TITLE: Cheater
AUTHOR: Me, who else? *Wink*
DISCLAIMER: I own none of the characters. Everything that happens in the story in real-time(not flash backs) is my made up plot, however the flashbacks are all based off of my own personal life. Yep, this is a 75% true story Kiddies. Brace yourselves ;)
CONTENT: S/B with some minor S/Dru, S/other and some minor B/Ang
TIMELINE: This is AU, therfore, there is no timeline. There are years listed though on the flashbacks. Just a warning.
FEEBACK: If I could live off it I would. So come on, feed me. *wink*
DEDICATION: This is dedicated to CJG. You know who you are ;)
SUMMARY: Buffy and Spike have known eachother since Junior High, while on her way to his house she think back over the years about their rocky start and even rockier relationship.
WARNING: This is not Fluffy. This is like real life and as we all know life isn't always happy. I warned you. So no flames that you want me to write something fluffier because I don't do that.
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PRESENT
It hadn't all been peaches and cream though. About a week later Buffy broken up with Spike. She was scared, really scared. What if this turned out to be some sort of rebound thing from Druscilla? Albeit it would be a little late since the last time those two had been an item was the previous summer. Then there's the scarier thought...what if it wasn't? What if the relationship developed into something special, something more? Could she handle that sort of intamc with someone?
All these questions plagued her mind until she couldn't take it and wrote a short letter to him explaining that she didn't think she was 'the one' for him. She could still remember the look on his face when she gave him it...it hurt her. It physically hurt her. It was like being stabbed in the stomache and ripped to shreds until your guts spilled out. She had broken his heart.
One of the things she had vowed to never do was hurt the people she cared about. Especially like that. Buffy sighed and looked out the window of the speeding Jeep. She could still remember his face...
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JANUARY 17, 1998
'Ok..there....'
Buffy signed the letter with a flourish. It was perfect. Completely perfect. She felt really bad about doing this but she had to break it off before they both got in too deep and started caring too much. She folded and signed the outside of the note/letter, making it simple, yet still a little girlish.
'Now comes the hard part...the waiting.'
Buffy sighed and tapped her nails against the desk. Dawn would not be happy. Buffy and Spike were like her little pet-project. Ever since they had gotten together she had been going on and on about 'true-love' and the such. A few complaints from her, Buffy could handle. Losing Spike as a friend however was something she couldn't take. Buffy adjusted her top and grabbed her leather jacket off her seat as the bell rang.
'Maybe I should've chosen a different day to break up with him on. I'm sure any day besides 'Celebrity Dress-Up' Day would've been better. I know I'm dressed to quite literally kill at the moment.'
Buffy was dressed as her favorite Television character, "Sarah, from 'Sarah The Demon Hunter' ". The costume included wearing a pair of tight lycra black pants, chunky high-heeled shoes, a black leather jacket, and a purple and blue striped tank-top. The pants hugged her hips and legs like a second skin and although the weather didn't require the Jacket, it made her look even more kick-ass then she would have otherwise.
As she walked out of her class to her usual table at Lunch she began having second doubts. These doubts multiplied when she saw him. Spike smiled at her when he saw her. She smiled weakly back.
'Maybe I should have Lunch first...'
She walked with her friends to their table across the Quad. She could feel his eyes following her and her appetite left her. Her friends got up except for a couple that had already been sitting at the table with their lunches and got in line at the snack carts to buy lunch.
"I'm not hungry, you guys go ahead." Buffy said when a couple of her friends stayed behind because she wasn't moving. She sat there, feeling the hot sun on her back and closed her eyes for a moment with her palms resting on her temples.
'God, What am I doing...I can't do this to him. It could make things worse for all I know...'
Buffy reached into her jacket pocket and grabbed the letter. She sat there looking at it until her friends came back.
"What's that?" Anya asked curiously, pointing at the note Buffy held.
Buffy couldn't take it anymore, she had to tell them. They would find out anyway if she went through with it. "I'm thinking of breaking up with Spike."
Dawn spit out her soda, much to the disgust of Willow and anyone else sitting next to her. "What?!?" She shrieked in full banshee-mode, "You can't break up with Spike!"
"Why not?" Buffy questioned her, meeting Dawn's eyes in a defiant stare. This was HER business. HER relationship. If she wanted to call it off, she could and she would.
"Because....You just...you can't....it's not...." Dawn sputtered before slumping in defeat as Willow patted her back soothingly. "It's just not right, Buffy. He really loves you. And you love him too! I know you do!"
Buffy sighed and tucked the letter back into her pocket. "I don't know Dawn, I mean, I used to. But then I thought he didn't like me and I resigned myself to that fact and for a year I've been moving on! How can you still love someone after that?"
Dawn shook her head at her and sighed, "I don't know, but can't you at least try?"
"I have tried! And I failed and I don't want him to get any deeper in this than he already is. I don't want to lose my friend. We were such great friends before this, and I don't want to lose that." Buffy sighed and looked into her lap as her friend Tara gently hugged her.
"Alright," Dawn resigned, "I just hope you know what your doing. This might make the whole 'friend' situation worse than it already is. Did you ever think he might hate you if you break his heart?"
Buffy considered this for a moment. She had thought that this might make it worse, but never to the point of him hating her. She didn't think he could hate her. At least she hoped he couldn't.
"It's my decision Dawn. And I don't know if it's what's best. But i'm gonna have to try it." Dawn said with finality.
Dawn and the rest of the table nodded, like a tribal council that had reached it's decision.
Buffy got up and grabbed her bag. "Now, who's coming with me?"
At once all the people at the table grabbed their bags and proceeded to follow her. Buffy rolled her eyes. "You can't ALL come. It might look a tad suspicous if I have an entourage. Willow, and the twins will come with me to deliver the letter, the rest of you can hang back until it's over. Ok?"
Everyone agreed with this statement and Willow, Tara, and Darla followed Buffy while the rest of the table kept at a far enough distance to hear what was being said but still remain anonymous. As she walked towards his table she saw him take notice of her and she could feel Willow and the twins hang back.
"Hey Spike..." She greeted awkwardly, he smiled at her like a puppy been given a treat.
'Not gonna make this any easier are ya?'
"Can I uhhh...talk to you...alone?" She said, gesturing to his friends. His smile grew and she felt her heart grow heavy.
"Yeah, sure." He smiled again and slid off the bench he had pulled up to the table he and his friends were sitting at. He was walking with her towards a tree not too far away from his table when his friend Jesse ran up to him and slapped a condom into his hand. "Hey Spike, use a rubber." He winked at Buffy before running back to the table where Spike's friends were laughing so hard various liguids were spurting out of their noses.
'Oh god this is hard.......'
Spike apologized for his friend and pocketed the condom. "What did you want to talk to me about?"
Buffy looked down and sighed heavily, running a hand through her hair. "It's just a....I just wanted to..." She met his eyes, BIG mistake. It wasn't until everything grew blurry that she realized that her own eyes were tearing up.
Spike was looking at her with all seriousness now. He knew something was bothering her and that made it all the harder for her to break up with him.
"Here." She said as she thrust the letter out to him. That was when he got it. He looked at the letter, then at her, then back at the letter. He sighed and squinted almost as though he was in pain as he took the letter and stuffed it into his jeans pocket.
"Spike I'm-"
He held up a hand interrupting her. He then looked at her, and the look on his face made her eyes water to the brim with tears. She felt a terrible pain inside and knew she had just killed something that could have been beautiful. She bit her lower lip and opened her mouth to speak but she couldn't. She felt like she was gonna cry. She closed her eyes and lowered her head before turning around and walking away from him.
Willow and the twins ran up to him asking him if he was alright and if he needed anything.
'Well if he didn't know he'd been dumped, he sure as hell knows now.'
Buffy could hear them fawning over him like a newborn babe and shook her head in disgust at their behavior.
Dawn walked up to her and looked her in the eye. Buffy just shook her head. "How did it go?" Dawn asked
"Let's put it this way," Buffy said, pausing as she felt a tear roll down her cheek, "You were right. And I think I'm going to be sick. Spike is probably worse. Go. Comfort him. Your his friend too."
Dawn nodded and walked past Buffy before pausing and hugging her friend. "I'm sorry Buffy. I truly am. It's my fault, I set you two up."
Buffy shrugged her friend off, "No Dawn, don't be sorry. It's not your fault. It's mine. I guess some lessons you learn too late..."
Buffy walked off towards GYM, she had a few friends who hung out there during lunch who wouldn't mind holding her while she cried. As she walked she could feel all of Spike's friends staring at her with hatred in their eyes, she could hear nearly all of her friends comforting him, but all she could see was Spike's face as his heart was broken by the one person he thought he could trust.
'Oh yeah, going straight to hell for this one...'
TBC...
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AUTHOR: Me, who else? *Wink*
DISCLAIMER: I own none of the characters. Everything that happens in the story in real-time(not flash backs) is my made up plot, however the flashbacks are all based off of my own personal life. Yep, this is a 75% true story Kiddies. Brace yourselves ;)
CONTENT: S/B with some minor S/Dru, S/other and some minor B/Ang
TIMELINE: This is AU, therfore, there is no timeline. There are years listed though on the flashbacks. Just a warning.
FEEBACK: If I could live off it I would. So come on, feed me. *wink*
DEDICATION: This is dedicated to CJG. You know who you are ;)
SUMMARY: Buffy and Spike have known eachother since Junior High, while on her way to his house she think back over the years about their rocky start and even rockier relationship.
WARNING: This is not Fluffy. This is like real life and as we all know life isn't always happy. I warned you. So no flames that you want me to write something fluffier because I don't do that.
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PRESENT
It hadn't all been peaches and cream though. About a week later Buffy broken up with Spike. She was scared, really scared. What if this turned out to be some sort of rebound thing from Druscilla? Albeit it would be a little late since the last time those two had been an item was the previous summer. Then there's the scarier thought...what if it wasn't? What if the relationship developed into something special, something more? Could she handle that sort of intamc with someone?
All these questions plagued her mind until she couldn't take it and wrote a short letter to him explaining that she didn't think she was 'the one' for him. She could still remember the look on his face when she gave him it...it hurt her. It physically hurt her. It was like being stabbed in the stomache and ripped to shreds until your guts spilled out. She had broken his heart.
One of the things she had vowed to never do was hurt the people she cared about. Especially like that. Buffy sighed and looked out the window of the speeding Jeep. She could still remember his face...
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JANUARY 17, 1998
'Ok..there....'
Buffy signed the letter with a flourish. It was perfect. Completely perfect. She felt really bad about doing this but she had to break it off before they both got in too deep and started caring too much. She folded and signed the outside of the note/letter, making it simple, yet still a little girlish.
'Now comes the hard part...the waiting.'
Buffy sighed and tapped her nails against the desk. Dawn would not be happy. Buffy and Spike were like her little pet-project. Ever since they had gotten together she had been going on and on about 'true-love' and the such. A few complaints from her, Buffy could handle. Losing Spike as a friend however was something she couldn't take. Buffy adjusted her top and grabbed her leather jacket off her seat as the bell rang.
'Maybe I should've chosen a different day to break up with him on. I'm sure any day besides 'Celebrity Dress-Up' Day would've been better. I know I'm dressed to quite literally kill at the moment.'
Buffy was dressed as her favorite Television character, "Sarah, from 'Sarah The Demon Hunter' ". The costume included wearing a pair of tight lycra black pants, chunky high-heeled shoes, a black leather jacket, and a purple and blue striped tank-top. The pants hugged her hips and legs like a second skin and although the weather didn't require the Jacket, it made her look even more kick-ass then she would have otherwise.
As she walked out of her class to her usual table at Lunch she began having second doubts. These doubts multiplied when she saw him. Spike smiled at her when he saw her. She smiled weakly back.
'Maybe I should have Lunch first...'
She walked with her friends to their table across the Quad. She could feel his eyes following her and her appetite left her. Her friends got up except for a couple that had already been sitting at the table with their lunches and got in line at the snack carts to buy lunch.
"I'm not hungry, you guys go ahead." Buffy said when a couple of her friends stayed behind because she wasn't moving. She sat there, feeling the hot sun on her back and closed her eyes for a moment with her palms resting on her temples.
'God, What am I doing...I can't do this to him. It could make things worse for all I know...'
Buffy reached into her jacket pocket and grabbed the letter. She sat there looking at it until her friends came back.
"What's that?" Anya asked curiously, pointing at the note Buffy held.
Buffy couldn't take it anymore, she had to tell them. They would find out anyway if she went through with it. "I'm thinking of breaking up with Spike."
Dawn spit out her soda, much to the disgust of Willow and anyone else sitting next to her. "What?!?" She shrieked in full banshee-mode, "You can't break up with Spike!"
"Why not?" Buffy questioned her, meeting Dawn's eyes in a defiant stare. This was HER business. HER relationship. If she wanted to call it off, she could and she would.
"Because....You just...you can't....it's not...." Dawn sputtered before slumping in defeat as Willow patted her back soothingly. "It's just not right, Buffy. He really loves you. And you love him too! I know you do!"
Buffy sighed and tucked the letter back into her pocket. "I don't know Dawn, I mean, I used to. But then I thought he didn't like me and I resigned myself to that fact and for a year I've been moving on! How can you still love someone after that?"
Dawn shook her head at her and sighed, "I don't know, but can't you at least try?"
"I have tried! And I failed and I don't want him to get any deeper in this than he already is. I don't want to lose my friend. We were such great friends before this, and I don't want to lose that." Buffy sighed and looked into her lap as her friend Tara gently hugged her.
"Alright," Dawn resigned, "I just hope you know what your doing. This might make the whole 'friend' situation worse than it already is. Did you ever think he might hate you if you break his heart?"
Buffy considered this for a moment. She had thought that this might make it worse, but never to the point of him hating her. She didn't think he could hate her. At least she hoped he couldn't.
"It's my decision Dawn. And I don't know if it's what's best. But i'm gonna have to try it." Dawn said with finality.
Dawn and the rest of the table nodded, like a tribal council that had reached it's decision.
Buffy got up and grabbed her bag. "Now, who's coming with me?"
At once all the people at the table grabbed their bags and proceeded to follow her. Buffy rolled her eyes. "You can't ALL come. It might look a tad suspicous if I have an entourage. Willow, and the twins will come with me to deliver the letter, the rest of you can hang back until it's over. Ok?"
Everyone agreed with this statement and Willow, Tara, and Darla followed Buffy while the rest of the table kept at a far enough distance to hear what was being said but still remain anonymous. As she walked towards his table she saw him take notice of her and she could feel Willow and the twins hang back.
"Hey Spike..." She greeted awkwardly, he smiled at her like a puppy been given a treat.
'Not gonna make this any easier are ya?'
"Can I uhhh...talk to you...alone?" She said, gesturing to his friends. His smile grew and she felt her heart grow heavy.
"Yeah, sure." He smiled again and slid off the bench he had pulled up to the table he and his friends were sitting at. He was walking with her towards a tree not too far away from his table when his friend Jesse ran up to him and slapped a condom into his hand. "Hey Spike, use a rubber." He winked at Buffy before running back to the table where Spike's friends were laughing so hard various liguids were spurting out of their noses.
'Oh god this is hard.......'
Spike apologized for his friend and pocketed the condom. "What did you want to talk to me about?"
Buffy looked down and sighed heavily, running a hand through her hair. "It's just a....I just wanted to..." She met his eyes, BIG mistake. It wasn't until everything grew blurry that she realized that her own eyes were tearing up.
Spike was looking at her with all seriousness now. He knew something was bothering her and that made it all the harder for her to break up with him.
"Here." She said as she thrust the letter out to him. That was when he got it. He looked at the letter, then at her, then back at the letter. He sighed and squinted almost as though he was in pain as he took the letter and stuffed it into his jeans pocket.
"Spike I'm-"
He held up a hand interrupting her. He then looked at her, and the look on his face made her eyes water to the brim with tears. She felt a terrible pain inside and knew she had just killed something that could have been beautiful. She bit her lower lip and opened her mouth to speak but she couldn't. She felt like she was gonna cry. She closed her eyes and lowered her head before turning around and walking away from him.
Willow and the twins ran up to him asking him if he was alright and if he needed anything.
'Well if he didn't know he'd been dumped, he sure as hell knows now.'
Buffy could hear them fawning over him like a newborn babe and shook her head in disgust at their behavior.
Dawn walked up to her and looked her in the eye. Buffy just shook her head. "How did it go?" Dawn asked
"Let's put it this way," Buffy said, pausing as she felt a tear roll down her cheek, "You were right. And I think I'm going to be sick. Spike is probably worse. Go. Comfort him. Your his friend too."
Dawn nodded and walked past Buffy before pausing and hugging her friend. "I'm sorry Buffy. I truly am. It's my fault, I set you two up."
Buffy shrugged her friend off, "No Dawn, don't be sorry. It's not your fault. It's mine. I guess some lessons you learn too late..."
Buffy walked off towards GYM, she had a few friends who hung out there during lunch who wouldn't mind holding her while she cried. As she walked she could feel all of Spike's friends staring at her with hatred in their eyes, she could hear nearly all of her friends comforting him, but all she could see was Spike's face as his heart was broken by the one person he thought he could trust.
'Oh yeah, going straight to hell for this one...'
TBC...
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