For what…
Desereigh James
Disclaimer: I own nothing it all belongs to J. k. Rowling
Harry fell against the wall. Tears streaked down his white face. His knuckles bled as he punched the ragged stone. Harry ran up to his room and grabbed the silver blade Sirius had given him years ago. He ran out into the hall not caring where he was headed. Remus and Sirius stepped out into the corridor from a doorway where they had been standing.
"Harry stop!" Sirius said, "Harry stop, now." Sirius grabbed the boy as he tried to get passed. Remus grabbed his hands,
"Harry please we know you're upset just… calm down," Remus said calmly. Harry screamed,
"No! Get away from me," He dug his nails into Remus' wrists causing him to let go. Remus gasped as droplets of blood oozed out where Harry had dug his claws. Sirius caught Harry and pushed him to the ground. The older man pinned him down and he could not move. Harry's lower lip quivered,
"You know what Remus… I envy you. I wish I was like you. To have someone I loved there every time. Then when he died the wolf would kill himself and me looking for the pack mate he would never find. Then I wouldn't have to do it myself. Now get off of me Sirius or I'll kill you as I kill myself," Harry said his voice shaky. Sirius started to cry silently as he stepped back. Remus was white,
"Please Harry… We love you so much. Don't do this to us please Harry…" Harry looked at the two men, he cried as he rushed to the nearest bathroom. Slamming the door and placing as many charms as he could think of on it, Harry slid to the ground and cried. He used the knife to slice through his jeans and legs, gasping every time the blade went through his skin. Harry cried and bled. His legs looked as though he had been attacked by thorns. He no longer cried tears but blood as he wrote…
Though everyone tries to help no one understands the pain I go through. My parents… I never knew then and everyone seems to have something to say. It hurts when people talk about the people I have lack of in my life. I defeated the dark lord… for what? He killed the two best friends I ever had and the only person I have ever loved. Draco is gone now… He was the only one that understood me. We were enemies and then I loved him but they took him away from me. They took him away, they tortured him trying to get to me, and it worked… I just ended up killing him because of my stupidity… It was my fault he died… And I have lived with that guilt everyday since then. I can not sleep knowing that I killed him… Nobody knows the pain I go through everyday of this miserable life. I am taking my life to be with those I love and need. I hope that I may walk into my lovers arms once again and be told that I am forgiven… I killed Voldemort… for what?
Harry raised the blade and plunged it deep into his heart as Sirius and Remus burst in. Remus dropped to his knees as Sirius read Harry's final words…
"For what…?"
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