The mourning sun peeled open Kyo's eyelids. He squinted, looking around the empty room
What a dream he thought, it felt so real…
It was dusk; he was leaning out of his window letting the cool breeze gently stroke his face. Each one of his little hairs on his face stood on end. If only it was, her stroking him…
Kyo roughly shook his head at this thought, what was he thinking? There was no chance, not ever…
He turned around deep in thought about everything and nothing… Then he was rooted to the spot as he looked up into the face of…
There she was, standing in the doorway… just… looking at him. Neither of them said a word, they just… looked.
Tohru was the first one to make a move. She walked over slowly to him taking one step at a time. Confusion swirled around Kyo's mind, what was she doing here? But… what was she doing here… with him?
"Kyo…" She had said once she was stood right up close to him pinning slightly against the wall. "Kyo…" Standing on her tiptoes so that her face was level with his she said, "I want you to…" Kyo's eyes widened as he knew what she was about to say. She wanted him to… kiss her! But why! Why him! He had longed to put his lips against hers for so long now. Not knowing whether she was ready or not stopped him though.
Tohru was so close to him… he had to do it now, before it was too late. They both got closer and closer, she drew her body right up close to his. Kyo's mind was nothing but a haze, this was unreal… her hand went to touch the side of his face…
But she stopped! Her body began to draw away from his; Tohru; the only person he loved was being taken away from him. It seemed like forever.
She travelled back slowly at first, but then got faster and faster! Her beautiful eyes went wide with terror. "Kyo!" Fear grew in her voice, she needed someone to help her…HIM! "Please… HELP ME! HELP ME!"
He went out to grab her needing hand that was stretch out toward him… but he couldn't move! His legs rooted to the spot, totally frozen. His heart pounded like an African war drum in his chest. HE NEEDED TO HELP HER!
Tears began to fall softly from her eyes. "Why Kyo…" She asked him, gulping for air. "Why…!" He didn't help her, she needed help! She needed… him!
Then she was gone. There was nothing left to say that she had ever been there but… a few spots of tears on the wooden floor.
He didn't know… why… why didn't he ever…
Kyo shot his head taking in a huge lung full of air. He breathed heavily… it felt, so real…
The burning in his eyes began to fight back… but this time, he would be stronger. Crying was weak… he couldn't be weak!
He didn't understand…she was so close to him, yet… when he didn't 'make a move', she… went away. Was this dream trying to tell him something? If it was, he didn't understand what it was saying.
Anger started to boil up inside of him. WHY DOES MY LIFE HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS? I HATE IT!
Leaping up, he grabbed the nearest thing to him and threw it against the wall with all his might. The lamp shattered to pieces. Kyo looked at it, pure manic engraved into his face, his chest rising and falling with every deep breath he took.
Collapsing to the floor again, the cat burred his head onto his hands…
He felt… so alone. There was no one to help him… there was no one to… love him.
He need to be loved, that's all he wanted… to be loved.
There was only was person he thought was able to do that… but now… like all the other people that loved him, he drove her away.
Alone in the void of darkness were he had lived all of his life, he longed to see a small light that would lead him out… lead him to safety… lead him to be… loved.
But now he sat alone… cold… dark… empty. He would stay like this forever unless; someone took the leap of faith to save him.
But did she still want to do that? Did she still… love him?
"Tohru… I… I, need you…" He didn't know who he was talking to, it might have been himself, he didn't know. But there was one thing he was sure of… he need to be rescued before he was damned to the place of hell in which everyone thought he belonged.
After all… he was the… cat.