Anything But Mine

Disclaimer: I do not own or claim to own anything in the Harry Potter universe. The only thing that belongs to me is the idea and Brenda. This is for entertainment purposes only.

Summary: Sirius has fallen for her. The only problem is that she married someone else. I just don't see how you could ever be anything but mine.

A/N: This is great! FanFiction . net is now letting us reply to our reviews. I missed answering my reviewers, so this is great! I promise to reply to every review! This story is starting to come to an end, so I hope you like this update, and there are only two more planned chapters. I'm already kicking around a new Sirius/Hermione story, and I have a mountain of one-shot ideas.

Grandpa is doing really good now. He hasn't been back to the hospital, so I am hoping that means things will stay good.

Happy Thanksgiving to all my American readers. I won't be on the Internet at all Thursday; I'm having family over for dinner.

I went to my Elton John concert Friday night. It was amazing. That man can sing and play the piano like nobody else… I loved it… He's one of my all time favorite performers.

Well, that is the update of my life. Now read the update of my story……

Chapter 19 – My Elusive Drug

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But the change didn't come over night
I've been searching for you all my life
All the habits that I couldn't handle
I've swept them under the rug
In exchange for the sweetest addiction
You, my elusive drug

My Elusive Drug – Elton John

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"What happened?" A stunned Sirius asked an equally stunned Remus Lupin.

"Brenda must have said something to her." Remus said.

"I'll go find her." Ginny announced. "She probably went back to the Burrow."

"If anyone is going to go find her it will be me." Sirius said, stepping in front of the small redhead.

Before he could leave, Remus grabbed his arm. "Maybe you shouldn't go find her. Whatever Brenda said, it must have been about you." He turned to Harry and Ginny. "Go check the Burrow and see if she's there, but I doubt that is where she went."

"This is the second time we have had to track her down." Harry grumbled, but he willing left with his wife.

"I'm going to kill that witch." Sirius said. "How dare she come in here and upset Hermione like that?"

Remus shook his head as he entered the kitchen. "What happened?" Tonks asked, following behind him.

"I don't know…" Remus started, but was interrupted by a pop in the living room.

"She went back to the Burrow, but she already left. She packed up some of her clothes and left this…" he handed Remus a note.

"Harry, I'm going to go stay with my mum for a couple of weeks until things calm down with Ron and Sirius. I'll owl you soon. Tell everyone goodbye for me. Hermione." Remus read the small note out loud. "At least we know she is okay."

"Like hell she's okay." Sirius exploded. "What did Brenda say to chase her back to muggle London?"

Remus looked at his friend in concern. The panic and terror was clear on Sirius' handsome face. "I'll be right back." Remus muttered, heading upstairs. What would Brenda have said to make Hermione run like that?

To get to muggle London, she'd have to go through The Leaky Cauldron first. Remus debated going back to get Sirius but decided against it, whatever happened he had a feeling Sirius being there would make it worse. Without telling anyone, he apparated.

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"Did you hear that?" Sirius said, his head jerking up.

"Hear what?" Tonks asked, looking over at her cousin.

"Remus just apparated, I heard the crack." Sirius said, his face tense.

"From upstairs? How would you hear that?" Tonks asked.

"Padfoot, remember? Where did Remus go?" Sirius growled.

"I'm sure wherever he went, he had a reason. Sit down you are making me nervous." Tonks demanded.

"I'm not sitting down. What happened Tonks? I don't understand. I was so close to gaining her trust…" his voice cracked as he sat down with a sigh. "She won't open up to me. She won't tell me how she feels; she refuses to talk about anything. I practically begged her to tell me she loved me, and she wouldn't."

Tonks moved over beside him, wrapping her arm around his shoulder. "She is just afraid of being hurt. She's afraid of believing in love, all you can do is show her you'd never lie to her or betray her. Let her know what she means to you, and she'll come around."

"But what would Brenda have said?" Sirius asked.

"Have you ever spoken with Brenda? Does she have anything she can use as a weapon against Hermione?" Tonks asked.

"She showed up at my house when I was getting out of the shower. She went on about how we were both lonely, and she kissed me. I tried to push her away but she wouldn't let go. Hermione came in so I transfigured Brenda into a pig real fast and threw her out." Sirius explained.

"Did you tell Hermione?" Tonks asked.

Sirius shook his head. "I was going to but then Ron's owl showed up with the note about the annulment, and then we…."

"Brenda must have said something about it then. But you can be sure she made it sound different." Tonks sighed. "I am going to hex that witch someday. Let Remus talk to Hermione, he's the only one that can make her see logic sometimes. They have a close bond, he'll bring her around."

Sirius nodded, but couldn't fight the jealously that burned his stomach. Hermione trusted Remus with all her heart, it was clear. Why Remus and not him?

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"Hey Tom." Remus said, approaching the dusty counter.

"Hey Lupin. What can I get fer ya?" Tom asked, setting down an old rag.

"I am looking for someone Tom. Hermione Granger, did she happen to check in for the night?" Remus asked.

Tom smiled. "She checked in about five minutes ago. Room 9. She's turned into a real looker that Granger."

"Thanks Tom." Remus said, making his way up the stairs to room 9. He softly knocked on the door. "Hermione, open up!"

When there was no answer, Remus tried the knob and was surprised to find the door unlocked. He pushed it open slowly. "Hermione?" he said gently.

She was sitting in the small window seat, her face away from the door. "I thought you were Sirius." She said in a small voice.

"I figured you wouldn't want to see him right now." Remus replied, shutting the door.

"I never want to see him again." Hermione replied.

Remus didn't make a move towards the girl; instead he sat down on the end of her bed. He didn't say anything as she sighed and stood up, walking over to the bed and sitting down beside him.

"I didn't want to cheat on Ron you know. But when Sirius kissed me my whole world fell into place. It felt so right; I couldn't walk away from him. Sirius told me I was the first girl he'd been with since before Azkaban, and I was a fool and believed him."

Remus felt his stomach drop as he realized what Brenda must have said. Hermione must have realized he had figured it out as well.

"She wasn't lying Remus. She knew about a small scar he has on his inner thigh. One you wouldn't see unless he was nude. She described what she did…." She dissolved into tears.

Remus gently put his arm around her. She collapsed into his embrace and cried, soaking his shirt. There was no way Sirius would have touched Brenda. Somehow Brenda had found about this scar and made up the story to hurt Hermione and push her away from Sirius. "There has to be an explanation for this Hermione." He said softly. "I don't see Sirius touching Brenda. And he would never lie to you, he loves you."

"I want to trust him Remus. I don't want to believe he would lie or hurt me. But how else would she know about that scar? Even if he slept with her before me, he still lied."

"We will figure it out Hermione." Remus replied, stroking her hair softly.

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"Why isn't he back yet?" Sirius demanded, staring at his watch.

"Just calm down. He must have found her." Tonks said. "Let Remus handle it, okay?"

"I can't just let Remus handle it Tonks, I love her. Whatever happened, I need to try and fix it." Sirius said.

Tonks sighed. "Chances are Remus went to the Leaky Cauldron first to see if she had made it to muggle London yet. Try there first."

Sirius kissed her cheek before jumping up and leaving.

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"Are you okay?" Remus asked Hermione.

"I don't know. What I do know is I need to get away from this for a while. That is why I wanted to go to mums. I need time to think.

Remus leaned back against the wall, letting Hermione rest against him. "I think you should talk to Sirius and find out what the truth is before you leave."

"Maybe…." She muttered.

"It is only…." Remus never had a chance to finish his sentence as the room was filled with a loud crack. "Hello Sirius…."

"Tom gave me the room…." Sirius started to say, turning towards the bed. "WHAT THE HELL?"

"Don't you say a word Padfoot." Remus said, his voice full of warning.

Sirius' eyes narrowed as he saw his best friend holding Hermione, but he kept his mouth shut.

"What are you doing here." Her voice was bitter as she stood up, putting her hands on her hips. She tried to ignore the flash of hurt in his eyes, but it was hard.

"What is going on Hermione? What happened? What do you want from me?" Sirius asked.

"Have you ever lied to her Sirius?" Remus asked, standing up also.

"Never. I care to much to lie to her." Sirius replied.

"Stop pretending you liar. Just go. I should have known not to trust 'love'. Go find Brenda, have fun." She muttered, her face cold.

"WHAT?" he cried out. "Brenda?"

"Don't pretend Sirius. She told me. She told me how much she enjoyed licking your scar. You know which one, the one I just licked this morning." Hermione yelled, forgetting Remus was in the room.

Sirius looked shocked. "I never let her…. She never…." He trailed off, a look of realization crossing his face.

Hermione mistook the look as admittance, her stomach sinking and her heart shattering as her head began to spin. Remus mistook the look as well. He stepped forward slightly. "Padfoot?" he whispered, feeling Hermione clutch his arm so hard she drew blood.

"The pig." Sirius muttered, turning to Hermione. "I know why her story sounded real Hermione. I know how she knew about my scar, but please believe me Hermione, I never slept with her. I wasn't lying to you. There hasn't been anyone since before Azkaban. I wouldn't lie to you, I love you damn it. I'll do anything to prove it." He ran a hand through his hair. "She came into my house and tried to seduce me when I was getting out of the shower. She kissed me and took my towel off. I heard you come in and panicked, so I turned her into a pig. She must have seen the scar while I was holding her as a pig.

Hermione looked at him, uncertainty clear in her gaze. "That pig was Brenda?"

"Yes, I swear, it's the truth. I didn't tell you because you got Ron's letter and we got side tracked."

Hermione sighed, letting go of Remus. "I believe you Sirius." She said, watching the handsome wizard's face relax immediately. "But it doesn't change anything. I'm still going home."

"Why?" Sirius asked softly.

"Because it will always be like this Sirius. This is proof. I am afraid to trust you. I'm afraid to trust love. I'll wake up everyday wondering if this is the day you'll decided you are tired of me, or if this is the day you'll meet someone new. I'll always wonder when you'll realize you don't love me anymore." Hermione said.

"That will never happen Hermione." Sirius said, reaching his hand out to her.

Hermione stared at his hand, but didn't move to take it. "I can't take that chance, it will hurt to much."

Remus slipped out of the room quietly, leaving them to work it out.

Sirius fought the tears that were in his eyes. "Some brave Gryffindor you are. I love you damn it, I'm not letting you go because you are afraid. We will handle Brenda together." He reached down and grabbed her waist pulling her to him. "And then I'll spend everyday for the rest of my life showing you that you have nothing to fear. I'm not letting you leave this room until you admit you love me."

"I a…" she tried to say, but was cut off when Sirius pushed her back against the wall, pressing his body to hers and kissing her with force.

"Tell me you love me damn it." He demanded, kissing her harder as tears rolled down his cheeks and mixed with her tears. "Tell me…." He repeated between kisses.

Hermione kissed him back, trying to tell him with kisses what she couldn't tell him in words. She wrapped her arms around his neck as he ran his hands up her legs, pushing her skirt up and hooking a finger in her panties, pulling them around her ankles. She quickly kicked them off, reaching for his pants and undoing the zipper.

She wrapped her legs around his waist as he entered her, pressing her against the wall with each thrust. His lips sought her cheeks and eyes as he cried onto her face. "Tell me…" he repeated with each thrust. "Tell me… tell me…"

Hermione tasted the salt on her lips from his tears. She could feel his hands burning her legs as he held her up, his hardness filling her. The beating of his heart matched the pounding in her own chest.

"Tell me…" he demanded again, biting down on her neck as he spoke.

Hermione felt the building of her orgasm, and her heart constricted as she realized this was her happiness. He was her chance. His tears were for her. His body was loving her body. She loved him. Body, mind, and soul, she loved him.

"Tell me…" he repeated.

She found his lips, kissing him softly. On his next thrust, she told him what they both needed to hear. "I love you Sirius. I love you… I love you…." She repeated with each of his thrusts.

He held her close to his body as he slowly pulled out of her, spent and elated. He kissed the top of her head. "Tell me again…" he whispered.

She leaned up against his mouth. "I love you Sirius Black. I'll never be anything but yours."

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It's not over yet… there's probably another chapter or two of fluff to wrap it up. Review please…..