Dreams End
Chapter 8- The Confusion of Kindness
Neko Kamiya
***Disclaimer*** ~I don't own Digimon or any of it's characters.~***Disclaimer***
||This story was written over a four year period.
I'm simply posting it again, in order to *finally* finish it.
I just need closure on this fic.||
This is dedicated to Navi, and anyone else who still bothers to read this, my baby!! (Neko luvs writing this story! It's so relaxing!!*)
So, Let's Get right to it then!:
America...several weeks later.....
Mimi looked down at her diary. 'My, these new entries are totally different from my old ones! Who would have known that in just over a month my mind set could so dramatically change?' She smiled to herself as she hid the note book amidst her things. As she looked up, two silvery blue eyes caught her attention from across the way. They were coming towards her. An even bigger smiled now graced her face. The eyes followed suit in the only way eye could, a soft twinkling illuminating both the joy and sadness that all eyes depicted, as true windows to the soul. Soon, the owner of the crisp sky blue eyes also smiled, slightly, as her began to speak.
"Hello, Mimi. Fancy meeting you here." He added sarcastically. He started to walk , with her joining at his side. As they wandered beyond the open area they called home, Mimi began to calm down, feeling much more at ease with her dear friend by her side. 'I trust him, it seems odd. I've barely known him for more than a couple weeks, but something about this guy.... his eyes, so full of sorrow, his stance, so full of pride, his voice, so powerful..i just can't describe why...but i know he only wants to protect me, comfort me, and just know me. It so..refreshing. I haven't felt this close to someone since...no! I haven't thought about him for almost a week now! I can't stop that now!'
"What wrong, Meems?"Zell said with concern, stopping dead in his tracks. "You look so....worried.... it just us, no one to hurt you here." he grabbed her hand.
".........i'mm....f.in..e..." she slowly whimpered out. She had begun to speak , but only to Zell, and only a few words. She smiled, reassuring him that she was fine.
"Okay. I jut worry about sometime, y'know?"He flashed her a smile, and turned to continue walking "i..care about you very much.." he said quietly"..I just want you..to be..happy" She smiled again. 'All these smiles..he brings out the best in me! These past few weeks have been heaven! Perhaps it's time i give up on the insane matt fascination, and go for Zell. I know i care deeply about him, very much so. We've only just met, and already he knows more about me than my parents ever did. Maybe I've blown this matt-obsession out of proportion! I'm sure he couldn't have been half as amazing as I've made him out to be. I know Zell cares about me, and I can tell he means more than just in a friendly way. It wouldn't be hard for me to just ..fall for Zell...' a pang of guilt struck Mimi's heart.'What's wrong with me? Why do i feel guilty about giving up on a guy i barely know anymore? It's best if i just learn to be happy with Zell, best for everyone involved.' On a suddenly impulse, she wrapped herself around his arm, and laid her head against his shoulder. 'I could be happy here.' She smiled up at him, his face smiling down at her. 'Very happy.'
*The secrets out but it's too loud to think it.......* [Truffle Pig , Matthew Good Band]
Elsewhere......
"Hmpf. Are you happy now?" T.K. said, jokingly.
"Very" Kari said, giggling. She had made T.K. carry all the boxes, blinding his view. After running across a tragically placed rock, T.K. was now on his ass, boxes scattered all around him. Kari laughed hysterical and the fuming blond boy.
"Oh, you think it so funny, eh?" He reached up , and grabbed her arm. "Why don't you join me down here, then?" he said, as he yanked her down.
"Oh!" She exclaimed as she landed on top of him. She snorted. "Well, this looks bad, doesn't it, Takeru?"
"Looks? Well, how 'bout we let it be?" He sat up a bit, cradling her chin in his hands. She wrapped her arms around his neck. He leaned in, and softly kissed her. She kissed him back.
"Mmm." She said, as she laid her head on his shoulder. "This is nice. I could stay here forever."
"Sadly, i think i might need use of my arm. Of course, for you, i guess i could go without it." He kissed the top of her head. She looked up, and pulled him in for a nice, long kiss.
"Save that for later, please. Actually, never mind saving it, just get your hands off my sister." Tai said, walking past them with his own box of supplies.
"Now, now, Tai! That isn't fair! Go ahead, T.K., you keep your hands on her! Otherwise, Tai, perhaps I'll keep my hands to myself." Sora said, walking along Tai. She stop, kissed his cheek, and laughed. T.K. and Kari were now stumbling to their feet, redder than beets.
"But...oh..come on , Sora!! She's my sister!! I have to..but, no! Aw crap..... fine..." Tai said, as he sulked away. Kari helped T.K. pick up all the boxes 'Guess I can help the darling.' The four of them continued to the main room together.
"Okay then. Looks like we're all accounted for." Tai said, taking a quick survey of his surroundings. "Things are moving faster than I first planed. Good, good, very good." he muttered.
"Tai..umm...I was just wondering...is this such a good idea?" Ken asked, timidly. "I mean, yes, we may be able to change things, but, couldn't we also start another outbreak? Not that I'm saying this isn't a great idea, because it really is, I'm just..concerned....." he trailed off, his eyes, full of paranoia and fear. " i just...i don't want to lose anyone else is all.". Tai gave him a stern, leader like look.
" We could stay here, Ken." He practically spit his name. " But, what kind of life is this? Yes, I'm not quite sure what will happen, whether or not we can even open the digital gate, but isn't it worth a try? Dammit! I refuse to stay here anymore! Yes, we may die, yes, we may not return, but , honestly, death is almost better than this." he spread his arms out "..this..?" he dropped them back to his side, then pointed at the now completed make-shift computer, "or this?"
"...you're right, tai. I'm sorry."Ken walked away, timidly. He had never really returned to normal after Davis' death. 'Why? Why can't i just be myself again...I know .......Davis.... was a great friend to me, but, I just can't seem to put his death behind me...did he really mean that much to me, that my life will never be normal again? Is that even possible? I cared about him, yes, but it's been four years! I have to stop crying over his death.'
"Why so glum? Did Tai chew you out?" Yolei said, bouncing up beside Ken, breaking his concentration.
"Hmm? Oh, yeah. I never should have bothered bringing it up. I knew he wouldn't listen."He smiled at the girl. 'I care about her too. Too much to tell her how much I still miss Davis. She reached out to me when I was evil too. Sure, Davis reached out more, but still, Yolei cared too. She still does, I know she does. I just feel...like I lost my best friend, or my brother, or even a part of me. I guess we had a deep connection, that why..that why our Digimon could Digivovle together....god, those words are dumb' he laughed to himself 'I guess our entire childhood would sound pretty dumb to someone who wasn't there. Things like Digidestined, Digital emperor, digital world....they just sound...so stupid. So, how could such stupid things effect us, and the world itself, this drastically?' He grabbed Yolei's arm softly, and smiled at her. ' I guess i can make sure some good comes out of all this.' She turned to him , and smiled.
"Come on, Ken-chan." She said, dragging him back to where the others were.
'Everyone...everyone's together.' Matt thought, in his usual bitter ways. 'Everyone has a counter part..well, a lot of them do anyways...my brothers got Kari, Tai has sora , and Ken seems to have yolei....I'm alone..........
*Pretty flower can you tell me what's become of who we are? Only asking what you'd like tonight, we'll take America.....only wanted more but we were always blinded, here we want to try, but I can try to be as pain as daylight, looking for the world, but we were always blinded....*- [Blinded, David Usher]
....I wish I didn't have such an extent of song knowledge...too many are sad..........and perfect...and remind me...of...her....' He sighed, and then he too approach the rest. 'Maybe ..maybe this' ll be the answer....'
America...
*You're not the one but you're the only one who makes me feel like this...* [The one, Foo Fighters]
Mimi Laughed.
"Come on, the joke wasn't all that funny!" Zell said, grinning at Mimi outburst. She grabbed his arm and layed her head on his shoulder, taking a deep breath to stop herself from laughing. She closed her eyes 'this is happiness. I've missed it so much. Whenever I'm with Zell, i feel so safe, at peace with the world. I know he'll protect me.
* how' d you do it, how' d you find me how did I find you? How can this be true? to be held and understood ...you make it easy to watch the world with love, you make it easy to let the past be done, you make it easy, you make it easy, so watch me fall in love..* -[You make it easy, Air]
..is that was this feeling is? Love? Is it even possible to fall in love in such short a time? No, it's not possible! I love Matt! But, do i? Do i really? What if i just forgot about him, I'm so happy here in Zell's arms...' she took another deep breath and sighed 'this is too much to think about. i should stop analysing, and just go with flow. Be more carefree.' Suddenly, Zell stopped.
"Meems, I gotta tell you, these last few weeks with you have been great. You make me feel..something, something I'm not used to..." he squirmed with every word
'how cute!' Mimi thought.
" I really ..care..about you" his eyes darted to the floor. He shuffled his feet.
'It's so odd. He's acting like a little kid! He's always so tough and sure, but..wait..is he blushing?!?! o my gawd! Is he saying what I think he's saying??!?!' Mimi Smiled softly 'yes!'
"And ...umm...i just thought i should let you know that....the way i feel...i think it goes beyond friendship, but I'm not sure..and ..um..if you were..mebbee... wanting to be more than just friend..me too..." His face was now beyond beet red. Mimi Reached out and cradled his chin in her hands, lifting his face so he was looking directly at her. Tears swelled in her eyes, and she smiled. "....Shall I take that as a yes?" she nodded. He smiled, and slowly turned his face to the side. He reached his arms out, drew her close, and kissed her.
*And I saw sparks...* [Sparks, Coldplay]
'He's kissing me! I'm feel so... free..like i fit in, finally !' As he drew away from her, a smile lit up her face, mirroring the one on his. "..Z..ell.." She said lovingly, then collapsed into his arms. Tears of joy slid down her face 'so quickly...so fast...this feeling has taken me over...he's everything I've every wanted. And he want me too. And he's here, with me, holding me, loving me.' the only thing she could think was 'Matt who?' she giggled to herself 'Matt who indeed...'
*It's a perfect beginning, but it happens that way...* [Embrace, Joydrop]
Japan....
"All set. Let's get this thing going!" Izzy said, standing up from behind the collection of wires, circuits and plastic they were trying to pass as a computer. "Let's turn it on! Tai, if you would do the honours?" Izzy said, pointing to the power button.
"Here goes nothing!" Tai said, as he flipped the switch. The screen came up. Everyone held their breath as Izzy took control of the system. After several minutes of watching Izzy type, a familar box popped on the screen.
"..Izzat???" Matt mutter.
"Oh, that's!" His brother replied, breathlessly.
"The gate..."Cody said, in disbelief.
"Shall we see if it still works the same?" Sora asked, to no one in particular. Kari answered.
"It's worth a shot." She reached back for her digivice, when Tai stopped her.
"No. Wait. We don't know what's gonna happen, so I think a few of us should go in first. How do we even know the Digital world still exists? So, just incase, one, maybe two of us go in to make sure there's somewhere to go. I'm going, if anyone want's to join me, great. But not everyone." Tai said, sternly.
"I'll come." T.K. said, all too quickly.
"Me too." Matt said.
"Fine. The three of us. That's more than enough. If it all works out, the rest of you follow, agreed?" Tai said, turning to the group.
"Agreed." They all said.
"Let's give this a shot."T.K. said, as he held his Digivice to the screen. Everyone backed up, leaving the three guys standing there, looking very stupid, standing ready, one of them holding a piece of metal to the screen, looking very determined. T.K. blinked, and scratched his head. He sighed.
"Hmm. Guess it doesn't wo.." Mid sentence, a bright light surrounded the men. In a flash, they were gone.
".....whoa...." Kari said.
"For a second there, I didn't think it was gonna work." Joe said ,laughing nervously. They all ran back to the computer to see if it had worked. Sure enough, all three of them were safely on the other side, staring back through the screen, waving happily. Or as happily as the three of them could.
"Looks like we're going back." Ken said. The newbies all whipped out there digivices, and held them to the screen. Second later, all of them were standing in the familiar other world in which they grew up. They looked around.
"Whoa."T.K. said, reaching out for Kari's hand.
"Whoa."
Well, That's the end of chapter EIGHT!!!...dear lordy!! I'm almost at ten!! ..tho, i plan to stop this soon, have since the beginning. Chapter 12, then an ending. That's all . Four, maybe four and a half, more chapter *crys* I don't want to stop yet!!!!Questions? Comment? Concerns? Complaints?
A few things to mention..
1. Again, don't be pissed about this Zell shit. It'll all be explained! I don't wanna hear a bunch of "but, why?? Why did you make them kiss?!?" I'm still saying this is a Mimato! I swear, just keep reading!(remember: four years=long time!'specially to teenagers!)
2. You know, no one ever comments on the songs. Just making an observation.
3. See? The plot thickens!!! whoa! Mind blowing!
4.Back in that stupidly named world , they be!(hopefully.....)
5. Tra-la-la! (inside joke...)
Finally, thanks to my dear reviews! *sniff* I love you guys! *breaks down in tears...* sorry, got the grad fever. It's been going around. All the "I'll never see you again"'s ..get's sickening, no da? ('specially when you aren't even graduating yet! I still got me a year!)...anywho.... yes....hmm... thanks to reviews! Cookies all around!!
,Neko Kamiya
This has been in memory of those Anime guys who have gone into the never ending world of reruns ...Heero ..Duo... Trowa.. Van.. Folken .....Tai....T.K... Matt.... Izzy..... love ya boys. Also in memory of those who i have seen the end of (not in death, but in series.)Chichiri..... Tasuki... Tamahome... Nuriko..... Amiboshi...Suboshi...Tatara...Suzaku....and the rest of the FY guys (that show has too many hot bishonen!!)You are forever missed! *glomps the amazing suzaku three...chichiri, tasuki, and nuriko... "you can't leave!!!!MINE!!! (...i guess tama is miaka's....*sigh*) "*.
Ppps Review!!!COME ON!!!!! NOW!! CLICK THAT BUTTON!!! (tee hee..sorry...)
|||Once again, this Fic was written over four years. I know the writing is dreadful, sorry. I just need to finally finish it. Fan Fiction deleted the first one since i broke some ruler without even knowing it, and i never bothered putting it back up. But, now, I just want to see it done. I worked so hard on this, back in the day... hope you all enjoy it.||||