Chapter 4

They both felt a rush of energy and for a moment, they felt as if they were in nothingness. Then they felt their feet upon a floor. They opened their eyes and saw that they were in Ravens room once more. Their mirrors were lying on the ground, still attached. Beast Boy picked the mirrors up and tried to separate them, but they were stuck.

"I guess we don't really have a choice," said Beast Boy. "Our minds are just going to be stuck together."

"I really don't want to think about it right now," said Raven sitting down on her bed. Beast Boy set the mirrors down on her bureau and then sat down next to her.

"You okay?" he asked sweetly.

"I don't know," she said in a sigh. "You?"

"Dunno," he said back in a similar sigh. "Still a little shocked, I guess"

"Yeah, me too," said Raven. Then she suddenly fell backwards onto her bed and covered her face. "How could I have been so stupid?"

"What do you mean?" asked Beast Boy.

"I should never have put all the information on those meditation mirrors in my subconscious," she said shaking her head. Beast Boy laid back and turned onto his side next to her. "I should have realized the risk I was taking by getting you one. I should have asked the monks if the mirrors were…" She suddenly stopped and took her hands away from her face, her eyes wide. "They knew. They knew! They knew that I was destined to get that other mirror. They gave me one of the pairs of mirrors on purpose because they knew that I would someday go searching for the other one. Oh I've been so goddamn stupid!" She began pounding her fists against her head.

"Hey, calm down," said Beast Boy restraining her hands. "There's no reason to go beating your self up over this."

"I have plenty of reason," said Raven, looking at him with sad eyes.

"No you don't," said Beast Boy with a smile, trying to comfort her. "Like the Knowledges said, this was all meant to be. So, as much as we refuse to believe it, we have to accept it, I guess. I'm just as responsible for this as you are."

"But you're not responsible at all."

"I know."

Raven looked at him for a moment and then gave a small smile. It wasn't forced, it wasn't fake. It was a real smile, an innocent, much needed, smile. Beast Boy smiled back and let go of her hands. The times she had smiled like that were few and far between, so he enjoyed this one as much as he could, for they were very rare. Then Ravens smile slowly faded. She felt something odd, but slightly familiar, in the pit of her stomach. Beast Boy's smile faded as well, for he felt what she was feeling. They couldn't help feeling and knowing what that other felt and knew, their minds were as one now.

Ravens Brave did her best to keep Beast Boy's Affection back, and Beast Boy's Brave did the same with Ravens Affection. They had been trying to get back together ever since they had been parted by the real Raven and Beast Boy. But the two Braves did not seem tired yet.

"But she's the love of my life!" said Beast Boy's Affection.

"Orders are orders you gooey mush ball," said Ravens Brave shoving him back.

"He's what completes me," cried Ravens Affection.

"You're not gettin past me," said Beast Boy's Brave holding her tightly so that she couldn't move.

"Raven, I love you!" called out Beast Boy's Affection.

"I love you, Beast Boy!" Raven's Affection called back. They continued to battle the two Braves to get back to one another, but the Braves wouldn't have it.

Then the two Braves stopped, as did the Affections. Something was changing in Beast Boy and Ravens minds. The rules were being rearranged and this meant that the two Braves were being given new instructions. The Braves looked at the Affection that they were restraining and suddenly grabbed them by the arm, thrusting them at the other Affection. "Go!" the two Braves called out together.

"You know you want her!" called out Beast Boy's Brave. "Don't hold back now!"

"Don't be scared!" called out Ravens Brave. "Go get him!"

Their hearts were racing, as they had been when their Affections had been together. They were lying next to each other, frozen. Their eyes were gazing into each other and it seemed as if the world around them was melting away. They barely noticed that they were leaning closer together. It wasn't until they could feel the others breath on their lips did they realize how close they actually were. But it was too late to turn back by then. Each slowly closed their eyes and let their lips meet.

A spark was sent through their bodies that made every part of them tingle. It was a similar feeling they had felt before, but this time it was different. They were the ones kissing, not just the emotions in their mind. Their lips slowly parted, but only for a moment. That kiss was the unsure kiss. Now they leaned in and kissed for real. All the thoughts in their heads vanished, even though all of their emotions were screaming with approval and joy.

Raven placed her hand behind Beast Boy's head and pulled him in closer. Beast Boy wrapped his arms around her body and pulled her closer. She then wrapped her arms around his neck and lay onto her back, pulling him on top of her. They both moaned with pleasure through their gasps for air. Raven ran her fingers through Beast Boys grass green hair. Beast Boy cupped one of her breasts in his hand and massaged it. Their tongues did not battle, but danced together.

Suddenly Raven pulled away. "Wait! What the hell are we doing?"

Beast Boy looked at her, a little confused. "Uh… I think we were making out."

They looked at each other for a few moments, and then both released their grip of the other. They sat up, moved, and sat at the end of the bed, wondering what the hell had just happened. Their hearts were still racing and their hair was horrible askew. They sat there for a few minutes in silence. Finally, Beast Boy couldn't take it any longer.

"Well… that was… unexpected," he said with a nervous laugh.

"Yup," Raven said simply. She could usually think of something intelligence to say, but not now. She was at a loss for words. She had never seen something like this happening.

"So… what do we do now?"

"I don't know." She started fixing her hair. She felt quite embarrassed and knew that she must have been blushing.

"I guess it was inevitable," said Beast Boy sighing. "And, I have to admit, it wasn't as weird as I thought it would be."

"That's true," said Raven looking at him. He gave her a small smile and she gave him a weak one. "It was actually kind of… nice."

"Best kiss I've ever gotten," said Beast Boy.

"Mine too," said Raven. "But, that's not really saying anything."

"And what's that supposed to mean?"

"Well… that was my… first kiss." Raven was positive she was blushing now and she turned away.

"No way," said Beast Boy, trying to keep his jaw from dropping. "Are you serious? That was your first kiss?"

"Yes," said Raven shyly. "And please don't ask any questions on why I haven't kissed a guy before."

"I think I should get some sort of explanation.

"Fine. I haven't kissed a guy before because I was… scared, scared of my powers. Since they're driven by emotions I figured that if I ever kissed anyone my powers would make everything around me explode."

"Well nothing happened when we kissed, so I guess you were scared for nothing."

"Nothing happened because we're soul mates, evidently. Twin souls that have been separated. Because of that you're the only person in the universe that is immune to my powers."

"Cool!" She gave him a death look. "Well… it is," he said innocently. Raven rolled her eyes and stood up.

"Okay, let's assess the situation," she said pacing back and forth, trying to organize her thoughts. "You and I are destined to be one another's only loves." She paused for a moment and let this sink in. "Our minds are now joined together as one for the rest of our lives. Now all we have to do is tell the others and figure out how the hell we're going to make this work." She stopped and placed her head in her hands. "Oh this fucking sucks."

Beast Boy watched her and knew exactly what was going through her mind. Well, it wasn't like he had a choice. "You're still in denial," he said standing up.

"What?" she asked through her hands.

"You're still in denial, Raven," he said again, walking to her. "You just won't accept that you and me are supposed to be together. That's why you're all stressed out about this."

"And you've accepted it?" she asked putting her hands down, not really believing him.

"Well, yeah, I guess," he said. "I mean, at first it was a little… unexpected, but I've slowly gotten used to the idea. If this is what's supposed to be, then I'm not unhappy with it."

"You're just saying that because we made out," she said brushing past him and going to her burrow to grab her hairbrush. "If we hadn't kissed you'd be just as… unsure… about this as I am."

"So our kissing meant nothing to you?" he asked not believing her.

"Well… not as much as it means to you," she said brushing her hair as if she was calm. "I mean, you're a guy and you're twenty-one. You only have one thing on your mind."

"And you're telling me that you never have that particular thought on your mind?"

"It doesn't matter if I do or don't. Guys can't suppress their natural urges like women can."

"Well I have!"

"Oh really."

"Yes, really."

"So, you're telling me that you're a virgin?" she laughed and placed her brush down. Beast Boy was quiet, his face blushing. He scratched the back of his head and turned away from her. Raven had expected a quick response, but when she didn't get one she was caught off guard. She turned back towards him. "You're a virgin?" Again, he didn't answer. She could tell that he was embarrassed about it. "Jesus, Beast Boy, I'm… sorry. I didn't mean to…"

"What? I'm not ashamed about it," he said quickly, trying to sound cool. "I mean, so what? I'm a virgin, but so are you."

"Yeah, but you're a hot young superhero! I would have thought that you'd have lost your virginity to some star crazed fan when you were fourteen. I'm… proud of you."

"Really?" asked Beast Boy, quite shocked.

"Yeah," said Raven smiling. "I guess I was kind of wrong about you. I mean, here I've been thinking that you're like every other horny guy out there, but you've actually managed to keep control of your hormones. That's so… mature of you."

"Uh… thanks," said Beast Boy feeling a little better about his virgin situation. Then something occurred to him. "Hey, did you call me hot?"

"Huh?"

"You said that I was a hot young superhero," said Beast Boy raising an eyebrow and smiling. "You think I'm hot."

Raven realized that she had let that slip out and now she was the one blushing once again. "So?" she asked turning away.

"Well I do declare," said Beast Boy with a southern accent. "I believe you just might feel attracted towards me, Miss Raven."

"Oh shut up," she growled. Her cheeks were really feeling hot now.

Beast Boy walked over to her, but she turned her back towards him. He leaned in close to her and said, "I think you're beautiful."

Raven turned around and found herself face to face with a smiling Beast Boy. "You… you think I'm… beautiful?" she asked hesitantly. She had never felt so vulnerable in her whole life than in those few moments when she stared at Beast Boy, waiting for his answer.

"Of course I do," said Beast Boy as if it was common knowledge. "I've always thought you were beautiful. I mean, who wouldn't?"

"Well… me for one," she said looking down.

"You don't think you're beautiful?" he asked stunned.

"I've never thought that."

"What! Never?" Raven just kept staring down at the floor. She felt so pitiful. She really wished he wasn't there, she was feeling rather uncomfortable at this point. She knew why she never felt beautiful. It was because no one had ever said that she was attractive in anyway. But that was only because she pushed everyone away from her, so they never got a chance to. She hated being so smart. She hated that she knew why she didn't feel beautiful. Beast Boy felt all of these things coming out of her. He reached out and pulled her into his arms, hugging her. "I know how you're feeling, Raven. There's no way for you to hide your emotions from me anymore. The walls are down."