Ok now I wrote this thanks to Scott. My friends and family I really hope were not here in spirit because they would think I was very strange. This is for all those people who want love but don't get it. To those who love but don't get it back. To those who need someone but don't have them…

Dead to you

So many times, I have passed you and you don't even look up. So many times, I have waited just to catch your eye for you to turn away. Too many times, I have waited and walked in front of you just for you to look down upon me and walk by as if I was no more than a piece of dirt. I have watched you succeed and fail even when you ignore me and I have kept too many of your secrets without you telling me them.

I am fed up with it. How you seem to have forgotten me and not care. I may be dead to you but I will be alive again soon enough, even if it kills me.

"Hey Kai!" Someone calls, "Come here."

Kai just stood up instead of leaning on the wall and looked at the person. The person, who I believe is called Ray, runs up to Kai and kisses him. I feel horrified but I am getting used to it.

"Come on," says Ray, pulling at Kai's hips, "let's go."

I am up high above in the attack but I can't bare to see him go. I feel a tear roll down my cheek.

I am fed up with Ray taking him away and doing unspeakable things. I run down the ladder outside and then through a small hole in the side of the old house which leads to a pile of hay. He was standing right beside it. Ray was walking away, trying to coax Kai to follow him.

"I am afraid of fear," I whisper so only he can hear it, pausing, I hear his breath hitch, "and it terrifies me."

"Why do you look so pale Kai?" asks Ray, walking back towards Kai. He runs his hand down Kai's face. Kai still doesn't move.

"Ray," he says quietly, "I need to be alone for a moment."

"Why?" asks Ray.

"Please, just trust me," replies Kai.

Ray walks out, not looking happy.

"Who's there?" asks Kai, fear in his voice.

I stand up and Kai looks puzzled, "I don't know you."

At this point, I hit him on his face. His lip began to bleed.

"You fucking psycho," he hisses, "why the hell did you do that?"

"You don't remember me," I reply, "but you remember our words."

"Hang on," says Kai, "I do remember the words but I swear I can't remember you."

"That was why," I say, "You can't remember me. Me! I never forgot you, not for one moment."

"Can we talk later," asks Kai, "I want to remember you. I think I liked you a lot."

"Yeah," I reply coldly, "Where we first met, at midnight."

"But…"he began. I raise my hand

"Remember or never see me again," I walk slowly out, feeling his eyes on me, "and you didn't like me a lot, you loved me."

I get out the door and I run.

I feel my chest heaving and although I know, it is because I am running I think I would be anyway. I talked to him for the first time in so long. It felt so good. I just hope he can find me. He used to be able to feel me there, now he feels nothing for me. Maybe if he remembers, all will be right again and Kai and I will be together again.

Please tell me if you liked or disliked it and if you have any idea of where it is going. I am interested and I will update all my other stories asap

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