K. that died, I think......I just would have died too. I'd give up. Or maybe commit suicide. Anything to stopped that pain.......the pain of losing the love of my life, before I could even tell him how deeply I felt for him. Thank God Angemon saved him. Now he's with me, and will be forever more by my side.' She reached down and took his hand. He drew her nearer 'Now and forever'.
'How dare he hurt her so!?! That Tai......him and me, we've gotta 'talk' a bit about how poorly he's been treating my Hikari! No, I shouldn't even think that. She's not 'my' Hikari. She's her own person. That's why I love her so.'He looked to the girl who was walking beside him 'Sweet Kari.... How did I get so lucky as to have you in my life? You're my whole life! How can I tell you that? How can I tell you that I want you by my side forever?'She slipped her hand into his. He brought her closer to him 'Now and forever'.
Elsewhere...
"They all hate me now."Tai said, miserably.
"Oh, come on now! They can't hate you! You're Tai!" Sora laughed.
'No, seriously, did you see the way Kari glanced at me? She looked so betrayed. I felt awful! Why couldn't we have told them before hand? What would have been so bad about that?" But even when saying these words, He knew why. 'If they had been given more time to think about what we were after, they'd figure it out for sure. Matt would think I had gone mad.........he'd probably be right. Where did I get such a crazy idea? This could all be for nothing...... and it could be suicide! Yet........if this all works, well, it will be worth all of the pain and suffering it may take to get to that goal. I feel bad for keeping the truth from them.... hell, even Sora doesn't know my whole plan! But, I'm the leader! I've gotta keep this group strong, and together is what we have to be, even if it kills me.'
Sora didn't bother answering Tai, she knew rhetorical questions when she heard them.
"Listen, Tai, Kari will forgive you, just give her time."
"You sure?"
"Mm-hm"she smiled at him. He smile back. Their eyes met, Tai lost himself in her beautiful hazel eyes,
"Sora..........I..........." By now, he was hold both her hand just under her chin, his face inches from hers.
"Shhhh.........I know..." He brushed a stray hair from her face, and leaned, bringing his lips closer to hers. She responded to his actions by tilting her head. Her closed eyes fluttered softly. Tai quickly closed the gap, and softly massaged her lips with his own. 'If this isn't heaven, I don't know what is' Sora thought, as she felt the warmth of Tai's love all over her body. 'I wish this moment would last forever.' After several minutes Tai pulled away, with much difficulty.
"Sorry Sora.......We've got to get back to work, so we'll have to continue that later."
"Okay, if you promise" She said in a sing song voice
"I promise" Tai replied sincerely.
Elsewhere.....
Matt leaned back on the door way to a subway station. He blew a tuft of hair off his face.
"This is highly asinine."Izzy said
"You're so asinine........"Matt sang softly ("You look so fine", by Garbage),chuckling to himself.
"Matt, this is no time for chant and merriment!"Izzy yelled.
"Sorry man, but I've only heard the word.... 'asinine'.....one other place, I just couldn't help myself."
"Well, you best attempt to suppress your sophomoric behaviour! We have no time for babysitting!"
"Okay! Down boy!" Joe said, as he intercepted the two men. "Let just put aside this 'sophomoric behaviour' both of you! Let get this over with without biting off each other head!"
"Yeah, yeah, whatever"Matt said under his breath.
"Yes. Let us get this over with."Izzy expressed with great annoyance.
"Izzy....this is not like you....... what up?"
"............Tai." The other two nodded in agreement.
"I know , man! How could he be so.................."Matt trailed off, searching for the best word.
"Discourteous? Impertinent? Inconsiderate? Impudent? Rude????"Izzy suggested.
"Yeah, one of those."
"Guys, I know that Tai kept this from us, but he probably had good reason. Tai has done so much for this team, for all of us, we mustn't forget that. We've got to allow him one mistake now and then. He has a lot of responsibility on his shoulders."Joe explained.
"You're correct, Joe. We've been so sadistic, in spite of the fact that the decision wasn't right, he had his reasons. If he had notified me beforehand, I could have contemplated why we desire this paraphernalia. I might not have agreed to proceed with this escapade. Who knows what his true scheme is?"Izzy said. Matt blinked.
'Ummm.......... What?"Matt scratched his head "Could you say that again in English?" Izzy rolled his eyes, Joe laughed.
"Come on guys, let get this done, whatever it's needed for."Joe said. The three young men trenched on through the murky atmosphere of the subway line. 'Whoa. Matt unusually talkative. He always seem to talk only when T.K. isn't around...... it's almost as if he doesn't want to talk to his own brother. Doesn't he realize how lucky he is? If only I still had my brother.........I miss him so much. Why did it have to be Jim? He was my big bro! I looked up to him so much! And now.... he's gone forever. Just like all our Digimon.....and Davis. He was a good kid, he didn't deserve to die. Matt came so close to losing T.K. that day, and yet he seems more distant from him now then ever before! I just don't get it..... I don't think I'll ever get Matt. That guy is just so... weird.'
'I'm sick of this......so sick of this........ why did Mimi have to move away? Why didn't she come back after she turned 18? Will I ever get to know......if she's...............dead?? I wonder if anyone can tell all of this 'Happy Matt' is just an act... I know T.K. could, that's why I can't talk to him...... stupid Yamato! How does that make sense! Can't you see you're hurting T.K.!!!! I promised myself I'd be his brother now, and I'm gonna do that....even if it means my cover will be blown, they'll all know how lonely I truly feel. How much I miss........her. She was so beautiful, even when she was eleven! By fifteen, her beauty was doubled! Now at twenty, she should look like a beauty queen, but I'd love her even if she looked like crap.'Matt kicked a pebble. 'I've been dying just to feel you by my side, to know that your mine.....("#1 Crush", by Garbage)' ..........I can't take it anymore, it won't be long before I break, where am I gonna find another girl like you...("Girl Like You", by See Spot Run)....Some day you're head is gonna turn, and you'll realize I'm missing.......("Suburbia",by Matthew Good Band).........you're slipping slowly from my reach....you've never seen the lonely me at all.....("Without You I'm Nothing", by Placebo)......and wild horses couldn't drag me away.....("Wild horses", by The Sundays [A/N- I forgot who did this originally, but they did a new version.]).............I love you, yeah, I love you ("The Date", by Scott Weiland).......life is for living, we all know, and I don't wanna live it alone...(Bonus track on the album"Parachutes", by Coldplay).....I wish on every falling star, and whisper your name, I'm hoping that you and I will always remain....("Until", by Joydrop)......oh Mimi.......... '
Back at camp....
Ken walked slowly back into the large, open room they called home.
"Ken! You're back! Thank God!"Yolei huffed, she was holding several boxes, that looked rather heavy.
"Yolei! What are you doing with those boxes? Why isn't Cody helping you carry them? What going on?"Ken exclaimed. Yolei looked mad.
"What? You think I need some strong maaannnn to help Lil' old girly me? Huh? Is that what you're saying? That I'm a helpless female?" Yolei screamed'Oh no.... she looks really pissed.... proceed with caution, Ken ol' boy!'
"No.. Of course not! Come on, Yolei... how could I think that when you beat me at arm wrestling. I just meant that Cody should be helping you, because that stack is much too high! I'm surprised you can even see over that! I just... I don't want you to get hurt"Yolei put the boxes down.
"AWWW!!! That so sweet , Ken! Thanks for worrying about me! I guess that stack was a bit high. I'm sorry I snapped at you"Yolei said. 'Good job!'Ken thought 'She doesn't even seem upset, if anything, you scored points with that one!'
"Come on, I'll take some of those."Ken smiled. Yolei smiled back.
America.....
'How come they get to be happy in this horrid time' Mimi thought, as she looked at the three best friends who sat huddled in the opposite corner. They were giggling about some past incident from their high school days, when one of them went to jaywalk and was almost hit by a car.
"Did you see that lady's face!"
"I know, and the attitude I gave her! It was as if she was the one doing the illegal thing!"
"God, I wish I'd see that! Why did I have to stay home that day?"
"You missed some good fun! That was hilarious!!!"The girls broke out into a frenzy of giggles again.
"God I miss those days, girls. Things were so much different then." The tall blonde smiled. "At least one thing hasn't change, were still friends, and were still raising trouble at every corner!"
"Yep! The three of us will be friends forever!" The short dark haired girl sitting across from here said.
"Damn straight! The three of us are kick ass!" The redhead exclaimed. The three of them continued laughing.
'It's not fair! At least they've got each other! I'm all alone..... so far away from my friends. Me and Sora would be giggling together if she were here.'She sighed 'Izzy would be typing away on his computer, searching for some way to get on line with no phone line, Joe would be cautioning him not to do anything too stupid, Kari and T.K..... well before all this happened I heard they were getter rather close, so they'd probably be snuggling in the corner, and Matt and Tai would be trying to figure out who would be the first to have some amazing idea to save the world. God, I miss them.' She smiled at the memories of her friends. 'All the Digimon, they'd all be there too. That would be perfect. Me and Matt..... We would have talked, got to know each other better, and would be together right now, just like I know we're suppose to be.' The girls in the corner had stopped giggling. The blond was in tears.
"Why did we have to leave? If we had stayed in our home town, we'd know...... we'd know how the others are..... God, I hope they're alright! I'm so thankful I have you two with me, I'd just die if I didn't know what had happen to all my friends! It would be horrible to be all alone!"
Mimi smiled sympathetically when she over heard this. 'I know how you feel' She thought. 'I know exactly how you feel, all too well.'She picked up the steak knife she had stolen from one of the food boxes. 'It would be so fast, painless in comparison to the loneliness I feel now......so fast.' She pricked her finger on the sharp knife, and watched a drop of her blood fall to the floor, making a perfect red circle. 'So fast.............'
Elsewhere...
'Can't stand the loneliness.......... ( "Slowcountry", by Gorillaz)'Thought Matt.
Well, That's Chapter Three... Questions? Comment? Concerns? Complaints?
A few things to mention:
1.Awww!!! A Taiora Kiss!
2. I just loved the whole "Singing Matt" Thing!
3.No, Mimi didn't kill herself........yet...........(she may........or may not..... I haven't decided)
4.Did you like that small portion of Miyaken? Or is it Kenyako? I never know..........
5. Ha! The Three Anime Chicks made their Fan fiction debut as....... The girls in the corner!
Okay.... once more, much thanks to reviewers, you guys are so sweet ! Thank you for liking this story! And extra thanks to those who keep coming back for more. So... yeah. That's it for now! See you guys back soon (I hope.......)
,Neko Kamiya
This has been in memory of those Anime guys who have gone into the never ending world of reruns ...Heero ..Duo... Trowa.. Van.. Folken .....Tai....T.K... Matt.... Izzy..... love ya boys
|||Once again, this Fic was written over four years. I know the writing is dreadful, sorry. I just need to finally finish it. Fan Fiction deleted the first one since i broke some ruler without even knowing it, and i never bothered putting it back up. But, now, I just want to see it done. I worked so hard on this, back in the day... hope you all enjoy it.||||