Anything But Mine

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this story. It is for entertainment purposes only.

Set up: Sirius Black never died. This story is set three years after the trio left Hogwarts.

Summary: Sirius has fallen for her. The only problem is that she is marrying someone else. I just don't see how you could ever be anything but mine.

A/N: The first three paragraphs of this chapter gave me a visual that left me gasping for air and soaked in drool.

I would like to take a moment to offer my thoughts and prayers to everyone affected by Hurricane Katrina along the Gulf Coast. I am praying for all of you, and we are doing all we can here in Ohio to help.

Honest reviews please, I am not impressed with this chapter, but after re-reading it three times, I couldn't find anything else to do with it.

Chapter 13- Paralyzed

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Oh, it's a strange desire
you can not lie
that's a needless fight
This is where your sanity gives in
and love begins
Never lose your grip
don't trip
don't fall
you'll lose it all

Paralyzed - The Cardigans

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Sirius listened to Hermione in his bathroom getting dressed. He sat there for only a moment before jumping out of bed. Throwing on his black boxers, he stormed out of his room and threw open the bathroom door.

Hermione was leaning against the counter, tears running down her cheeks. She had dressed quickly, and her curls were pulled up in a sloppy ponytail. The anger Sirius felt disappeared quickly. "Are you okay?" he whispered.

Hermione looked up to see Sirius, wearing only a pair of black boxers, looking at her with concern in his eyes. She smiled weakly. "Shouldn't you be screaming at me?"

Sirius leaned against the doorframe, crossing his arms. "I would never yell at you, no matter what."

"I have to do what is right, no matter what your or anyone else thinks. I wasn't raised to run from my problems. I have avoided them long enough. What happened between us last night was wrong." she said softly. "It was nice, but it was wrong. I know you were just trying to make me feel better and show me I'm not a bad person, and I appreciate it, but I have to go home now."

Sirius stared at her. Did she actually think he slept with her only out of pity? "Hermione, until last night, I hadn't slept with a woman since before I went to Azkaban." he said. "I wanted to wait until it was right. I wouldn't sleep with you strictly out of pity."

She looked up at him with red eyes. "Then I don't understand what happened, and right now I don't think I want to understand, it will make all of this worse."

"So you are just going to leave? Go back to Ron after he cheated on you?" Sirius snapped.

She moved away from the counter, standing in the middle of the bathroom. "I cheated on him!" she cried. "I'm not any better now."

Sirius threw his hands up in the air. "Damn it Hermione. What happened last night was different!"

"How?" she asked. "How was me having sex with you any different then Ron having sex with that girl?" she sighed. "I need to go." she said, stepping past him and walking down the hall.

"Because we didn't have sex. I wasn't having sex with you. I made love to you…" he said softly to her retreating form.

She paused but didn't turn around. "Is there really a difference Sirius?" she mumbled, and then with a pop she was gone.

Sirius sat down on the top step, staring into space. Sirius knew he had been right all along, she would never love someone as old and ruined as he was. Last night had been a moment of desperation and lust on her part.

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"What do you mean she never came home?" Fred asked Harry, pouring a cup of coffee.

"I mean Hermione didn't come home at all. Ron didn't either, I thought they were together." Harry explained, feeling a brick drop in his stomach. He had thought Ron was trying to make things work by taking Hermione away overnight.

Fred sighed, sipping the hot liquid. "Harry, do you know who Brenda is?" he asked.

Harry sat his cup down slowly. "What happened Fred?" he asked as calm as he could.

"So you know everything?" Fred asked, seeing a sudden understanding flash in his brother-in-law's eyes.

Harry nodded, waiting on the twin to continue.

"Hermione walked in on Ron shagging her last night in the storeroom. Hermione apparated out and I haven't seen her since. I fired Brenda right away and Ron left after that."

Harry sat for a moment, feeling many things at once. He felt awful for Hermione, who must be hurting. But most of all, Harry felt betrayed. He had believed Ron when he promised to fix things just the day before. "I see." he said calmly.

Fred saw the anger in Harry's bright green eyes. "I was hoping she came home last night. I was getting worried about her."

"Where is Ron?" Harry asked through gritted teeth.

Fred shrugged. "I'm not sure. He followed Brenda out, I don't know if he stayed with her."

"Hermione probably went to Remus'. Ginny!" he called out.

Fred raised his eyebrow but didn't say anything. His baby sister came bouncing in the room moments later. "Morning." she said, kissing Fred's cheek before plopping down in Harry's lap.

Harry gently pushed her back out of his lap. "Ginny, I need you to send a message to Tonks, use Hedwig. Make sure Hermione is with her and Remus."

"What's going on?" she asked, her eyes filling with concern.

"Hermione walked in on Ron shagging Brenda last night." Harry said.

"RON DID WHAT?" Ginny yelled, sounding like her mom.

"He was with Brenda." Fred repeated.

The look in Ginny's eyes was pure evil. "I'll kill him." she muttered.

"Not if I get him first." Harry and Fred both said at the same time.

"Look, instead of sending Hedwig, I'll just go over and see if she is there, if she is, she might need me." Ginny said.

"Okay. Let me know as soon as possible." Harry said, leaning up in his chair to kiss her softly.

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Ron woke up slowly, rubbing his eyes. He looked around and didn't recognize anything. Sitting up quickly, he realized he was in a room at the Leaky Cauldron. Slowly, the events of last night came rushing back at him.

Kissing Brenda with passion, his zipper being pulled down, the feeling of being inside her, Hermione walking in, the look on her face, the look in Fred's eyes. Brenda laughing, Fred firing her. They came back here and Ron wanted to go find Hermione. Brenda had left, angry at Ron.

Ron had sat down, thinking about everything. Knowing he was wrong, and knowing he had to fix things, he had sent Pig out with a letter to Hermione.

Ron knew she had run to Sirius and Remus for comfort and a place to stay, so he sent Pig there. Reaching down to grab his clothes, Ron started for the shower. He needed to clean up and go home. Hermione would be there by then and they could talk this out.

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"What do you mean she caught him?" Tonks asked, her voice barely a deadly whisper.

Ginny shook her head. "I don't know any details. I just know Fred was there and said Hermione walked in on Ron shagging Brenda. Fred flipped out on Brenda and fired her. He said Hermione left without a tear in her eye. I figured she would have come here."

"She might have, but we were not home. The end of the full moon was last night, so Remus was away. I went and stayed with an old friend of mine."

"Honey, I'm home!" an extremely tired but cheerful voice called out from the living room.

"We are in the kitchen." Tonks called out.

Ginny turned around as Remus walked in, looking worn out and tired. There were fresh scratches around his nose and chin. He had on a fresh robe, but the shredded one in his hand was evidence of his transformation.

"Good morning Ginny." he said, smiling at the redhead. He walked over and kissed Tonks on the cheek. "Why all the long faces?" he asked, yawning.

"Hermione caught Ron cheating last night and nobody knows where she is now." Tonks said.

Remus spun around from the coffee maker. "WHAT?" he asked, his eyes flashing yellow, showing the wolf wasn't completely gone yet.

Ginny cowered against her chair, not use to the werewolf's anger. "She walked in on Ron and Brenda last night." she squeaked.

"What do you mean nobody knows where she is?" Remus asked, trying to keep his anger at bay.

"She left the shop without telling Fred where she was going. We thought she might have come here, but I just found out you both were gone." Ginny explained. "Where else would she have gone?"

Tonks looked over at Remus. "You don't think?" she asked.

Remus looked at her for a moment. "I'll go check now." he said, before disappearing with a pop.

Ginny looked back at Tonks. "Where did he go?"

"To see if she is with Sirius." Tonks answered.

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"Now is not a good time." Sirius said as Remus appeared in his bedroom.

"Put your pants on." Remus muttered, sniffing the room. "You slept with her."

Sirius spun around. "How did…." he paused. "Never mind. Damn werewolf." he muttered.

"Where is she now? Everyone is worried sick about her." Remus asked.

Sirius zipped up his jeans. "She got an owl from Ron, asking her to come home and try again." Sirius paused. "So she went."

"She left you? After you told her how you felt?" Remus asked, he was sure Hermione would feel the same away about Sirius.

Sirius pulled a sweater down over his head. "I didn't tell her how I felt."

"What!" Remus said. "You slept her with but didn't tell her how you felt?"

"The owl came before I could. She thought I slept with her out of sympathy." Sirius said. "I told you she would never see me as anything but Harry's godfather, even after sleeping with me."

"After sleeping with her, how do you see her?" Remus asked.

"Honestly? I don't see her as anything but mine." Sirius said, his voice had an edge of possession to it.

"Come back with me. We need to tell Ginny and Tonks she is okay." Remus said.

"Fine." Sirius growled, trying to hide his broken heart.

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"I already know. Harry sent Hedwig over with a message and Ginny left to go back." Tonks said when Remus and Sirius appeared and told her Hermione went home.

"We need to do something now." Remus said. "This has to stop."

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"Hello?" Ron called out, entering the Burrow's kitchen. He stepped around the corner and was thrown against the wall by his older brother.

"What the hell are you doing?" Ron snapped at Fred.

"Do you have any idea what you have done?" Fred snapped back.

"It's not all my fault. Hermione never tried. She never gave us a chance!" Ron said. The words were barely out of his mouth when Harry swung from beside Fred, punching Ron right in the nose.

"You were the one who skipped your own engagement party! You invited your mistress to your wedding! Don't you dare blame this on her. She was…" Harry snarled.

"She was lusting after Sirius!" Ron interrupted, his voice distorted by the blood from his nose.

Fred swung this time, colliding with Ron's cheek. This time Ron swung back, making contact with Harry, breaking his glasses. In a matter of seconds, the three of them were swinging fists wildly.

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"Are you sure you are okay?" Ginny asked Hermione, sitting down beside her on the bed.

Hermione shrugged. "I don't know. I know I really need to talk to Ron, and at the same time I don't want to."

"Tonks said you might have been at Sirius' last night. Were you?" Ginny asked.

"I don't want to talk about last night." Hermione said, her cheeks turning pink.

"Okay…What was that?" Ginny asked. Both girls paused as they heard something break.

"It came from the ktichen." Hermione said.

"Let's go." Ginny said.

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"WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON HERE?" Ginny cried out, hands on her hips as she entered the kitchen, Hermione behind her.

Fred paused and looked up at his sister and Hermione. Ron and Harry didn't even notice they had entered the room.

"Stop it!" Hermione cried out weakly. She stepped up, grabbing Harry by the arm, trying to get between them. "Stop it!" She tried to wedge herself further between them, but Harry swung his fist at the same time, punching her right in the eye.

Hermione cried out, grabbing her eye and ducking. Harry looked down in horror. "Hermione!" he cried out. "Are you okay?"

"Just stop it. Everyone just stop it!" she cried out again.

"YOU HIT HER!" Ron cried, throwing himself back at Harry.

Ginny wrapped her arm around Hermione. She looked up at Fred who was now standing against the wall, his lip split and his own eye turning black. "Get her out of here!" he snapped at his sister.

Ginny nodded and wrapped her arm tighter around Hermione, taking her back to Tonks.

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"What is it?" Remus cried out when Ginny appeared in his kitchen, holding Hermione up with one arm.

"They won't stop!" Hermione said. "Remus you have to go break them up. Ron is throwing punches." she said, looking up at them.

Tonks put her hand to her mouth, gasping. Remus' eyes turned yellow with rage, his face distorted into a look of ugly anger. Sirius felt his stomach drop out. He had let her go back to this. A blind rage filled him, and without saying a word, he apparated out of the kitchen.

Hermione was confused for only a moment, before seeing her reflection in the mirror against the back wall. Her eye had already turned black and swelled up.

"No! Ron didn't do this. Harry hit me by accident when I tried to break them up!" she cried out.

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Sirius appeared with a loud pop, but nether Harry nor Ron noticed. He quickly reached down and grabbed his godson with one hand, pulling him off of Ron and pushing him back.

"Thanks man…" Ron started to say, panting.

Sirius spun around and grabbed Ron by the neck, slamming him against the wall. "How could you hit her!" Sirius yelled, his voice loud and angry. "She doesn't deserve it. You should have never raised a hand to her!"

"I…" Ron choked out, his vision starting to turn black. "Stop… I…."

"You fucking hit her!" Sirius cried out again in a blind rage. "I'll kill you…."