CHAPTER VI. CURSE
"No...
Mizi..."
"Forget her," Jira sighs, sitting in the grass next
to Riko. "It sounds harsh, I know, but it is for the best. Her
heart has broken, do not let your own heart break, too!"
"You
don't understand it," says Riko gloomily, "you have no
idea what this means to me..."
"Well, I do have a
'heart', Riko-san," says Jira, "I can understand the meaning
of sadness, but I never experienced a broken heart. So no,
I can not understand what you are going through at the
moment." He glares into the distance, sighs.
"Y'know, it's
strange," he suddenly mutters, "how much I care about her while
we know each other for how long, a few months? And I never hesitated
to acknowledge the way I feel about her, even though she's a
persocom." Jira smiles.
"Yeah, that is Nepuchun-sama's
fault," she says, "Mizumi was made to have a heart, and to
complete it, he installed something – I do not know what exactly,
because he did not installed it in that shape into Saka and me –
that gives her the ability to love and be loved. Nepuchun-sama,
though, was afraid that no guy would dare to love her because she is
a persocom, and so... something in that programming... can
make the person who secretly likes her back, fall madly in love with
her all of a sudden."
"So I'm the first victim of her
programming," says Riko, smiling weakly. Jira nods.
"Yes...
the first one, too," she giggles, "so, congratulations on your
scoop, Riko-san!"
"Should I be happy with it, then?"
"You
may decide," she grins. "Anyway, chatted enough, I should get
back to the restaurant before Tazuka-san fires me, too. What are you
going to do?"
"Try to get back in that house, I suppose," he
says. "Due that programming or not, I do like her a lot. I
want to help her." Jira shrugs.
"Well, I just hope you manage
to get into that house and complete that new duty of yours. Good
luck, and see you!"
"Did you calm down now, mother?"
Mizumi glares at her 'daughter' gloomily.
"Yes... why did I
send him away, Saka? I do not even know it myself..." Saka sighs,
embraces her mother.
"I know," she says, "you are scared,
are you not? You like him, but you know that strong feelings will
make you crash, just like what has happened today." Mizumi
sighs.
"And besides all of that... I feel so guilty, Saka. If he
is feeling attracted to me, it is my fault... All because of my
programming..."
"How did you find out about that?" asks Saka
calmly. "I can not remember someone told you about it."
"I
found it out just now," Mizumi mutters, "I was in the capsule, I
had contact with Nepuchun-sama's soul. He told me this. All about
this...curse."
"Mother, it is not a curse!" says Saka
immediately. "You should be happy that our creator made this all
possible for you! You are the only one with this gift, the rest of us
will never feel it like you can now!"
"Be happy!" Mizumi
calls. "Be happy you can not feel it, Saka! I wish I was like you!
An A.I., an Artificial Intelligence that does not crash the whole
day, that does not have to 'live' with this curse! It is not a
bless to love, Saka, it really is a curse!" She falls down on her
knees. "A curse that will destroy me eventually..."
"Do not
talk like that!" Saka says, grabbing Mizumi's shoulders. "You
are improving, did you never noticed that? In the
beginning, you crashed when Riko-san asked him to call him by name,
and now you can even call him Riko-chan without a pain!"
"I
will not improve fast enough to survive all of this," Mizumi
whispers, "it is the reason, the only reason I keep telling him:
"Don't love me"! But I know that, due to the curse that's
laid on me, his feelings can not be hidden for long anymore. And
there is more..." She lays her hand against her chest. "If he
tells me he loves me and I will cease to function, not
only my heart will be broken. His heart will be, too... And I
do not want him to die. I wish I never grew to like him this much,
Saka!" she cries. "It can not end on a proper way anymore... I
signed my own 'death' with these feelings I am having..." She
lays her hands against her face, cries for a long while. "I can not
take this any longer, Saka... Maybe I should just fit an end to
this..."
"Mother, NO!"
"Don't talk like that, Mizi."
The persocoms both look up: Riko's standing in the door's
opening. "It took me a while, but I managed to get in again," he
says, "and I've heard everything."
