Anything But Mine
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this story. It is for entertainment purposes only.
Set up: Sirius Black never died. This story is set three years after the trio left Hogwarts.
Summary: Sirius has fallen for her. The only problem is that she is marrying someone else. I just don't see how you could ever be anything but mine.
A/N: I like this chapter a lot more than the last one. Thank you so much for all of your review. I am almost at 400, and never in my WILDEST dreams did I ever think I could get 400 reviews on any story. I am just…. There are no words!
Someone pointed out that wizards don't need coffeemakers. You are right, but see, it's a wizard coffee maker. It brew's it's own coffee, and whenever they empty it, it magically fills itself up again! (lol)
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Chapter 14- The Nearness of You
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It's not the pale moon that excites me
That thrills and delights me
Oh no
It's just the nearness of you
It isn't your sweet conversation
That brings this sensation
Oh no
It's just the nearness of you
The Nearness of You - Norah Jones
(Song Credit: Jackie, who went through a ton of songs to help me find some fresh material to use! You rock girl! You'll always be Sirius' Sweet Sugarpie!)
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"SIRIUS!" Fred called, scrambling over to the older wizard and his brother. "Let him go, you'll kill him!"
Fred jumped on Sirius' back, trying to pull him off of Ron. Harry was standing behind them, his mouth hanging open in shock.
"HARRY!" Fred yelled. "Help me!"
Harry jumped, running over and grabbing Sirius by the arm. "Sirius, stop!" he said. At the same time there was a series of pops in the room, but nobody paid attention.
Sirius didn't let up on Ron as he turned to look at his godson. Fred was still hanging on to his back, but Sirius didn't seem to notice. He turned back to Ron. "I love her! Damn it, I love her and you are ruining her.!" he cried out, tears of anger and frustration began to form in his eyes. "I love her!" he said again.
Before Harry could tell Sirius that Ron hadn't hit Hermione, Remus ran over, grabbing Sirius' shoulder. "Let him go Padfoot." Remus said, his voice steady and calm.
Sirius looked from Harry to Remus and back to Ron. His eyes were large as he let go of Ron, who slid down the wall holding his neck and gasping for air. Fred slid off of Sirius, kneeling down by Harry.
Sirius turned slowly, and saw Ginny, Tonks and Hermione standing behind him. Hermione's eyes were large, and a look of disbelief was on her face. Ginny had a look of equal shock on her face. Tonks was trying to hide a smile, her arm around Hermione's shoulder.
"I……..Sirius tried to explain, his voice was distant and soft as he looked at Hermione.
Remus still had his hand on Sirius' shoulder, and he could feel his friend shaking. "Are you okay?" he asked.
"Isn't anyone going to ask me if I'm okay? I'm the one he tried to kill!" Ron snapped from the floor.
"Ron didn't hit Hermione, Sirius." Harry said, stepping behind Remus, hiding himself, "She was trying to break up the fight and I hit her."
Sirius looked over at Hermione again, who nodded to confirm what Harry said.
Ginny stepped away from Tonks, going over to Harry. "Are you okay?" she asked. His lip was bleeding, his eye was swelling, and he couldn't see well because his glasses were broke.
"I'm fine. Hermione, are you okay? I didn't mean to hit you." he asked.
She nodded. "I'm fine Harry." her voice was small.
Remus walked over to her. "I think I can help." he said, waving his wand over her eye. Hermione felt the pain cool down till it was gone and she could see again from that eye. "It still is bruised a little, but at least the swelling is gone." Remus said.
"Thanks." she replied softly.
"What about me?" Ron growled, still sitting on the floor. There were red marks around his neck from Sirius' hands. His face was cut from his fight with Harry and Fred, and his shirt was ripped.
Sirius walked over to Harry, and put his hand on his godsons back. Harry let out a sigh of relief. He had been a bit afraid to admit to his godfather that he had hit Hermione.
"What about you?" Ginny asked her brother, her voice cold, her hands on her hips.
"He tried to kill me!" Ron cried, pointing at Sirius.
Sirius looked over at Ron, before walking over to him. He extended his hand to the younger man to help him up. "Are you okay?"
Ron looked at the outstretched hand, and ignored it, standing up on his own. "Fine." he snapped.
Sirius dropped his hand to his side. He looked over at Tonks and Hermione, not sure what to say. The room grew silent as everyone tried to calm down, gathering their thoughts.
"Hermione, we need to talk." Ron finally said, his voice cold.
She looked up at him. Tonks squeezed her shoulders and spoke before Hermione could. "What is there to talk about?" the older woman asked.
"It's none of your business." Ron snapped. "Why is everyone ganging up on me?"
"Because you cheated on her!" Fred cried out.
"It's not my fault!" Ron said, spinning around to face the twin. "She never tried! We didn't love each other, we shouldn't have married! I didn't know when I married her that she was in love with him!" Ron cried out, pointing a finger at Sirius.
"What?" Harry snapped. "You can't blame this on her!" Harry was done trying to work with Ron. He couldn't trust him anymore. "She did nothing! Nothing! You ran off on your wedding night! You left your own engagement party!"
"She has never been in love with me Ron, I don't know where you get your information." Sirius said, his voice sad. "The way I feel about her is completely one sided."
"Then why was she with you all night last night?" Ron said. "Pig delivered the letter to your place. If she wasn't there cheating on me, why was she there? Admit it, she's married to me and fucking you!"
"Stop it Ron. This has gone far enough." Remus tried to interfere.
Ron spun on Hermione, who had remained silent, clutching Tonks. "Admit it! You don't love me anymore than I love you, you didn't want to try and make it work!"
"Stop it." Hermione whispered.
"I only married you because of everyone else's expectations. Yes, I'll admit it, I've been seeing Brenda all along. Do you know why? Because she is what I have wanted all along. I don't want to be married to you anymore!" he pointed at Sirius. "He loves you, he can have you!"
"STOP IT!" Hermione screamed, tears of anger streaming down her face. She was confused and hurting. Her heart was elated to hear Sirius admit he loved her, and she was terrified to believe it. He would end up like Ron, she was sure. True love didn't exist. "JUST STOP IT." she threw Tonks' arm off of her shoulder. "I HATE YOU!" she screamed at Ron. She turned to Sirius. "I hate you both!"
Sirius opened his mouth, desperate to make it right, but she was gone with a crack before he could say anything. He looked over at Remus, his heartache written clearly on his face.
Remus put his hand on Sirius' back. "She'll be okay." he said gently.
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Brenda smirked as she studied her reflection in the mirror. Ron thought he could dump her to be with that nerd he was married to. She was going to make the bitch pay.
Taking a hit of her cigarette, Brenda checked the piece of paper on her desk. It was a stolen copy of Ron's wedding guest list. The names and addresses of everyone who had been invited were on the list. But she didn't need them all, there was only one name on the list she needed.
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"Go get cleaned up." Fred said to Ron. "You need to calm down, and then go see Fudge."
"For what?" Ron mumbled.
"You need to get a divorce." Fred stated.
Ron shot him a dirty look, but he turned and went upstairs. A moment later, they could hear the water running in the shower.
Harry turned to Sirius. "She doesn't hate you."
Sirius looked back to Harry. "It doesn't matter. I can't make her happy."
Remus shook his head. "Where would she have gone?" he asked Ginny and Tonks.
"Maybe our place?" Tonks suggested. "I'll go home and check."
Remus nodded as Tonks disappeared. He turned to Ginny, "Do you know where her parents live?"
Ginny nodded. "I'll go see if she went there."
Once Ginny was gone, Remus turned to Harry. "Go fix your glasses and get yourself cleaned up. You too Fred. I'm going to go check The Three Broomsticks, and places around there. Sirius go home and clean yourself up, then you can help me look for her."
"I'll go with you now." Sirius said.
"No, you will go home and clean up first. You're a mess." Remus stated, giving a Sirius a look that clearly said do as I say.
"Fine." Sirius snapped, disappearing with a pop.
"I hope she is okay." Harry said.
"She will be. I think she was just surprised. That was a lot of emotions put on her at once." Remus said. "I'll let you know when we find her. Let me know if she comes home."
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"How did you know where to find me?" Hermione mumbled, looking up as Remus sat down beside her.
"Lucky guess." he said quietly, looking around The Three Broomsticks.
"I don't hate him." she whispered. "I don't hate either of them."
"Sirius knows you don't hate him." Remus explained.
"I didn't know he…." she trailed off.
"He has loved you for a long time." Remus told her. "He's been afraid of you rejecting him because of his age and past."
"I use to have such a crush on him in school. I fell in love with him ages ago. He has always been my first love." she admitted, her cheeks pink.
"And now?" Remus gently asked.
"I don't know." she said. "Last night was so….." she stopped, realizing who she was talking to.
Remus smiled. "Don't worry. I already know."
She blushed deeper pink. "He said I was the first since he went to Azkaban, I thought he… you know…. because he felt sorry for me and was desperate for… stuff…."
"Sirius was a playboy in school, he was only interested in playing around and having fun, and he left a trail of broken hearts." Remus explained. "He use to be one of those guys that wanted any woman who showed interest, and love was never part of the deal." he paused. "Since Sirius came back from Azkaban, that has all changed. He grew up Hermione. He's not some hormonal kid anymore. He was waiting for the right woman. He was waiting for you."
She smiled softly. "Why didn't he ever tell me?" she asked, shaking her head.
"He was afraid to." Remus explained.
"And when he finally does, what do I do? I tell him I hate him." she said. "What do I do now?"
"Go to him. Talk to him." Remus said.
She bit her lip. "I need to. What do I say?"
"Whatever is in your heart." Remus answered, patting her hand.
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Sirius stepped out of the shower, wrapping his towel around his waist. He rubbed his face once, clearing the water out of his eyes. He needed to hurry and dress, he was worried about Hermione. Why did he flip out on Ron like that? Why did he confess the way he felt? And why did she have to hear?
She had reacted like Sirius had always expected her to. Of course she hated him. Right now he hated himself.
Stepping out of the bathroom, Sirius stepped into his bedroom.
"I've been waiting for you…." a low voice purred behind him.
Sirius turned and at the same time, the blonde witch standing behind him pushed him against the wall.
"How did you get in here?" Sirius snapped, shoving her off of him. "What are you doing here?"
"I know you want me Sirius Black." Brenda purred. "I want you…" She reached up to stroke his naked chest with one hand, while using her other hand to unbutton her cloak.
"Get out of here!" Sirius snapped, pushing her hand off of his chest.
"Why? She doesn't love you Sirius. Ron doesn't love me. They are married. We are left all alone and hurting. Why not make each other feel better?" Brenda said, batting her eyelashes as the cloak fell open, revealing a small black nightgown. She didn't know much about Sirius Black, but she knew Hermione loved him. If Hermione thought she could steal Ron back, then Brenda was going to steal Sirius.
Sirius felt his stomach turn. This woman was disgusting. "Cover yourself up and get out of here!" he snapped.
She let the cloak fall from her shoulders, reaching for him again. "I can take the pain away…" she said, and with one hand she reached down and ripped his towel off before Sirius knew what she was doing.
This had gone far enough. She was crazy. Covering himself with one hand, He opened his mouth to call for his wand, when she jumped on him, forcing her mouth on his.
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Hermione appeared in front of his house. Taking a deep breath, she thought about what Remus told her. She was just going to tell Sirius what was in her heart. Which was? She didn't know yet. She loved him, but she didn't know what to say. Remus was right, she would know what to say when she saw him.
Opening the front door, she looked around his living room. He wasn't there. Inspecting the kitchen, she found he wasn't there either.
Taking another deep breath, Hermione made her way up the stairs. There was steam coming from the bathroom, so he must have just got out of the shower.
His bedroom door was partially closed. Taking one more deep breath, she gathered all of her courage. "Sirius, I want you to know that I lo….." she started to say, pushing the bedroom door open.
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